Chapter Eighteen
Anthony
“You are. I can’t wait until you believe it” battles for space in my brain with “just like I’m yours” and “I think I’m in love with you.” I can’t wrap my head around the things he says to me, how real they sound, how much I want to believe him.
I dig my fingers into his muscular thighs, wanting to show Kason even a fraction of the care he’s shown me.
I work my way down his thighs, to his calves and finally his feet, smiling at each moan and sated sound.
I love the way he feels, the way his muscles move beneath my hands, love knowing that the breathless sounds coming from him are due to me.
Once his feet are properly massaged, I work my way up again.
“How can something feel so good yet like torture at the same time?” Kason asks.
“Yeah, I was wondering the same thing when you did this to me. Only I’m not as patient as you, I don’t think. I need you too much.”
“I need you just as much. Come here, beautiful. Give me your mouth. Then you can sit on my face while you decide if you want to fuck me or want me to fuck you.”
My hard, aching cock twitches. How can I deny him when I want exactly what he’s asking for?
Kason rolls to his back, and I straddle him again. Our torsos are lined up, our cocks too, and I rut against him as his hands come around and grab my ass.
“You gonna give me that pretty mouth of yours? Best kisser I’ve ever had. I love having my tongue inside you. Any part of you.”
Every one of his words is like a drug to me, shooting me higher.
I want to be all those things to him, want to be pretty, sexy, and the best at everything for Kason.
I press our lips together, let his tongue flick inside my mouth, searching, tasting, while doing the same for him.
His finger dips into my crack, rubs my rim while we thrust and kiss, hungry for each other.
My hands fist in his dark hair. I want to devour him, want inside him and him inside me and for us to never be apart.
I pull back before I come just from kissing and frotting. Kason smiles up at me, knowing exactly what is happening. “Shut up,” I tell him.
“I didn’t say anything.”
“I know what you’re thinking.”
“You want me. I turn you on so much, you can hardly handle it…but guess what, gorgeous? You do the same for me, and I’m ready to taste you. Get your ass up here and give me your hole.”
My dick spasms again, body feeling edgy and ready to unload.
I want exactly what he says, though, need to feel his tongue on me and in me, so I turn around, scramble up his body, Kason scooting down some before he pulls my ass down on his face, rubs his tongue up and down my crease, then buries his face between my cheeks like my damn ass is the only way he can breathe.
I’m dying, it feels so good. Having such a sexy, kind man be so hungry for me goes to my head like nothing else has before.
I ride his face, push back against him, whimper and moan for him.
Kason growls into my ass, the sound feral and needy.
His tongue flicks against my hole, pushes at my rim, working its way inside me.
He eats me out like I’m his last meal, as if he’ll never get another chance at my ass and he needs it more than anything.
I’m dying to bust my nut, but I’m not nearly ready for this to be over yet.
I have to force myself off him, but Kason reaches for me again. “Come on, pretty boy. I’m still hungry.”
“I know, but I need you too. I want more of your hole too.”
He gives me this dazzling, happy smile that only Kason gives. It’s so wild how it’s aimed at me so often, that being with me can make him do that, I can make him do that, and I’m going to spend every day continuing to give this to him.
“Mmm, my perfect boyfriend wants to fuck me. I want to be all filled with you.”
I let out a needy groan, my head spinning I’m so turned on.
“Jesus, you’re hot. Everything you say makes me wild.
” I reach over to the nightstand, grabbing lube and a condom.
“If we can hold off, I’m game to flip fuck.
I just know I want to feel you, be inside you.
It’s not often I crave topping, but…” My voice lowers. “Everything is different with you.”
“God, you’re so fucking great. Everything is different with you too.”
Please, please, please don’t let me lose this.
I slick my fingers with lube and reach down behind his balls. Kason pulls me down beside him, both on our sides. He throws his top leg over my hip, opening himself up for me, this big, strong athlete giving me free rein over his body.
Our mouths fuse together again, bodies rutting, my finger slipping into his crease.
I rub his rim while we kiss, then push the tip of my finger inside him.
He’s tight, but I can tell Kason is relaxing his body.
It’s so hot inside him. I push farther in, like my finger is seeking the warmth.
Our hips meet, and he pushes back against my hand.
I pull out some, then push forward again, giving him more of my digit.
Kason moans into my mouth, my movements speeding up now.
I finger-fuck him, tongue-fuck his mouth, crave every single part of him I can have.
I go from one finger to two, twisting them, fucking into him, devouring his mouth at the same time.
Kason clings to me, makes needy sounds into my mouth, and it’s the biggest fucking rush.
I’ve never doubted myself when it comes to sex, but being with him is like a whole new experience.
He really does make me feel like I’m the best he’s ever had.
Kason lets me take my time. Since it’s been a while for him, I want to make sure I give him all the prep he deserves.
We change positions, him on top of me, straddling me, while we kiss and I work a third finger into him.
He gasps into my mouth, and I immediately stop, but he says, “No. Keep going. It feels good. Just adjusting. I want it.”
I want this and everything else with him.
I ease him to his back, go down between his legs.
With more lube on my fingers, I work three into him again, mouth on his dick.
Kason gives the sexiest little moan in response, my mouth and fingers working in tandem to bring him pleasure.
He fucks up and into my mouth, knowing just how much I can take.
“You feel so fucking good, Ant. I can’t wait to have you inside me. Can’t wait to give you my ass. I want you in me raw. You know how much I love your cum. I want it in my ass too.”
His words shock my mouth away from his dick and make my balls throb. “You want me to fuck you without a condom?”
“Only if you want to. I’m negative. I’m screened regularly, and I haven’t been with anyone in…
God, since three STI screenings ago? I used a rubber with her—hell, with everyone I’m with.
If you want to wait until I have another one, that’s fine.
Or, again, if it’s not something you want to do at all. ”
“I’m negative too. I get tested every three months, and I was just tested six weeks ago. I’ve only been with you.”
“It’s your call, beautiful.”
I run my fingers through his wet hair. “We are boyfriends.”
“That doesn’t mean you owe me that or anything else.”
My heart melts…or maybe it fortifies. Gets stronger and bigger because this man is so fucking incredible.
“I know. I would never feel that way with you.” And it’s true.
I trust Kason, trust him more than I’ve ever trusted anyone in my life, more than I thought was possible for me to trust someone.
“I want to fill you with my cum. I want to feel you raw.”
“Fuck yes.” He reaches between us and strokes my dick. “I want to feel this perfect fucking cock with nothing between us.” Kason positions himself on his hands and knees, ass in the air. “Come here and fuck me, then.”
“Oh my God. Why are you so hot?” I kneel behind him.
“Not as hot as my boyfriend.”
“You’re so good at praising me. I… Thank you for that.”
“You don’t have to thank me. I love doing it, and everything I say is true.”
“I’m perfect?”
He shrugs. “To me, you are. Well, if you fuck me soon.”
I laugh, enjoying how he keeps things fun, then lube up.
I can’t believe we’re going to do this, can’t believe I get Kason Maddox this way.
Hand at the base of my erection, I press against his rim.
He pushes out, helping me to work inside.
I tremble, eyes rolling back in my head.
“Oh God…baby. You’re so fucking hot…so tight.
Jesus, I’ve never felt anything like it.
” I push farther into him, sliding in slowly so as not to hurt him. “Are you okay? Is this okay?”
“Fuck yes. Keep going. Slow for now, but don’t you dare stop.”
I laugh and he gasps, then chuckles, his hole spasming around my dick.
“Holy shit. Stop. You can’t laugh.”
“Then don’t make me.” He reaches underneath himself, slowly stroking his cock. “Mmm, a little more.”
I pull out some, then push deeper into him. I can’t take my eyes off his hole, the way his tight rim opens up for me, swallows my dick. He doesn’t shave like I do, little whisps of hair running down his crease, and it’s the most mouthwatering thing I’ve ever seen, ever tasted, ever felt.
Reaching around him, I replace his hand with mine, working his dick and his ass simultaneously, jerking him as I give him small thrusts, each time sinking deeper and deeper into all that heat.
I don’t realize I’m holding my breath until my groin meets his ass and I let a deep, trapped breath escape, Kason doing the same.
“Never felt so fucking full, and I love it. Give it to me, little dancer. Fuck me until I come all over the mattress and I’m filled with your load.”
“Holy fucking dirty talk.” I pull back, then snap my hips forward again.
I’ve never felt anything like his body, never been inside something so tight.
The slide of his ass up and down my dick makes my world spin, makes my body feel like it’s cracking apart in a way I never knew I would need, like the shattering is pleasure and there’s nothing I wouldn’t do for more of it.
My hands dig into his hips, holding him as I fuck into him over and over.
Kason works his dick, stroking himself in quick tugs.
“You don’t even know what this is like…” I tell him.
“Next time you have to do it to me. There’s no way I can hold off for a flip fuck tonight, but I want you in me raw, want to feel you dicking me down with nothing between us until my hole is leaking with your cum. ”
“Me too. I’m gonna keep you full of my cum, want to walk around full of yours too. Want to always have some of my boyfriend inside me. You’re so fucking good for me, Ant. Everything about you. I’ll never want to let you go. You’re mine.”
I want that, want it so much it just might kill me to lose him. I’ve never wanted to belong to someone, never wanted to be claimed the way I do with him. I’ve spent most of my life trying to find a place to belong, and that place is right here with Kason.
“I’m gonna come. Fuck, I can’t hold back anymore.”
“Me neither. Give it to me, Ant.”
The whole room explodes with color. I’m free-falling, and there’s nothing I crave more than the drop.
My dick twitches inside him, balls emptying in pulse after pulse, filling Kason the way we both need.
My release makes the ride even smoother, cum coating my dick and pushing back into him.
I knock his hand away, take hold of his dick, still thrusting but now stroking, needing to give him the same pleasure he’s given me.
“You’re filled with my cum, baby. It’s so fucking hot.
I’m gonna watch it leak out of you all damn night.
” I snap my hips forward again, and Kason’s ass clenches around my dick.
His cock pulses in my hand, hot, thick cum covering my fingers, shooting onto the mattress as I work every drop of his release out of his balls.
We fall to the bed together, Kason pulling me into his arms. “Spend my bye week with me. I want you in my bed every night.”
“Yes.” The word comes out so easily. Maybe later I’ll be nervous about it, but I can’t be right now.
“This weekend…will you fly to Milwaukee with me? Spend a couple of days with me and my family? They want to meet my boyfriend.”
A brief moment of panic clings to me. “I haven’t… I’ve never…”
“I know.”
“What if they don’t like me?”
“They will. They’ll love you.”
Just like with everything else recently, I put my trust in Kason. “Yes.”
He falls asleep before me, a sweet smile on his face, and as much as I want to drift off with him, all I can think about is how excited I am about what I just agreed to do. Scared out of my mind? Of course. But excited too.
I slip out of bed, grab my phone, and close myself in the bathroom. I don’t think I’ll be able to rest until I share this with my friends.
Me: I’m going to Milwaukee to meet Kason’s family this weekend. I’m…feeling a million things. I don’t know where to start.
I’m happy. Happier than I’ve ever been.
Hayes: Oh my God! That’s great! I was soooo nervous to meet Rylan’s parents, but it went great. I know it’ll turn out great for you too!
Donovan: I’m so happy for you! They’re going to love you!
I really hope so. All I know is I’m honored he asked me and grateful I have my friends to share it with.