Chapter 7 #2
I excuse myself and head out the front door to stand on the hot porch. A group of kids play soccer in the street with a partially deflated ball. They don’t seem to care. When the door opens behind me I expect to see my mother, but it’s Nick and he has a grim expression on his face.
“That’s a lot of information,” he says, leaning against the porch rail. “You do this all the time?”
“Never.” He raises his eyebrows. “This is the first time I’ve done any research with her. I’m not sure how she does it.”
“Me neither.” He picks up his camera and takes a few shots of the house and street. “I feel like there’s something between us—an elephant or something.”
“You mean the pier?”
“You were upset.”
“I was, but it doesn’t have anything to do with this.”
His large, tanned hands clench the rail. “I’m a good listener.”
“Thanks, but…I was just being dramatic.” He doesn’t look convinced. “Fine. I had a break up. A bad one.”
“Ah, okay.” His jaw tightens. “That’s why I don’t date.”
I’d heard this about the others, of course. Whit, Justin, and Pete. “No?”
“I’m not good with heartache. Not after my mom died.”
“Oh,” I say, not knowing what else to say, other than, “I’m sorry.”
“Thanks. It was a long time ago. I was in elementary school but after that I just…” He gives me a tight grin. “It’s easier not making attachments.”
I consider my next comment but go for it anyway. “I heard a rumor. About you and your friends.”
His lips quirk up. “Did you now?”
“That none of you date much.”
“Anita?” I shook my head and that brought a spark of curiosity in his eye. “Well whoever told you that was right. The girls around here…things get complicated. We all have goals. Places to see outside of Ocean Beach.”
“And the girls here?”
“A lot of them want to settle and pop out babies.”
“Yeah, no thanks,” I say. “I mean, if that’s what they want, but for me? No.”
“So, we made a pact in the 9th grade.”
The Pact.
“What kind of pact?”
“No serious relationships.” He looks at the kids in the street. “And always wear a condom.”
“That’s a good rule.” I’d been on the pill since I was sixteen for period issues. Thank god, because Mason didn’t always use protection. He didn’t like how it felt. What a dick.
“And the pact worked?”
“It did,” he says. “I guess.”
I tilt my head. “What’s the problem?”
“Sometimes someone comes in your life and throws everything upside down, you know?”
My breath caught. “Yeah, I do know. What happens then? Would you toss out the pact?”
I hear my mother speaking near the front door, saying her thank yous and goodbyes. Nick straightens but replies before she walks onto the porch, “A pact like ours can’t be broken, but if everyone agrees maybe it can be altered.”
He walks off the porch, lifting his camera to his eye. I smile tightly at my mother as she steps into the hot summer air. I have no idea what Nicholas is talking about, what he means, but in the pit of my belly I have a feeling it’s about me.
“Did you get what you needed?” I ask on the way back to the campground. We dropped Nick off at the marina. I was disappointed none of the others were around but my heart did skip a beat when he said goodbye and squeezed my shoulder on his way out of the car.
She nods. “I think so. Such a brave family. I can’t imagine having to live with a nightmare like that for your entire life.”
“You really seemed to connect to her.”
“I try,” she flips the turn signal when we reach a stop light. “People just want to be heard and they want to feel safe. I can try my best to provide that for them.”
I pick up the file folder my mother slid between the seats. Inside is the photo of Darlene and her friend. “This is a really cool picture.”
She nods. “That tip about the Myrtle Beach stuff. That’s an angle I’ve been wanting to push. I asked Darlene if she’s heard of any other people narrowly escaping Gaskins.”
“Had she?” The thought of crossing paths with Donald Gaskins and escaping is a chilling one.
“Some vague rumors. Nothing concrete.”
I bite my tongue for a moment and then say, “Rumor has it you were pretty big on the whole, ‘sneaking out at night to go to Myrtle Beach’ thing when you were younger.”
She glances at me from the corner of her eye. “Where did you hear that?”
“From Anita and some of the others at the beach.”
“From Sugar, then.”
I shrug. “I guess.”
Her hands tense on the steering wheel. “It was stupid kid stuff. Things were different back then, but it’s no big surprise she blabbed.”
That took me by surprise. Why was she so defensive of this? And why the bitter tone about Sugar? “Sounds like fun though—late night hijinks with the cousins.”
“It was stupid. We were young and it was idiotic. We could have gotten in serious trouble.”
I hold my hands up in defeat. “Okay, jeez, why so angry?”
“I’m sorry,” she sighs, turning to give me an apologetic smile. “It was stupid and I’m just mad at Sugar—I’ve been angry with her for decades.”
“Decades?”
“Yeah, we had a falling out—a big one, way back. We’ve tried to talk a couple of times and Jimmy pushed us to play nice but, I don’t know, things are too far gone between us.”
“What happened?” I ask.
“Nope. Don’t even try.”
I hold my hands up. “What? You brought it up!”
“I did, and now, I’m shutting it down.” Her jaw is set and I know there’s no use arguing with her.
I shake my head and mutter, “Typical,” under my breath.
“It was a long time ago and I’m trying to deal with it. It’s one reason I came back up here this summer. I’ll tell you when I’m ready, but right now the last thing I need is for you kids to gossip about it all.”
I want to push harder but don’t. Instead, I lean my head against the window and close my eyes. If my mother won’t tell me the truth, I know someone who will be happy to share dirt about the family to anyone that will listen.