17. Kai
Kai
U nfortunately, it was illegal to murder your alphas in most countries.
A too-high percentage of alphas had this nasty habit of killing their omegas in fits of rage and getting away with it. But if an omega killed their alpha, especially a male omega, there’d be no hope for me.
They’d ship me off to an omega prison and I would have to wear orange for the rest of my life.
Joke’s on them, though. I can make any colour look good.
I’d considered murder, especially two years ago when Camille’s health took a sharp turn. They both visited her after work every night for weeks and left me alone in the giant fucking house I didn’t ask for.
The main issue was, I didn’t know if I could make it look like an accident. But I wasn’t sure I wanted to. There’d be no better way to drive Zania absolutely fucking insane than causing so much bad press that it would permanently ruin her image.
But, whatever.
It wasn’t like it was all bad.
Even though Sin basically cheated on me and Cas had been wanting to for so long that it was fucking weird I’d become used to it, I had Brandy, and they didn’t.
I was the one with a bite on my neck where she’d sunk her teeth into me when I made her come for the millionth time last night. And she’d almost cried when we had to leave the arbour because my cock and bites were just that good.
Cas and Sin had never wanted me so much they’d actually fucking cried.
I mean, who the fuck even does that?
Mated omegas. That’s fucking who.
So, I told her I needed space to sort out shit with my mates.
Who were kneeling in front of me like good little alphas who knew they had totally fucked up.
“I should have done this ages ago,” I said as I glared at them both.
I wish I had my whip, but it was in the closet and I couldn’t break my stride.
I was wearing my long, sleek black leather skirt and combat boots. Add in a sheer vest, studs, and goth makeup, and it was a pretty stark contrast to Sin’s usual butler suit, and Cas’s casual jeans and white T. But absolutely perfect for the occasion.
I’d made them put their hands on their laps and keep their fucking heads down because if they apologised with their sexy looks and their smooth as fuck voices, then I’d give in to them like always.
I’d already spent the past twenty minutes yelling at them for being assholes, and I was running out of steam.
“Kai, we’ve already said we’re sorry a million fucking times. What else do you want from us?” Caspian growled.
“Are you fucking serious right now? Do you want me to leave? Because I can do it. I’ll get the fuck out of here and you’ll never see me again.”
I’d whisk Brandy away to the other side of the world and Sin’s and Cas’s entire families would celebrate because we were both finally ‘dealt with’.
I always hoped my alphas would change and put me first. But maybe they would do it if they realised Brandy and I were now a package deal.
Not that she’d exactly agreed to anything more than biting. We’d been too busy fucking on the high of our bond to get practical.
The main problem was I’d embarrassed the hell out of myself. I wasn’t strong and growly and turned her on like Cas, and I wasn’t cool and collected and loved her passionately like Sin. All I did was blub all over her and then she fucked me. Dead romantic.
I mean, yeah, I was kind of riding high on the fact she’d chosen me in the end. But it still could have been a pity fuck to clear out the guilt she felt for fucking Sin.
Plus, I couldn’t even remember how we’d gotten home. I had vague memories of being in a car with her, but that was about it.
So, who knew if she was going to turn around the next time we saw her and say ‘Sorry, I only want to mate with alphas’ and then kick me out of the pack like Zania had always promised would happen if Sin and Cas found another omega.
I had to shake my head to push away those thoughts. I had to believe what she said about being my omega because I needed it to be fucking true.
If it turned out to be lip service so she could get close to my alphas, I’d fucking lose it and really kill someone. It wasn’t as if people hadn’t tried that shit before.
Because what would happen if Brandy joined our pack and I was pushed to the side? I wanted to see Sin’s and Cas’s bites riding her neck so fucking badly. But she’d still snuck into my heat suite right at the start. Maybe winding me up like this was all part of her grand plan.
My anger soared again as those crazy thoughts crept over me, so, naturally, I took it out on my alphas.
“I’ll fucking cleave if I have to!” I shouted. “Don’t think I won’t. I’m done with your bullshit. I’ve put up with this for five years and you guys still don’t get that I’m your fucking omega! I’m your mate! I’m supposed to be the top fucking priority and you just—”
My voice cracked and I bit back my tears because if I started crying now, they would smother me and it was exactly what I wanted. All they had to do was pile on me and I’d forgive them and then I’d be happy for a whole week before something else happened and we went straight back to square one.
“Kai.” Caspian edged forward, and I slammed my foot down in front of him.
“I didn’t say you could move!” I yelled, my eyes wide, nostrils flaring as my pain and frustration seeped into my scent.
I was so fucking weak. I told Brandy I’d take care of her and protect her, and I couldn’t even get my alphas to do what I said.
“I truly am so sorry,” Sin said, sounding like he actually fucking meant it. “I wasn’t able to think yesterday. I was too wrapped up in her scent.”
Her scent.
Which was exactly like mine.
Yeah, I could give him that because brandy was my new favourite thing. But I wasn’t letting it go.
“Just because you apologise doesn’t change how you dragged another omega off to fuck— in fucking public ! You did it in front of our fucking friends and family. And you didn’t even invite me! You just went off and fucked her.”
I nearly whined, and I had to rein myself back in. If I got all emotional and whatever, they’d get the upper hand.
“And you!” I rounded on Caspian, who was looking up at me through his sexy shaggy post-shower hair with a glare. “I basically told you to stay with me and you just fucked off because, what? You couldn’t be arsed dealing with the man you’re supposed to love?”
He’d been even more fucked up than I had since the party.
Sin said it was because Camille was leaving.
Not just swanning off to some treatment centre for a couple weeks, before coming back all dejected.
Oh no, she was full-on fucking off to who knew where, and my alphas weren’t even allowed to see her again.
Just like I’d always wanted.
“You’ve changed your tune,” Caspian growled, not even answering me properly. “All I remember was you shouting at me to leave.”
He wasn’t wrong, but that didn’t mean he was right, either.
“Yeah, I fucking have changed. I have my own omega now, so I get to experience what it’s really like to be in a pack. I’m not your little fucking side project that you love when it’s convenient for you.”
“Is that what you think?” Caspian snapped right back. “Do you think we just keep you around for fun?”
What was I supposed to think? How could I describe to them what it meant to have someone claim themselves as only yours? I’d been waiting five years to be their one and only omega, and now Brandy was here. And she couldn’t have any other omegas apart from me. I wouldn’t let her.
She’d made loads of claims, and it was up to her to keep her promises. Because if she betrayed me like these two, I didn’t know what I’d do.
I had to keep remembering what I’d felt when we exchanged bites, how she’d opened her heart to me.
I’d spent so fucking long making sure no one else got close to them, and now I wanted to bring Brandy into our pack before she could escape.
Even if it was all a lie, I’d find a way to make her love us.
“If I really mattered, you wouldn’t choose other omegas over me every single fucking time.”
Sin rose on his knees, and I shot out a hand.
“Stop! Don’t move!” I burst out. But, as soon as I shouted, he submissively crawled across the carpet, instantly turning me on.
As soon as he slotted himself between my thighs, looking up at me like he was about to beg me for forgiveness, I was a goner.
I literally couldn’t resist it when my alphas put me in charge.
But this is what they did. They got all apologetic and then they went straight back out and did the same fucking thing all over again.
“Kai,” Sin said softly, his hand gently sweeping over my stomach to hold my hip. “Do you really believe that?”
I folded my arms, glaring at him. “Why wouldn’t I? You guys always fuck off and do whatever you want with whoever you want.”
No matter how much I needed cuddles and cock, I had to make it clear to them it was a fucking honour to even touch me. And it would be the same for Brandy. I’d only let them near her once I knew for sure she wasn’t playing me. I was determined to be in charge here.
Well, until Sin cupped my cheek, bringing himself near enough so hints of vanilla curled through my nose and my omega instincts instantly perked up.
But he didn’t use his aura, and that’s what mattered. He didn’t force me to calm down; he kept looking, watching, waiting to see what I was going to do.
I drew in a frustrated breath because I was telling them off and they were giving me the power, but they weren’t taking me seriously.
But then Sin leaned in and kissed me. He full-on moaned, his other hand already exploring my chest, rubbing his scent all over me.
My fucking omega instincts took over, and I went all soft and mushy for him.
At the end of the day, he was still my alpha.
“Kai,” Sin said my name so tenderly as he kissed me again. “You’ve always been our top priority. Everything we do is for you.”
He was lying through his teeth, and it was fine because his kisses were so good.
The bed dipped as Caspian suddenly climbed up beside me.