Chapter 13 #4
“I’m fine,” she said to his unspoken question. She stole one more glance at Devlin, then told herself, quite firmly, that she did not care if he had been fighting the devil himself.
Sean smiled again and squeezed her hand. “He’s taking you to his country home tomorrow. It’s close to Eastleigh. He plans for you to meet him. Are you all right with this, Virginia? Will you be able to manage?”
She nodded, glancing over at her captor, who now, finally, eyed them.
No expression could be seen on his implacable face.
It crossed her mind that she could thwart him easily by denying that she had ever heard of Virginia Hughes and claiming to be someone else.
And if she really wanted to hurt him, to thwart him, she could go to the authorities once she was freed.
Devlin would wind up in prison for years, unless he had a plan for that contingency, too.
Neither alternative gave her any pleasure. She only wanted to go home—if her home still existed. Unlike Devlin, she had a heart and it was human and kind. She would never deliberately hurt him, and not out of revenge.
“You are lovely tonight,” Sean added. Then he added, “You are always lovely, Virginia.”
Something in his tone caused her to start and she met his gaze. “If you are overly kind, I might lose what is left of my composure,” she said softly.
Sean smiled a little. “Don’t do that!” Then he said, “Virginia, would you step outside with me? We have to speak.”
“Now?” She knew it was seven and they always dined precisely on the hour.
“Please.”
Something was afoot. She nodded, searching his expression for a clue as to the matter at hand and they crossed the room. She had no idea what was on his mind. Devlin murmured, “Do not mind me.”
Virginia decided to hell with it and she glared at him.
He saluted her with his glass and then picked up a Dublin newspaper.
Outside, the night was pleasant, a few stars beginning to emerge in the inky blue vastness overhead. To Virginia’s surprise, Sean gripped both her arms. “I am going to miss you,” he said roughly.
Her eyes widened. “I will miss you, too,” she said.
His gaze searched hers. “I don’t want you to worry about Devlin. I have become your protector, Virginia. You do not have to fear another episode like the last one. I won’t allow it and…” He hesitated.
She was becoming moved beyond words. “And?”
“And he is resolved to treat you with all of the respect that you deserve.”
Oddly, the twinge of dismay was at once rude, surprising and strong. “I doubt he said that.”
“He didn’t have to. He is very sorry, Virginia—”
“Don’t! If that man cares about what he did, how he did it and how he left, he can tell me himself.”
“He may never have the courage,” Sean said softly.
Virginia started. As Devlin was the bravest man she knew, what in God’s name was Sean talking about?
Sean touched her cheek. “Virginia, I must ask you something.”
She was suddenly wary, though Sean had become her best friend.
“Do you still love him?” Sean asked.
Virginia gasped. She was so flustered and so stunned she could not respond for a moment.
“Sean!” She gripped his hand, causing it to drop from her face.
“I do not love that man,” she said fiercely.
“Maybe, once, for a brief moment, I was deluded into thinking that I did. I do not even know him! He has treated me abominably. There is nothing, absolutely nothing, there!” she cried.
But so many images of Devlin O’Neill assailed her now.
She saw him standing strong and proud on the quarterdeck of the Defiance, the scourge of the seas; she recalled Devlin staring at her fierce with pride, telling her that all the land, as far as the eye could see, was Askeaton, that all the land belonged to him.
And finally there was Devlin, his body hard and aroused, covering her, his eyes brilliant and unfocused with the maddened haze of his lust.
Virginia tried to breathe and calm herself. He hadn’t always treated her abominably. He had treated her well until those last few hours—and if she dared to remember, she had sought to seduce him then, never dreaming what her success would mean.
“I’m afraid I don’t believe you,” Sean murmured, his hands sliding around her now.
She stiffened, stunned. “What are you doing?”
“I have tried very hard to think of you only as a friend,” he said slowly, his gaze holding hers.
And in the fading light of dusk, Virginia saw every emotion that he was feeling in the pale gray disks that were his eyes. Unlike Devlin’s, they shimmered with sorrow, with sincerity and with something far greater than friendship. He was in love with her.
His hands tightened. “I will always be your friend,” he said grimly. “But what I want to know is if there is any chance that you could forget him and what you have shared with him. If there is any chance, no matter how small, that you might ever think of me as something more than a friend.”
Virginia reeled. She did not know what to say.
And she was so touched that she cupped his face in her hands, a strong, handsome face, his features as hard, defined and angled as his brother’s, a face so terribly similar except for his dark brown hair and brows.
But she had never confused the brothers, because his eyes were windows to his soul, as Devlin’s were not.
“I don’t know,” she began hoarsely. “I am so surprised….”
His hands moved into the heavy weight of her hair, which she had pinned back but left down. “I lied to my brother,” he said as hoarsely. “I am in love with you, Virginia.”
His words were a terrible trigger. She loved him, too, but not that way—and what a fool she was not to love him as a man.
Because she knew him completely. He was a man incapable of treachery while capable of loving a woman deeply, forever.
“Sean, I can’t.” She dared not admit why, not even to herself.
He nodded, not speaking now. But he held her for one moment longer before dropping his hands. Instantly she seized them and clung. “Don’t leave me now! I need you now more than I ever have!”
“I know.” He smiled sadly, then the smile turned grim. “I will always be here for you, Virginia, but I am not going with you and Devlin to Wideacre. It is a terrible idea. I prefer not to be with the both of you.”
“But—”
“No. Let me speak. I have wanted to speak frankly for some time.”
She tensed but she nodded, for she owed him this. Still, what more could he possibly say after such an admission?
“Devlin is not a bad man. But the day he saw our father murdered, he changed. That was the day he stopped smiling, the day the laughter disappeared. That was the day he became obsessed with revenge.”
She swallowed and nodded. It was impossible not to feel sorry for him, but she steeled herself not to now.
“Virginia, I am telling you this because I love him. Like my mother and stepfather, I worry about him and what he has spent his life doing. His naval career? He couldn’t give a damn about the navy, Virginia. And he cares very little for Great Britain.”
She thought about the secret meeting she had witnessed. “But why?”
“A man like Devlin can become rich and powerful in the navy, and as you have seen, that is exactly what Devlin has done. He used the navy to acquire enough wealth and power so he could destroy Lord Eastleigh.”
She shivered.
“He went to sea at thirteen. His system of revenge began that day, Virginia.”
“Oh, God.” She began to realize the enormity of his obsession.
“He would die for me, our mother, our stepfather or our stepbrothers and stepsister. Gladly. He would die to save his men, his ship. He would die for Ireland. But I suppose his fearless courage is not at issue here.”
“No, it’s not,” she whispered, mesmerized in spite of knowing how dangerous it was to allow such an intense fascination to overcome her now. And where was Sean leading?
“He is powerful, wealthy and fearless, he is widely admired as a great sea captain, and he is both respected and feared. But he is not kind. His ability to be kind died the day our father died.”
“I am sorry,” she heard herself say.
“Don’t be. He is not a ruthless monster, either, though, and I know you saw that. Virginia, I love my brother enough to tell you now that I think, possibly, there is hope.”
“Hope?” she echoed.
He gripped her shoulders. “The Devlin I know would never succumb to his desire for a young, innocent woman. God, we were raised with a stepsister whom we were sworn to protect! And even more important, the day our father died, our baby sister was left by the British to burn in the fire they had set. I can’t remember, not any of it.
But Devlin remembers it all. He would never use an innocent woman.
To be very crude, if he needed a woman it would be a harlot like Fiona. ”
“What are you trying to tell me?” she whispered, trembling, afraid, and oddly, so filled with hope.
“I think you have reached a part of him he lost a long time ago, and I think—no, I hope and pray—you can reach that part again and pull him back into the light of a new day.”
“What?”
“He is sorry,” Sean said. “He told me, and I know him well—it is the truth. But it is not over.”
She could only stare.
“He is not indifferent—it is a sham, a pretense, a huge theatrical act. If you do not hate him, if you can ever forgive him, maybe you are the one who can help him find his soul.”
“Are…are you mad?”
He smiled and released her. “I am sad.”
She quickly moved to embrace him. She hugged him hard.
In her arms, Sean whispered, “My brother needs the love of a good woman, and if you cannot love me, then maybe you can give him another chance.”
Virginia began to shake. “What are you asking me?” she whispered.
“I am asking you to save my brother.”