Chapter 12 #2
Bank doesn’t answer. Britt-Marie doesn’t know what to do, so she snatches the balcony boxes from Sven. He takes off his police cap, but remains on the threshold as men of that kind always do because as far as they are concerned it is not appropriate to go inside a lady’s home without an invitation.
Britt-Marie doesn’t invite him in, although it irks her to see him standing there on her threshold in uniform. She sees the ancient women on the other side of the road, still standing in the garden glaring at them.
What will the neighbors think?
“Was there anything else?” she says, although what she really means is, “Thanks.”
“No, no, nothing at all . . .”
“Thank you,” says Britt-Marie so that it sounds more like “Good-bye” than “Thanks.”
He nods awkwardly and turns round. When he has got halfway to the car, Britt-Marie takes a deep breath and clears her throat and only raises her voice a little:
“For the lift. I should like to . . . well, what I’m saying is: I should like to thank you for the lift.”
He turns around and his whole face lights up. She quickly shuts the door before he gets any ideas.
Bank goes up the stairs. Seems to use the stick more as a sort of walking cane than for orienting herself. Britt-Marie comes stumbling after with the balcony boxes and the bag in her arms.
“Toilet. Sink. You’ll have to eat somewhere else, because I don’t want the smell of frying in the house. Make yourself scarce in the daytime, because that’s when the estate agent brings buyers over,” she snorts and starts moving off towards the staircase.
Britt-Marie goes after her and says diplomatically:
“Ha. I should like to apologize for my behavior earlier. I was unaware of your being blind.”
Bank grunts something and tries to go downstairs, but Britt-Marie hasn’t finished.
“But I’d like to point out that you actually can’t expect people to know you’re blind when they have only seen you from behind,” she says helpfully.
“Goddamn it, woman, I’m not blind!” roars Bank.
“Ha?”
“I have impaired vision. Close up I can see just fine.”
“How close?”
“I can see where the dog is. The dog sees the rest,” says Bank, pointing at the dog, about three feet away on the stairs.
“Well, then you’re practically blind.”
“That’s what I said. Good night.”
“I’m certainly not the sort of person who gets hung up on semantics, I really am not, but I did certainly hear you say ‘blind’ . . .”
Bank looks like someone weighing up the possibility of causing damage to the wall with the front of her head.
“If I say I’m blind, people are too ashamed to ask any more questions, and they leave me in peace. If I say I have impaired vision they want to prattle on endlessly about the difference between that and being properly blind. Good night now!” she concludes, and moves on down the stairs.
“Might I ask why you have a stick and a dog and sunglasses if you’re not even blind?”
“My eyes are sensitive to light, and I had the dog before my eyes started acting up. It’s a normal bloody dog. Good night!”
The dog looks as if it has taken offense at this.
“And the stick?” Britt-Marie asks.
“It’s not a blind stick, it’s a walking cane. I have a bad knee. And it’s also quite convenient when people don’t get out of the way.”
“Ha,” says Britt-Marie. Bank shoves the dog out of the way with the cane.
“Payment in advance. No credit. And I don’t want to see you here in the daytime. Good night!”
“Could I ask when you expect to sell this house?”
“As soon as I find anyone balmy enough to want to live in Borg.”
Britt-Marie stands at the top of the stairs, which seem desolate and very steep as soon as Bank and the dog are out of sight. A moment later the front door slams and the house drowns in the silence that follows.
Britt-Marie looks around. It’s raining again. The police car has gone. A lone truck goes by. Then more silence. Britt-Marie feels cold on the inside.
She takes the bedclothes off the bed and covers the mattress in baking soda.
She gets her list out of her bag. There’s nothing on it.
No items to tick. Darkness comes sweeping in through the window, enveloping Britt-Marie.
She doesn’t turn on any lights. She finds a towel in her bag and weeps into it, while standing up.
She doesn’t want to sit on the mattress until it has been properly cleaned.
It’s past midnight by the time she notices the door.
It’s next to one of the windows, facing out onto nothing.
Britt-Marie has difficulties at first believing what she is seeing.
She has to go and fetch a bottle of Faxin, then clean all the window glass in the door, before she can even bring herself to touch the door handle.
It’s stuck. She pulls at it for all she’s worth, wedges herself against the doorframe and uses her body weight, which admittedly isn’t much.
For a fleeting moment she sees the world through the glass and thinks about Kent and all the things he always said she couldn’t do and, in that moment, something makes her gather all her strength in a furious show of defiance that finally overpowers the door.
She flies backwards through the room when the door opens wide. Rain falls in over the floor.
Britt-Marie sits leaning against the bed, breathing heavily and staring out.
It’s a balcony.