Chapter 21
Lily
Sleeping?
Cal
Not even close. You okay?
Lily
I’m okay. You okay?
Cal
More than okay
Lily
It’s great we are so okay
Cal
You have something on your mind…
Lily
Yes. Watch me be as boring as you and not sext
Cal
I can’t wait to hear it, Trouble.
I’ll sext when you can’t still feel me leaking out of you. How I claimed you. Tasted you
Licked you. Sucked every inch of you
But let’s have the boring part now
Trouble
Thanks Callahan, for getting me horny and not being here to take care of it.
Cal
You are very welcome.
What’s on your mind?
Lily
Can we keep this between us a while? Before everyone grabs it and ruins it?
Cal
Of course. I need more time with just you
Lily
Thanks. And it’s infuriating how you say mundane things and they’re so hot
Cal:
Infuriating is that of all the apartments in this town. All the streets. All the buildings. You chose the one directly across from Erin's flower shop.
Adjacent to Ruth's diner.
Lily
omg THE LITERAL GOSSIP HEADQUARTERS OF HARBOR HILL
Cal
Ruth has a direct line of sight to your front door.
Lily
I'M AWARE, THANK YOU
I'm going to have to move.
Cal
you're not going to move. I just wish it was easier
Lily
me too
Cal
Regrets?
Lily
Not even one.
Cal
We need to discuss one thing though
Lily
Alright. Be boring. Let’s discuss
Cal
You’re a fucking brat.
Lily
You like it
Cal
I love it. But back to boring
Lily
What is it?
Cal
We didn’t use a condom
Lily
No, we didn’t. Problem?
Cal
other than you getting pregnant, you mean?
Lily
I’m good
Cal
How good?
Lily
wrong time of the month
Cal
Fuck. that’s not good
Lily
Trust me it’s good
Cal
you’re going to be a doctor, you know that’s not good enough
We will use condoms from now on
Lily
No thanks
Cal
No thanks?? Not an option
Lily
It's absolutely an option.
Cal
Lily. Be serious.
Lily
I am serious. Condoms are off the table.
Cal
They are off the table. They're going on my cock. That's the whole point.
Lily
Callahan.
Cal
Lily.
Lily
You're really telling me you want that? You want something between us?
Cal
I'm telling you we need to be smart about this.
Lily
That's not what I asked.
Answer the question.
Cal
No. I don't want that.
Fuck, I don’t want that at all.
Lily
Then why are we arguing?
Cal
Because what I want and what's responsible are two different things.
Lily
What do you want?
Tell me. I want to hear you say it.
Cal
I want to feel you with nothing between us. I want to be inside you bare and feel every part of your cunt wrapped around me. I want to come so deep you're dripping with me for hours after.
I want to watch it leak out of you and push it back in. I want to fill you up until you can't hold any more and then I want to do it again.
Is that what you wanted to hear?
Lily
Yes. God, I am so wet
Cal
don’t tell me that when I can’t feel it
Lily
I want that too. All of it. I want to be so full of you that I feel it when I walk the next day. I want to touch myself after you leave and feel how wet I still am because of you.
Cal
Fuck.
Lily
Yeah.
Cal
We're not using condoms.
Lily
NOW he gets it.
Cal
But we need to be on something. I'm serious. I need you safe
Lily
I'll start the pill first thing tomorrow
Cal
No.
Lily
No?
Cal
The pill is dangerous. Blood clots. Hormones. Side effects. I know what that shit does
We’re good. Condoms and other ways
Lily
Oooh anal. Always wanted to try
Cal
I swear you were put on this earth to kill me
But yes.
Lily
Cal
I'm serious, Lily please I don't want you putting yourself at risk.
Lily
That's very sweet. And very not your decision.
Cal
I know it's not my decision. But still
Lily
You're saying you care about me. I hear you. But what I put in my body is up to me.
Cal
I know that. I am just very uncomfortable with it. Condoms are not an issue at all. I have actually never had sex without one
Lily
Me neither…
Lily
I’ll talk to my doctor. There are options. We'll figure out what works for me. Okay?
Cal
Okay
Lily
But no condoms!
Cal
We’ll see
Lily
No. Condoms. Please?
Cal
You're impossible.
Lily
I just want you. All of you
Cal
I love how direct you are. But you talk to your doctor first and then we’ll see?
Lily
Deal, Mr. Responsible
I'm really glad you came to that restaurant tonight. Even if you did act like a complete neanderthal.
Cal
You have no idea. I actually saw red for a second when Erin told me
Lily
Someone’s jealous
Cal
It’s not a feeling I am familiar with. I didn’t like it and I know I crossed a line.
Lily
I don’t want anyone else…
Cal
Me neither
fuck, me neither.
No more dates.
Please.
Lily
Of course no more dates. None. What are those?
Cal
The kind you’ll have with me from now on?
Lily
In secret. I like it!
Cal
I don’t like in secret. But I’ll have you any way I can
Now get some sleep
Lily
Night, Callahan. Even though it’s 6am
Cal
Night, Lily