Chapter 30 Mateo
CHAPTER THIRTY
Mateo
Levi’s expression softened. “I don’t think you need me.”
“Hey. You told me if I talk about myself like that, you’d—what? Bend me over your knee and spank me?” she said. “So cut that out.”
My brows shot up. “Did you spank her?”
“I wanted to,” he said, holding her gaze. “Still want to.”
“And I want you to,” she answered.
“So do I,” I said. “I think that may be important to make clear. I want you just as much as I want Avery, Levi. You’re not an extra in this. And as far as why we waited for so long—I’ve been telling Avery for two years that we’re just friends.”
“Probably because of my brothers,” she sighed. “They have their reasons for being overprotective, though. I dated someone who used to be their friend. His name was Kevin.”
Levi scowled. “You dated Kevin?”
Avery made a face. “Right. I forget you lived here.”
“Yeah, and I hated that fucker. He was always a dick to me.”
Oops. Well, he was about to hate Kevin even more.
Avery sucked in a breath. “Okay, well. I moved to Austin to go to UT, and Kevin moved out there too. We reconnected and started dating, but our relationship didn’t go well. Bad enough that Austin and Dallas came to bring me back to Whynot.”
Levi was quiet for a moment, his gaze meeting mine. I was holding my tongue, and he knew that. This wasn’t my story to tell, even though I wanted to blurt out just how fucking awful Kevin had been. But then again, I didn’t know everything.
She pressed her lips together, going quiet for a moment.
“You don’t need to tell us,” I said gently. “We’re here now. That’s all that matters.”
“Well, I actually think it might be good to tell you,” she said. “I’m just embarrassed in some ways, I guess. Kevin did get physical with me. And I still have nightmares about him.”
Jesus fucking Christ. I hadn’t known that.
I’d guessed. When Avery moved back, I’d had an inkling something like that had happened.
There’d been times she’d shrink into herself if someone raised their voice, or if someone was fist fighting at a bar, she’d close her eyes and tune it all out.
The protective streak in me had grown a mile wide around her, which was how we became friends.
No wonder Dallas and Austin were so protective.
Levi’s face turned red and his body turned rigid, but he kept his words soft. “I’m sorry, Avery.”
“I’ve worked through most of it,” she said.
“Really. I’ve gone to therapy. I’ve done the work and I’m proud of myself for that.
I’m in a healthy spot in my life and I want to be in a relationship.
But, I do still wake up sweating or crying sometimes.
I can’t help it. I hate it, but I can’t help it. ”
“Well, we’ll be there to hold you,” I murmured. “Or be there to sit with you. Whatever you want, whatever you need, we’ll be there.”
Levi nodded. “Anytime, anywhere, whatever you need, baby.”
Baby. I met his gaze again and smiled, warmth relaxing me despite the fact I had half a mind to drive all the way to Austin, find Kevin, and break his nose.
Avery let out a sigh of relief. “Thanks. I feel better telling both of you. I guess we all probably have baggage, but mine feels heavy sometimes. I would understand if it’s too much.”
Levi shook his head. “It’s not. Besides, Mateo and I are strong guys. We can handle it.”
I raised my arm and flexed my bicep, earning a giggle from her. “See? Strong. Buff. Ready to carry your baggage and take care of you.”
Avery shook her head, but I couldn’t help but notice the way her dimples flashed. “You’re ridiculous, you know. Both of you. Also, Levi, I don’t think you’re bad with words.”
He shrugged his shoulders. “They just don’t come easy at times. I’m better at showing how I feel.”
I wiggled my brows. “Showing, huh? So your hard-on does indicate you’re happy to see us?”
“More than happy.” He shook his head at us and took a sip of tea to wash down a bite of lasagna. “So, what’s in that bag, Mateo?”
“All good things,” I teased. “I think talking about kink and sex is a good idea.”
Avery clapped her hands together. “Absolutely a good idea. Levi and I almost didn’t use a condom yesterday, but wanted to wait and talk with you first.”
“Oooh.” I leaned back in my seat, that thought going straight to my cock. And it was impossible to hide how much that impacted me. “Are you on birth control?”
“I am. And I’ve tested within the last six months, and was negative for everything.” She gave me a cheeky smile. “I like cream pies.”
“Oh yeah?” Fuck me. My cock throbbed and I tried to clear my head, focusing on literally anything else but the thought of our cum leaking out of her pussy.
“I like them too. I’m glad you waited to talk to me about it, but I’m comfortable with it, if you both are.
I have also tested negative in the last year, and .
. . well, I haven’t been with anyone except the two of you. ”
Levi nodded. “Same. I still brought condoms though.”
“Good.” I swallowed hard, trying to make my brain work. “You both know I’m kinky. I’m dominant. I like being the one in control. I like planning things. I’ve tried submission before, but it doesn’t do it for me the same way dominance does.”
“We all know I’m a sub,” Avery said.
Levi leaned forward in his seat slightly, adjusting himself. “Well, I’m in the middle then. I’m a switch. But I think the dynamic feels natural to be submissive with Mateo, and dominant with Avery. And I think . . . I’ve wondered what it would be like to dominate Avery at your command.”
“I like that idea,” I said. I liked it a lot. “Avery, we’ve talked a little bit about kink in the past, but I don’t really know what your experience level is. And Levi, same for you. Before I moved to Whynot, I was pretty active in the community. I’m a little bit of a slut . . .”
“We’ve noticed,” Avery said, sticking her tongue out at me. “Flirty firefighter with an ego the size of his dick.”
“Hey,” I quipped. “I think my dick is bigger than my ego, actually.”
“Uh-huh.” She leaned back in her chair. “I haven’t done too much.
What I did with Kevin was unsafe. And it was always about him.
Before we dated, I went to a kinky club in Austin a few times, but just watched people.
I’ve always wanted to explore kink more, but obviously that’s been off the table during the last two years. ”
We turned our attention to Levi and he cleared his throat.
“Well, I’m experienced. I have . . . I have spreadsheets. I brought them with me, actually.”
“You brought homework?” Avery asked.
“I did.”
“He also has a degree in math,” I said, giving her a sly look. “He’s secretly a lot nerdier than either of us know.”
“He’s also a damn good photographer.”
“Is he?”
“Hey,” Levi quipped. “Enough about me. I’ll give you my spreadsheets. I’d love for you to fill them out, if you’re interested.”
“Of course,” I said. “I used to have one saved on my laptop, but I need to update it.”
“I’m sorry, hold on,” Avery said. “What do you mean a spreadsheet?”
Levi and I exchanged knowing looks.
“Want to do the honors?” I asked.
“Yeah, actually.” He got up from the table and disappeared down the hall for a moment, then returned with three folders.
They were color coded.
And labeled.
“So a lot of my experience has been on the top side,” he said as he sat back down. “Even though I’m a switch, I’m usually expected to be the one in charge. And don’t get me wrong, I love it. But it would be nice to explore submission, too.”
He slid a folder with my name to me and another to Avery. She opened it up and her brows shot up.
“Oh,” she said. “I see now. It’s a list of everything.”
“Everything I can find on the internet, along with yes, maybe, no, and a column for notes. It’s something that’s better updated online, but I printed them out just in case.”
I nodded, thankful my brain was working again. “I’m glad you did this. And your list is about as comprehensive as it gets.”
“What is frotting?”
Levi bit back a laugh. “It’s when two men rub their cocks together, baby.”
“Oh.” Her pretty brown eyes widened as she continued to scan the page. Or, pages.
I cleared my throat. “I like the stop light system for safe words. It’s easy to use and concise. Green means yes, yellow means you need a check in, and red means stop. Red would end a scene.”
“I’ve read that in one of my romance books before,” Avery mumbled.
“Just what kind of romance books are you reading?” Levi asked.
“The good smutty kind. What else is there to do in Whynot? There’s a love story between the library and my house.”
Levi’s laugh was easy. “Maybe you can show them to us. For research.”
Her eyes lit up and I cocked my head, interested in her response to that. Something about that excited her.
“If you want,” she said.
“We want,” I assured her. “Always happy for fresh inspiration. Although, I do have some ideas of my own too.”
“Oh really?” Levi chimed. “Share with the class.”
“Can I get a please?”
“Please, Sir.”
The sarcasm dripping in his words would be burned into my memory for the night. I arched a brow. “I’ll remember this later.”
That sobered him some. “Pretty please. With an Avery on top.”
She laughed as I rolled my eyes dramatically.
“If you insist,” I said. “Where do I even start? I’ve been thinking about the two of you non-stop for the last two weeks. I brought a few tools in my kink bag, although none of them are things we have to use. I don’t want either of you to push yourself or be uncomfortable. Can you promise me that?”
“Yes,” Avery said.
Levi nodded. “Yes.”
“Good.” I blew out a slow, deliberate breath. Butterflies fluttered in my stomach as I did a mental inventory of everything in that leather bag, along with the countless fantasies that had been plaguing me night and day. “So, I’ve been thinking . . .”
“If you keep drawing the suspense out, I’m going to start masturbating,” Avery quipped.
“No one is stopping you if you do that,” I said. She narrowed her eyes on me, and I grinned broad. “I brought a flogger and a paddle. I also brought some rope. I brought some spreader bars. A couple blindfolds. I also may or may not have bought some new things online that will be here next week.”
Both of their mouths fell open, but I kept going before they asked anything.
“As for what I’m thinking . . . I’m thinking I want to fuck both of you.
I want to bend you, Avery, over the bed and spank your ass so you remember everything we do together for the next week.
I want to put you, Levi, on your fucking knees and make you eat our girl out until she’s screaming your name, all while I’m fucking you.
I want to try every position possible with three bodies.
I want to tie you both up in rope and tease you until you’re both begging, cockhungry messes.
I want to see if Avery can take both of our cocks.
I want to give you both instructions for you to obey, and your reward will be to do anything to please me.
And I want to make the two of you come so many times you forget your name, what town we’re in, and the rest of your worries. ”
I exhaled and leaned back, drinking in their wide-eyed expressions. I took a long sip of my water and set the cup back down.
“That’s what I wanna do.”
Levi let out a soft groan and looked away from us, his cheeks scarlet. “I wanna do that too.”
Avery nodded and looked directly at me. “Where do we start?”