Chapter 45 A Mother’s Hope #2
“I’m fucking losing it, Raven,” I admitted quietly.
A part of me was telling me not to burden her with my fears, but another part of me needed to share the fear inside of me and with who else but my mate?
“I’ve hurt you, Mom, Dad… Damon. I don’t recognise the person I’ve become anymore,” I said, running my fingers through my wet locks. And I hated it.
She tugged my face up, staring into my eyes, and shook her head.
“You have got this, Liam. You want to fight this. Just think, a month ago you were like, whatever I don’t care if I die,” she said, softly kissing my lips. “You are going to get through this, and you will be the very best version of yourself, because we are all rooting for that.”
I hope so.
“We all love you, Liam.”
“I don’t really deserve it, though, the amount of crap I’ve done.”
“Love doesn’t work that way; we love you for you and that won’t change,” she said firmly, blushing as she looked me over, clearly realising only then that I was only in a towel.
She moved back, her heart thudding as she grabbed another towel, busying herself with wetting it before dabbing my chest gently and wiping up the blood as my wounds started to heal.
“Let’s get to bed,” she whispered.
“Sure. I’ll just wash my hands,” I said, standing up and tightening my towel. Her gaze dipped to my waist, and I smirked. “Want a peek?” I asked.
Her eyes widened, and she shook her head vigorously, rushing from the room. I smirked as I quickly rinsed my hands off. Entering the bedroom, I saw her sitting on the bed, one hand on her hip, and she looked like she was in pain.
“Are you okay, love?” I asked, worry filling me as I rushed over to her. She nodded, despite her heart beating faster than normal, and it wasn’t because of me.
“Yeah, I just… felt a bit unwell.” She shook her head, and I nodded, hoping she was okay. I went over to my wardrobe thinking I needed to do something...
Perhaps I needed to visit Rayhan and Delsanra. Maybe she could put some sort of seal on my abilities…
The following day, I had told Dad I had somewhere to go.
Only Raven knew where I was going, and although she wanted to go with me, I didn’t trust her being alone with me, not with my unhinged behaviour.
At least at home, I knew that there were others not far off.
She hadn’t been happy when I said that and huffed in annoyance before she headed out to training.
I had called Rayhan and we had scheduled a place to meet closer to his pack but not in pack territory because I didn’t want anyone to know we had met or that I had gone there.
“Take care of yourself,” Dad said as he stood by the car.
“I’ll be okay,” I said, crouching down and ruffling the little pumpkin’s hair. “Be a good girl, okay? And no picking your boogers, it’s gross.”
“I no do that anymore, I big girl,” she denied it, as if that was obvious.
Yeah, I saw her this morning…
“Ahuh…”
She smiled, and I smiled back. Placing a quick kiss on her forehead, I got into my black Range Rover, waving them goodbye and slipping on my shades.
I knew Dad was worried about me going alone, but I promised him I would be okay, and I wouldn’t be far.
I just hoped I was and that Delsanra could help.
I put some music on as I drove out of the pack grounds.
It was a good hour later when I thought I heard a thud from the back.
Fuck, did something fall onto my car? I pulled up on the side, putting my hazard lights on, and got out.
Walking around, I inspected the smooth metal, shaking my head.
Strange, I had felt something hit... I was about to get back into the car when I froze in my tracks, staring at the trunk.
A sudden thought came to me, and I frowned. Don’t tell me…
Stepping back, I popped the lid open and raised an eyebrow, staring down at none other than Raven, curled up inside. She smiled sheepishly at me.
“You said I couldn’t come, but I want to meet Rayhan’s kitty!” She said, pouting as she sat up. Swinging her legs out, she stared up at me with those fucking gorgeous eyes that really made me unable to refuse her.
“How the… I didn’t even smell you…” I still couldn’t. She smiled proudly, then raised an eyebrow as if that was obvious.
“Anti-scent spray, smart guy.” She jumped down, her breasts bouncing in that black corset top she was wearing. A jacket and pants completed her look. As always, she looked sexy.
“So, for the last hour, you were in there…”
“No, I think it’s almost three,” she sighed. My eyes widened in surprise as I slammed the trunk shut.
“Three? Seriously?”
“Yeah, I needed to get in there before you saw me,” she pouted. I pulled her close, unable to resist her charm. I can’t believe I actually thought she’d listen when I told her no.
“You know, it’s dangerous around me,” I reminded her quietly as she wrapped her arms around my waist.
“I also know it’s dangerous for you alone, and your dad doesn’t know you’re going this far out, does he?”
“Yeah, he doesn’t, or he would have definitely sent guards, but I have some wolfsbane, not that it works.”
“Reckless move, Blue Eyes,” she said, tapping my ass before sliding away swiftly and getting into the car from my side. This girl…
I got in to see her strapping herself in as if she was ready for a special trip or something. But could I deny that I enjoyed having her there? No. I leaned over, kissing her cheek softly before moving back.
“So, you’ve met Rayhan’s kitty before. What was she like?” She asked when we were back on the road.
“Loud.”
“Oh. And what else?”
“Short.”
“Oh. Wait, shorter than me?”
“No, Bite-size, I don’t think anyone can be shorter than you,” I smirked. Her mouth fell open before she frowned.
“Major burn, dude.”
“Sorry, but I like your size. You are perfect,” I said, looking her over. Her cheeks flushed, but she still gave me a narrowed-eyed look.
“You are not forgiven.”
“I know,” I said, thinking about all the things I really wasn’t forgiven for. She placed her hand over mine, giving me a small soft smile.
“I wanted to tell yo- ouch!” She flinched, and I almost panicked until she rested her head back, closing her eyes, and motioned to me that she was fine. “Sorry, I just feel really… I’m okay.”
“That’s happened twice. Are you sure you’re okay? Maybe we need to get that checked out.”
“I’m seriously okay,” she said, and I nodded, although I didn’t believe her fully.
Was it… could it be heat? My stomach twisted and I really hoped not because I didn’t want her to go through that…
Raven
We had just reached the hotel suite where Rayhan had told us to meet him. It was one of the Rossi Hotels. Dude, these guys were loaded. I wondered how rich they were... Remind me to check the Rossi Group of Enterprises’ net worth later…
There they were, Rayhan, as handsome as ever, and next to him, a woman who was as gorgeous as a winter queen!
In person, her white hair looked even whiter, and her startling blue eyes were so…
blue! She was slender yet she had curves that were in perfect portion, no extra wide hips like me or anything!
“Hey!” I said as the two men hugged before Liam gave Delsanra a nod.
“Hi, it’s nice to meet you, Raven,” Delsanra said with a small smile.
“Likewise.”
She was taller than me... maybe about three inches. When you’re my height, even an inch was vital…
“Long time no see, Raven,” Rayhan greeted, and I didn’t miss his gaze going to my neck, but it was only for a second and I had a feeling he knew what had happened.
“She hitchhiked…” Liam said, looking down at me.
“It’s a big trunk,” I said.
“I’m glad I got to meet you,” Delsanra said. “In person, you’re even tinier, like a little pear drop.”
“Pear drop?”
“Yeah, like the sweets,” she said, smiling slightly.
“She has a thing for naming people after food,” Rayhan said, pulling her close as he planted a kiss on her lips. I smiled at that.
“Well, shall we get to this?” Liam asked, the mood instantly darkening.
“I don’t know if it’s going to work. We’re talking gods,” Delsanra said, running her fingers through her hair.
“If I didn’t know that Selene existed, I’d find this entire God thing pretty weird,” Rayhan remarked as he sat on the sofa, watching as Delsanra got to work drawing some symbols onto the ground.
“I know. Let’s just try to see if we can suppress it, even if it’s only partially. Wolfsbane isn’t working on me, and neither is silver. I took four doses of wolfsbane this morning, and nothing. I feel normal, and I can mind-link,” Liam said, his eyes on the symbols on the ground.
“There are a few things I checked up,” Delsanra said. “I’ll do a suppression spell, and the other is to target you…”
“What do you mean?” I asked. She looked hesitant, glancing at Rayhan before staring down at her symbols on the floor.
“I can block your healing... but that’s risky. If anything happens, you’ll be like a human. It’s-”
“Do it. We do both; if the darkness isn’t controllable, then we target the real me. If I do lose control, someone can easily injure me and stop me from going out of control. Let’s do it,” Liam said with a nod.
“Liam, think about it. This could go really wrong,” Rayhan said, brushing his hair back as he frowned thoughtfully.
“I’m a risk, Ray, to everyone around me.”
No…
“Liam, imagine if someone attacks you, an-” I began
“I can still fight,” he said, cupping my face. I looked up at him, not liking it at all. “I didn’t only hurt you, I attacked Damon, Dad, and even hurt Mom,” he said quietly. “I’m dangerous, and I need to do something about it.” I nodded. I didn’t like it, but I understood what he meant…
I pressed my lips together, nodding, and stepped away. Delsanra looked at me apologetically before turning to Liam.
“Step into the centre of the circle,” she said.
My heart felt uneasy, but I couldn’t do anything but watch Liam make this decision…