CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
Zane
Blair shivers as I run the tips of my fingers up and down her back, watching the sheen of goose bumps coat her beautiful, flushed skin. I pause and she trembles.
“Don’t stop,” she murmurs softly, and even though it’s practically a whisper, it’s impossible to miss the pleading nature of her tone.
As if she has to beg.
She clearly has no idea I’d do anything for her.
“I want more.” She shifts slightly, looking up into my eyes. “I’m ready.”
My heart jolts, hoping she means what I think she means, but I don’t let myself get too excited. Since I just gave her a mind-blowing orgasm—her words, not mine—it’s possible she’s referring to sex.
“More?” I ask hesitantly, brushing a wild curl away from her eyes, my skin heating when my knuckles brush across her cheek.
“Everything.” The word leaves her lips on a sigh, and it penetrates my heart.
“Everything?” I want her to spell it out for me.
“I want it all. I want you. We’re going to have to keep things quiet for a while and away from the media, for all our sakes. But I want to make this work. I want to make us work.”
“So, this isn’t about sex?”
“No.” She giggles. “But I want that too.”
“You know things have changed since we were younger. I no longer think we have to be official before sleeping together.”
“So, you don’t want to be a couple?" She pouts but she knows me better than that.
“I have never wanted anything more.”
“Good. Because I want us to be connected in every way possible. I need it.” She pauses and huffs out a laugh. “That was easier than I thought it would be.”
“Did you think I was going to say no? Or make it difficult for you?”
“No. I thought I’d struggle to get the words out, but I should have known that wouldn’t be the case. Not with you.”
She has no fucking idea how intoxicating she is. “I’m glad I make you feel comfortable, and I’m happy that part was easy…” I trail off for dramatic effect. “Because the next part is not going to be as smooth sailing.”
“Hiding our relationship?”
“Nope. You taking my cock for the first time.”
Blair sucks in a breath, and her body tenses against me.
“Are you ready for that?” I lift off the bed and strip out of my tee, giving Blair a moment to ogle my chest before curling my fingers into the waistband of my sweats, smiling when her gaze follows.
She bites her lip, and my cock pulses as I let it spring free.
Blair shifts uncomfortably before she moves closer, and I almost come at the hunger in her eyes. “Have you ever gone bare?” she asks and I choke, my control wavering.
“I haven’t,” I rasp, my voice failing me.
“Do you want to?”
Fuck. What kind of a question is that? “I do.” I try to keep my cool, but when Blair bursts out laughing, I know I’ve failed. “I really fucking do.” I chuckle, shaking my head.
“Good. I’m on the pill and Nathan and I…” She trails off when I frown. I’m holding my dick in my hand; I don’t want to be thinking about him. But this conversation needs to be had. “I had a checkup recently, just in case. But we didn’t go without. He wasn’t ready for kids. Nor was I.”
“But you’re on the pill?”
“He wanted to be sure.”
“Dickhead.”
Blair laughs again before her expression turns serious. “I want this with you.”
Jesus Christ. “I want that too.” Whether I can handle it, though, remains to be seen. I’m already close to blowing my load from the thought alone.
Taking a deep but subtle breath, I get my shit together and step out of my pants and briefs, reaching for the lube in my top drawer. I don’t think we’ll need it moving forward, but for Blair’s first time with a pierced man, I’m not taking any chances.
I don’t have to look to know she’s watching my every move. I can feel it. And as I slowly squeeze the gel into my hands, liberally coating my length, her breath hitches.
Desire flickers in her gaze as I glance up at her, and instead of the cockiness I’d usually feel, emotion swells in my chest.
“Are you sure you’re ready?” I ask, my voice gravelly with need, precum pebbling on my tip.
“Yes,” she whispers, her voice breathy. “I’m not a virgin, Zane.”
Her response brings me out of my stupor and I bite back a smile. “In this case you are. Trust me. You have never experienced what I’m about to do to you.”
I climb onto the bed, holding back a groan when her legs fall open.
Her gaze follows me, and when I line up with her entrance, she inhales sharply, her body rising off the bed when I haven’t even touched her.
“I promise I’ll be gentle.”
“I’m not worried about you. It’s been a while and—” My interest piques and Blair huffs out a laugh. “You’ll be pleased to know Nathan and I hadn’t had sex since before I saw you in the hospital.”
That makes me so fucking happy, and I’d love to point out how that one little fact holds a hell of a lot of meaning, but I’m not going to purposely ruin the moment. I can gloat when we’re done.
“B, you’re ready. You can take me. We’ll ease into it.”
Her eyes widen, most likely because I didn’t take the opportunity to make a comment about her ex, but she nods, her gaze dropping to my hand wrapped around my cock, her eyes locked on my piercing.
“Will it hurt?” Her throat bobs.
“It might at first, but I promise, I’ll make it feel good.”
“Okay.”
“Ready?”
She nods again and I slowly push inside her, just the tip at first, gritting my teeth as my body jolts with a new kind of pleasure. It’s so intense that I’m not sure I’ll ever be able to go back, and I really hope I don’t have to.
I wait a beat before pushing in farther, her pussy squeezing me as she cries out. “Oh, shit. I can feel it.”
“Take a deep breath,” I grate, trying to appear more in control than I am. “I’ve got you. It’s just a moment of pain before an explosion of pleasure.”
“God, you’re full of it sometimes.”
I chuckle as Blair slams her eyes shut, and when I sink deeper, her pussy seizes me with a vise-like grip, cutting my laughter off. “Jesus, you’re so tight. I’m starting to question if that fucker ever serviced your needs.”
“Are you kidding me right now? Why do you always bring him up?”
“That’s the last time. Because I’m about to make you forget he existed. This pussy should have been worshipped. You’re about to learn how incredible sex can be.”
I push in another inch and she cries out again, her eyes filling with tears while I fight not to come before we’ve even moved. A few seconds pass before our eyes lock and Blair smiles, her expression full of want.
She holds her breath before nodding her head, trying to convince one of us that she’s good. “You can move.”
I bite back a laugh. It’s great she thinks she’s the reason I’m pausing, but as much as I wanted to take my time for her, this moment is all for me.
“I will,” I grate, my teeth clenched so tight my jaw aches. “I just need a second.”
My balls are so fucking full that I’m at serious risk of ending this early. Why the fuck would I agree to go bare for our first time together?
Blair giggles and the sound of it shoots a spark straight to my cock, making me shudder.
“Oh. God.” Her laughter cuts off as her mouth falls open. “That… Jesus. Your piercing.” She lets out a wanton moan and quivers. “Do that again.”
“I didn’t do anything. That was all you.”
“Then move.”
“Fuck. Okay.” I’m like a goddamn teenager again. And fuck, I wish we’d done this when we were teenagers. Then maybe I wouldn’t be so worked up after years of foreplay.
Taking another deep breath, I lean forward, bracing my hands on the bed beside her head, my arms locked with tension. Blair shifts her gaze, her breath hitching as she stares at my muscles bulging beneath my tats.
I groan and rock into her, making her gasp as I finally fill her to the hilt. “Yes. Oh Jesus.”
“Fuck, you feel so good wrapped around me. You were made for me, Blair. I knew it back then and I’m finally getting to prove it to you.”
“God. Yes. I know. But I need you to move.”
“On it.” I let out a restrained chuckle and slam my lips to hers, pumping into her, groaning and grunting against her mouth, my balls tingling with every pulse.
Blair mewls and gasps, meeting my fervor, her movements impatient, rushed. She grabs my back, her nails digging into me as she changes position, planting her feet to the mattress, angling her hips to free up her movement.
I sit back, grabbing her hips to pull her into me, and she screams out, the new angle giving me the exact reaction I expected as my piercing rubs against her wall.
“Fuck, Zane. That… Oh God.” She thrashes against me, her breathing ragged, her face flushed as her eyes slam shut.
“You take me so well, B. So fucking well. I could do this all night, but it feels too good.”
“I’m close.”
“Tell me what you need.”
Rather than using her words, she lowers her hand between her legs and rolls her finger over her clit, her body flying off the bed when I lift her ass higher, slamming into her as I flick her hand away.
“I’ve got this.”
Leaning back, I pull out slightly and rub my thumb through her arousal, spreading it over her pussy and clit before rocking back into her and pressing down on her bud.
She cries out again, my name on her lips, her body jolting in ecstasy. “More. Please.”
“Anything for you.” I’m so close myself that it takes all of my strength to hold on, but I’d never deny her.
Rolling my thumb over her clit, I pump into her, moving faster as I increase the pressure. I’m just about to beg her to let go when her body convulses and she squeezes me so tightly that my cock explodes without warning, my cum shooting into her as she screams out my name.
“Zane. Yes. Oh. Jesus.”
The shock of my release has my body shaking, but I keep moving until she begs me to stop, her breathing shallow, gasping for air.
“You are a fucking goddess, B.” I fall forward, bracing my hands beside her head, my arms shaking as I still inside her. “That was…”
“Incredible?” Blair finishes for me when I trail off, the word full of awe.
“Incredible,” I agree, groaning as I pull out of her, falling in a heap beside her. “I’ll help clean you up in a second. I just need a moment.”
With my last shred of energy, I curl my arm around her waist and pull her into me, burying my face in her neck. Her scent’s familiar as I breathe her in, giving me one little clue that this is real.
She giggles, her body shaking against me, and I can’t help but smile.
I’ve finally got my girl back, and this time, I’m never letting go.