41. Leona
LEONA
M y ass was sore.
I woke up between Wynn and Ciel feeling good, except for the tender skin that ached in the hot water of the shower and whenever I sat down.
After getting up and dressed for the day, I headed out to the living room.
It was almost noon, but I didn’t see anyone else up and around yet, though I figured someone might be in the gym.
My head raced with memories of the punishment.
At first, I’d been pissed that Obi wanted to spank me, but then I’d completely melted.
It felt so… good . Not just sexually, which was amazing and also frustrating that Obi wouldn’t fuck me fully yet, but also emotionally.
There was nothing else inside my head except him.
I knew I liked Cas spanking me during sex, but this was different.
The box inside my chest felt silent. No rattling, no burying. The cold that had overtaken my bones ever since we got off the ship didn’t feel so biting.
I lay down on the couch and stared up at the ceiling. I needed to get my laptop and start working on VCI things for our gun smuggling, but this consumed my mind instead .
I wanted to talk about it, but not to the guys because speaking about this aloud would ruin it. The box may be silent now, but they’d ask questions I didn’t want to answer, and it wouldn’t last.
I pulled out my phone and brought up the girl’s group chat. I typed a message and sent it before I could talk myself out of it.
Leona: How do we feel about spanking?
Fallon’s response came immediately.
Fallon: Excuse me? Is this an invitation or a threat?
Willow: You’ll have to explain more before Fallon goes off the deep end
Zoya: Yes, more please
My fingers hovered over the keyboard while my heart raced. Finally, I typed another message.
Leona: I kind of…got in trouble yesterday
Zoya: omg
Fallon: You got spanked?! Who spanked you????
Leona: Obi
Leona: The guys have spanked me during sex before, but this felt different
Multiple text bubbles appeared at once before disappearing. I grinned.
Willow: Wait
Willow: Everyone pause
Willow: Before we go any further
Willow: Did you like it?
Just the memory already had heat sparking in my core. I rolled to my side to press my thighs together.
Leona: Yeah. Yes. Definitely.
Fallon: If you liked it, then we like spanking of all kinds
Willow: What did you like about it?
I pursed my lips as I stared at my phone screen, trying to sort through all the thoughts spiraling through my head. My cheeks heated at the message I typed, but I sent it anyway.
Leona: Well he bent me over his knee and spanked me ten times and I wasn’t allowed to move or touch him. I liked the feeling of it, definitely, but it was kind of nice to give up control, to let him tell me what to do
Willow: It was nice for him to be in charge?
Leona: Yeah, is that weird?
Fallon: Nope. Not weird
Willow: I don’t think it’s weird either. Spanking can be a really powerful release. Pain and pleasure often go hand in hand
Pain and pleasure . It definitely felt like the perfect mix. As soon as the pain sent shockwaves through my body, Obi had been there to rub it away. It might have been a “punishment,” but when all was said and done, it was more pleasure than anything.
Leona: Zoya, you’ve been quiet over there
Zoya: As the group’s inexperienced virgin, I’m simply listening and learning. Don’t mind me
Fallon: We can remedy that. We’ll go pick you up a boy or girl whenever you’d like
Zoya’s text bubble appeared for a full minute before it went away with no new messages until finally Willow took pity on her.
Willow: Don’t be a bad influence, Fallon
Fallon: That’s literally my only job. I plan to turn her back over to Konstantin corrupt enough to give him a heart attack
Zoya: Can we not talk about my brother right now? When we’re talking about sex and spanking?
Willow: Yeah back to Leona
Willow: So you liked it? The pain and pleasure?
Leona: Yeah, it got my mind off some things. I think it helped both of us to feel better after what happened
Willow: What happened?
Leona: Just some shit with Max
I sent a few more messages explaining our temporary truce and how Cas and I had sex at his house, and then Max had yelled at me, and then Obi got mad that I had fucked Cas.
Fallon: Yeah…
Fallon: That one is on you lol you definitely did that on purpos e
My eyebrows knit together.
Leona: On purpose? What do you mean?
Fallon: You’re going to tell us you didn’t fuck your new boyfriend in your ex’s house just to make him mad?
Fallon: And then your other boyfriend got pissed about it?
I scoffed. That was not what happened. Max wasn’t even my ex. He was our enemy, and he’d just pissed me the fuck off, and I just needed Cas. That’s all there was to it.
Fallon: If that was Ronan, I would have got a hell of a lot worse than a spanking
Zoya: Yeah? Like what?
Fallon: I’d probably still be tied to our bed on like my millionth denied orgasm. They’d all be torturing me. Did Obi make you come?
Leona: Yeah…
Fallon: Sounds like Obi went easy on you
I frowned at the screen. Maybe she had a point.
Leona: Shit. Guess I got lucky then.
Zoya: Oh my god I’m blushing so hard right now. They can do that? They wouldn’t give you an orgasm to punish you?
Fallon: Depends on the situation, I guess. I’ve had it both ways. Denied and forced
Zoya: Forced?!
Fallon: I get in trouble a lot
Willow: Okay okay
Willow: We’ve lost the plot
Willow: Leona, you were saying that you liked it because it felt nice that he was in control
Leona: Yeah
Willow: So then what’s the problem?
Leona: Is that…weird?
Leona: I wanted to submit. I wanted him to punish me and make me forget about everything else. I knew I was being a brat, but that almost egged me on more. Maybe I did know that I’d done something wrong…
Fallon: Not weird at all
Willow: No, that’s not weird. It can be really freeing to give it up to someone else, especially if you feel really tangled up inside
Zoya: Have you felt like that often? Tangled up inside?
Zoya: Since everything happened?
I paused, trying to decide what to tell them.
The truth was that the box inside my chest rattled constantly.
It always threatened to break loose and devour me from the inside out.
The only way I could control it was to bury it, jump on it, and pretend that it didn’t exist. Last night with Obi, I hadn’t had to do that.
With him in charge, it just wasn’t there.
I didn’t want to talk about what had happened, but Zoya also didn’t necessarily ask.
Leona: Yeah
Willow: You’re dealing with a lot
Fallon: Whenever you feel like that again, you should go to him. Sounds like he liked it too and wants to do that for you
Leona: Yeah
Leona: Okay
Leona: Thanks, everyone
Fallon: We can talk about sex and spanking any time
Zoya: Educate me
Fallon: Well, when two (or more) people love each other very much…
Willow: Please stop
Fallon: Willow, why don’t you ask Colin what he knows about this. I’m sure he’d have a lot to say on the subject
Willow: For the love of God
Zoya: Colin was here yesterday
Fallon: He’s there every single day. He’ll be there today, tomorrow, and the day after too
Willow: I’m leaving
Willow: I have to go to work
Leona: Willow and Colin sitting in a tree…
Fallon: K-I-S-S…
Willow: Stop blowing up my phone, it’s annoying
Willow: By e
I couldn’t stop giggling while Fallon and Zoya continued to tease Willow, and I almost died laughing when, not ten minutes later, Zoya texted the group chat a picture of Colin at Willow’s house.
Yeah. Girls group chat rules.