Chapter 21
Trill-Land, ’LoLux Estate
It had been days since we came back from celebratin’ Auntie Nyori’s birthday, and I was already startin’ to notice that Kay’Lo was actin’ off.
It ain’t m sit right with me, ’cause outside of the mess with Pluto and Reni, that trip had been everything we needed.
Me and my husband had really got back to us out there.
We laughed more, stayed close, and every night we found our way back to each other without nothin’ in the middle of it.
We made love every single night, takin’ our time like we was tryna savor every moment.
It felt good to be right there with him, wrapped up in him and knowin’ he was present with me.
Even durin’ the day, we was playin’ games with everybody, talkin’ shit, eatin’ and just enjoyin’ the water and the peace that came with it.
I got to sit next to my husband and just be his wife without worryin’ about what might come next, and that meant more to me than anything.
So comin’ back home and feelin’ that switch up in him again, I wasn’t about to ignore it.
I knew what it looked like when Kay’Lo started driftin’, and I knew the difference between him just bein’ quiet and him slippin’ somewhere deeper in his head.
He had been doin’ so good too. He got back on his medicine on his own. He ain’t make no big announcement about it, or tell nobody but me, and I respected that ’cause I knew how personal that was for him.
After everything his daddy did with goin’ behind his back and playin’ with his diagnosis, I understood why he wanted to keep certain shit to himself. As long as he was takin’ care of himself, I was gon’ stand behind him.
But these last couple days, I could feel him startin’ to pull back just a lil’, and that was all it took for me to stay on him without makin’ it obvious.
I looked down at My’Love as she crawled across the floor in front of me, her little hands hittin’ the floor quick while she made all kinds of sounds like she had somewhere to be.
She was movin’ with purpose, lookin’ around like she was searchin’ for somethin’, and I already knew what it was. She felt her daddy’s energy too.
My baby paid attention to her daddy in a way that made my chest tighten sometimes, ’cause she had already learned how to read him without nobody sittin’ her down and teachin’ her how. She had watched me hold him, talk to him, calm him and now she moved off instinct when she felt that same shift.
I had his pill bottle in my hand while I followed behind her, smilin’ down at her.
“Come on,” I said soft. “Let’s go find Daddy.”
She let out a loud sound like she understood me, her voice high and excited as she picked up her speed, crawlin’ faster like she was really callin’ for him.
“Da-da-da,” she kept goin’, lookin’ around corners like she knew she was close.
I walked behind her, watchin’ her with a smile that sat heavy in my heart, ’cause even at almost ten months, she was already showin’ me what kind of heart she had.
We moved through the house until she turned into one of the livin’ rooms on the other side, and that’s where I found Kay’Lo.
He was stretched out across the sectional, laid back with one arm behind his head while the TV played in front of him. His eyes was on it, but I knew my husband well enough to know he wasn’t seein’ none of it. His mind was somewhere else, and I could see it in his eyes the second I stepped in.
I bent down and picked My’Love up before she could climb all over the couch by herself, then walked further into the room.
“Look,” I said softly, bringin’ her closer. “There go ya daddy.”
The moment Kay’Lo looked over and saw her, everything in his face changed, and that was the part of him I loved the most.
“Come here, mama,” he said, his voice soft and warm.
My’Love reached for him right away, her arms stretchin’ out while she made excited sounds, and he took her from me, puttin’ her on his chest while she climbed all over him.
He kissed her cheek, then her forehead, holdin’ her close while she pressed herself against him.
“What you doin’, mama?” he murmured. “You came lookin’ for me?”
She laid her head on his chest, her little hand pattin’ at him like she was tryna soothe him, and I just stood here watchin’ for a second before I moved closer.
I sat down next to him and reached for his head, liftin’ it so I could pull him into my lap. He let me, and settled into me like he needed it more than he was sayin’.
My fingers moved over his face, rubbin’ along his jaw slow while I looked down at him, and My’Love stayed right on his chest, laid up under him.
I leaned down and kissed him, lettin’ it be soft and slow, my lips pressin’ into his, remindin’ him I was right here with him no matter what was goin’ on in his head. He kissed me back the same way, his hand comin’ up to rest on my thigh while our baby stayed between us, comfortable and calm.
When I pulled back, I placed the pill bottle in his hand.
“Why you ain’t been takin’ your medicine?” I asked him.
He ain’t answer right away. He was too busy kissin’ on My’Love, his attention on her while she smiled and babbled up at him. I gave him a second, lettin’ him have that moment, but I ain’t take my eyes off him.
After a while, he finally looked up at me.
“’Cause I like fuckin’ you,” he said.
I blinked at him, frownin’. “What the hell that gotta do with anything?”
He looked at me like I already knew the answer.
“You know what that got to do with,” he said, his voice low.
I shook my head, but I did know.
“If my dick don’t get hard, I can’t get no pussy,” he went on, keepin’ it real the way he always did. “And if I can’t get no pussy, I ain’t gon’ always take them.”
I let out a breath, lookin’ down at him. “We can switch your medicine, ’Lo. You ain’t gotta just stop takin’ it.”
“I ain’t stop,” he said. “I just ain’t takin’ it every day.”
“That’s not how that work,” I told him, my voice softer now but still firm. “You know that.”
He looked at me, and was quiet for a second while My’Love played with the remote.
“’Lo… please take the pill,” I said, rubbin’ his face again.
He watched me, then nodded. “A’ight… After we make love tonight, I’ll take it.”
I rolled my eyes, but I couldn’t even hold it, ’cause it had been days for us, and I missed my husband just as much as he missed me.
“A’ight,” I replied under my breath, shakin’ my head.
Time passed with us sittin’ here together. I held him in this space until I felt him come back fully, and his eyes matched the man I knew again.
After a while, he sat up with My’Love still on his chest, and by then she had fell asleep on him.
“Come on, baby,” he said soft to me.
I followed behind him as he walked upstairs, watchin’ the way he held My’Love so careful and gentle.
We made our way down the hallway and into her room, and he laid her down in her crib slow, adjustin’ her blanket before leanin’ down to kiss her.
When he turned back to me, he reached for my hand and lifted it to his lips, pressin’ a kiss to the back of it while lookin’ at me in a way that said everything he ain’t say out loud.
Then he laced his fingers with mine and led me out the room, down the hall and into ours. And just like that, it was us again.
After layin’ My’Love down, me and ‘Lo took a shower together like we did every night. It wasn’t even about rushin’ to get clean.
It was just us standin’ under the water with our hands on each other, lettin’ the day fall off us while we stayed close.
When we got out, we dried off, got in the bed, and fell right back into our own vibe like we always did.
The TV was playin’ in front of me, but I wasn’t payin’ attention to none of that shit.
I was turned the opposite way of Kay’Lo with my ass in his face, my body laid out for him while I gripped his dick in my hand, kissin’ and lickin’ around the tip slow.
My titties pressed into his thighs while I took my time with him, not rushin’, but just enjoyin’ my man’s dick and the way it felt in my hand.
I wasn’t even tryna make him cum right then. I just wanted to taste him, feel him and be right here with him in this moment.
I kissed around the tip again, then slid more of him into my mouth, suckin’ him slow while my hand worked the rest. My spit had him slick with my my lips wrapped around him just right, then I felt him pour some oil on my ass before his hands followed, spreadin’ it over me.
His palms moved over me slow, rubbin’ deep into my skin while he rolled my ass in his hands. The way he touched me always did somethin’ to me, ’cause it was never just sex with us. It was how my husband held me, how he touched me like he knew me and how he loved me.
The deeper I took his dick in my mouth, the more I felt his body react. His stomach tightened under me, and he smacked my ass hard before his hand came right back to rub over it, easin’ that sting away while he leaned down and kissed over my skin.
I lifted his dick and ran my tongue along the side of his balls, kissin’ over them soft, takin’ my time until I heard him hiss under me.
“Mmm… yeah,” he muttered, his voice already thick.
I smiled to myself, keepin’ goin’, ’cause I knew exactly what I was doin’ to him.
Makin’ love to Kay’Lo came easy to me. I knew him. Not just his body, but his mind, his moods and the way he felt when he ain’t say nothin’ at all. I knew what pulled him in, what made him let go and he knew how to do the same to me.
We was never guessin’ with each other. We felt each other.
While I kept workin’ my mouth on him, he stayed touchin’ me, kissin’ all over my ass, lettin’ me have my moment with him while he enjoyed every second of it.
After a while, I lifted up and shifted my body, movin’ into position as I lined him up where I needed him. The second his hands slid up from my waist to my hips and then higher along my back, I felt that chill run through me.