35. Matty
Chapter thirty-five
Matty
M y girl is fucking stunning. It's the weekend and it's the first time the kids have been able to come to the farm. The leaves are changing color, and the sun is bright and warm, but Fall is definitely in full swing. My girl's wearing an adorable sweater and leggings.
Fuck, I love leggings.
She's got Viv up on a horse and Lauren's walking her around, giving her a pony ride, except on a big ass horse. Viv was nervous at first, gripping the front of the saddle like it might disappear from between her legs any minute. But now she's smiling and laughing. Hannah's smiling and chatting with Viv and Lauren. Aiden and Jack wait by the side, watching and waiting for their turn.
Diego, Rico, and Santiago stand next to me on the hill between the house and the riding arena. We watch the girls and kids silently for a moment. I rub my chest, where my heart suddenly feels too big for my ribs.
Diego barks a laugh before slapping a hand, hard, on Rico's shoulder. "Oh man, you three have it bad."
"Shut up, pendejo. Like you're not just as pussy whipped by Lauren."
"Yeah, I am..." he says almost wistfully.
"How do we get this forever? Forever with a woman who doesn't want to get married again?" I ask, desperate to tuck Hannah into my side and never let her go again. I've loved Book Nights and movie nights with the kids and every moment I've gotten to see her, but I'm an addict - I need more.
I know Santiago and Rico are right there with me - I've seen the hunger on their faces.
"We choose her. We choose them. Every day."
I nod. That's as easy as breathing.
"Do you think they'd move to the farm? Besides the club, we can run everything from here."
"I don't know, man. She specifically said she wanted to keep the house for the kids."
Santiago types on his phone. I really need to learn sign language. I look behind his back and see Rico's thinking the same thing.
"Look at how happy they are. We just need to convince her."