Chapter Eight
Chloe
I’m jumpy as my day begins. It’s only day two at the office, and if I’m this tense all morning, this job is never going to last. Even if I see Mr. Alexander, it doesn’t matter. He has no idea what I dreamt about last night. He knows nothing about me. I have no reason to be as fidgety as I am.
By lunchtime, I feel better. I enjoy the people I work with. Yes, the high exec women in the lobby are wearing their two-thousand-dollar shoes and holding expensive computer bags, but the other people are far more like me.
Another girl who’s been with the company for three months, shops at the same outlet mall I do. I’m beginning to feel like I actually fit in, like I can make this work. I’m sure I over-exaggerated what happened in the elevator. I was nervous. Who wouldn’t be around the boss? Not only is he the person responsible for my paycheck, but he’s drop-dead gorgeous. Even a nun would stand up and take notice. I need to give myself a break. To err is human, after all.
“The boss wants to see you, Chloe.” Slowly I turn and look at Jenny, who wears her usual smile. There doesn’t seem to be anything off in her expression, but I take a big gulp of air anyway.
“Why?” I ask before realizing this might come across as disrespectful. I try again. “I thought he didn’t see us much.” I try sounding nonchalant, but it may not be coming across that way.
“He normally meets all of the new hires. Sometimes within a day, sometimes in a week. It’s no big deal,” Jenny tells me. I let out a breath of relief. This is something he typically does. I’m golden. If he brings up the elevator, I’ll calmly explain it was a fluke; I’m committed, and even if I weren’t, I wouldn’t be into an office romance with my boss. I know the way I’d be talked about. I don’t want to be the subject of the gossip mill. No way, no how.
I rise from my seat as Jenny turns and leaves.
“Good luck,” Sadie says. I turn and look at her, my cheeks flushing. I hate that my nerves show in my skin.
“Don’t make me more nervous,” I say with a chuckle I don’t feel.
“It’s no big deal. It’ll probably be over in two minutes,” Sadie assures me before turning to her computer.
I toured the facilities yesterday so I know exactly where his office is. Walking down the long hallway feels like walking the Green Mile. I haven’t gotten my last meal yet. There should be a rule about that. I almost laugh aloud. I’m going to be hysterical if I don’t stop my rampant mind — and fast.
His door is closed, and I stand for a minute, not sure what to do. Surely, he should’ve opened it if he knew someone was coming to see him. What if he’s in there with a client? What if he’s busy? I look around, but there’s no one to guide me with what to do next.
I take a deep breath after a couple of incredibly long minutes. I don’t want to keep him waiting if he’s expecting me. Finally I lift my hand and lightly tap on the door. If no one answers, I’ll simply scurry away, and if it’s brought up later, I’ll say I knocked but there was no answer.
Before my hand returns to my side, the door opens. And here he is. All six feet plus of him, standing in a pressed white shirt, looking far sexier than any man has a right to. My breath is captured as I suck in a gasp of air that seems to pull his scent deep inside my body. My core instantly begins to pulse. This isn’t good.
“I was wondering how long you’d stand here, trying to come up with an excuse not to come in,” he says. His eyes are far too knowing for my liking. I just need to find a hundred other reasons to despise this man.
“I didn’t want to disturb you if you were busy,” I say, thinking he’s being slightly rude. If he knew I was out here wondering if I should knock or not, it would be polite for him to open the damn door. This man is confusing and frustrating. It’s worse that he intrigues me so much.
He widens the opening of the door and holds out a hand. I have no choice but to step forward. I’m entering the lion’s den. I actually might feel safer in the belly of the beast. Wait. There’s no might about it, I’d definitely feel safer.
I hear the click of his door shutting, and I want to scream that there’s no need for a closed door. There’s nothing inappropriate the two of us are going to talk about . . . or do. But he’s the boss, and I’m a lowly employee. I don’t get to tell him to leave the door open.
His office is massive, seriously huge. The room is bigger than my living room and kitchen combined. Maybe even bigger than my entire house if the doors I spot lead to other rooms, which I’m sure they do.
Floor-to-ceiling windows take up the entire back wall, and everything in me wants to see if the view is as spectacular as I think it may be. Once again, he seems capable of reading my mind.
“Take a look,” he suggests. I could demurely pass, but I want to see the view. I walk over and gaze down. It’s beautiful. The building is situated close to the water, and there’s a perfect view of the river. Boats float along, taking tourists on rides. Some are speeding. I can practically hear laughter drifting up to us. I’ve always wanted to own a boat, thinking life doesn’t get much better than a hot day, a cold beer, and a quiet river. Maybe someday this will happen.
He’s silent as he comes over and stands next to me. Actually, he’s slightly behind me. Heat radiates from him as he looks at what I see. I wonder if he thinks I’m nothing more than a country bumpkin who’s easily toyed with. Maybe I once was that girl, but I grew up, I assure myself.
“It’s beautiful, isn’t it?” he asks, his low voice music to my ears. I have to fight not to lean back, not to accidently brush against him. What is wrong with me? I can’t think these thoughts, want these things, or cave to these desires. It has to be the dream I had. It has to be the elevator. And to top it off, I’m feeling rejected by the man I’ve been with for so long.
With reluctance I move sideways and step away from the window without touching him. There are two leather chairs in front of his desk. I move in front of one but don’t sit. This shouldn’t take long, and I’m not going to presume he wants me to relax.
He smiles as he comes around his desk and leans on it, only a few feet from me. The way he leans into the desk makes his pants stretch across his impressive thighs, and more importantly, over the middle of him. It takes all I have not to trace my eyes along his narrow hips, not to look at the secrets he’s hiding. I’m sure there’s much to be impressed about. And he knows it. The look in his eyes has my hackles standing straight up. I try to mask my expression. It isn’t an easy task, but I’m doing a fairly good job of it.
“You managed to slip away without a drink,” he tells me.
He gets straight to the point. I gulp. “I never agreed to have one with you,” I say. His smile fades, but I square my shoulders. I haven’t said anything wrong. It’s his problem if he doesn’t like to be turned down.
“You must feel something between us. Are you playing hard to get?” he asks. This time he sounds more curious than anything else. If he was being rude, or condescending, it would be easier for me to be rude right back. But his curiosity seems to take away my temper as quickly as it rose.
“I’m sure it’s difficult for you to accept that anyone wouldn’t want to jump at your bidding,” I say. It isn’t a question, and the words don’t come out as a taunt. It’s a simple statement.
“That never happens,” he admits. The corner of his mouth tilts in the most appealing way. “That is until last night,” he adds.
I smile. He’s so easy to talk with, to joke with. I’ve missed having a man flirt with me. It’s innocent, or so far it is, but I can see how it can turn not-so-innocent very quickly.
“I’m in a relationship,” I blurt. I notice his expression doesn’t change. He isn’t surprised by my statement. Does he already know? If he does, what’s he doing asking me out for drinks?
“I have your personnel file,” he says. I’m confused. Maybe I’m slightly na?ve, but I still believe most people are good, most people don’t break rules such as fidelity and morality.
“Then why are you asking me to join you for drinks?” I ask. I’m not upset, I’m now curious.
“Because you’re obviously in a relationship of convenience, and I don’t do relationships, so we can be mutually beneficial to each other,” he explains.
I have to process his words over and over again in my mind. I think I realize what he’s saying. But I’m not one-hundred- percent sure. I look at him, more curious than disgusted. This should be my first clue to run like hell. This man is as dangerous as I originally suspected.
“Are you suggesting what I think you are?” I ask. I don’t want anything left up in the air. My imagination is vivid enough without trying to figure out what he’s saying to me.
“What do you think I want?” he asks. I wish I could guard my features as well as he can. I wish my face didn’t read like an open book. I take another breath, inhaling his musky scent. Damn, he smells good. I wish I could find a single flaw in him. I’m determined to do just this.
“It sounds to me like you’re... uh... well, it sounds as if you’re suggesting an affair,” I finally say, only tripping on the words a little. My cheeks heat. It isn’t fair to show everything I’m feeling while he’s showing nothing.
My dad often told me life isn’t fair. It’s what we make of it. We can bemoan our circumstances, or we can appreciate how much better we have it than many others. Maybe we don’t have the best house, the best car, the best clothes, or the best job, but at least we have all of these things. There are many people in the world who go to bed each night with an empty belly. Too many are cold, or suffer from addictions, or are depressed.
When I think of these things, I realize how truly blessed I am. This calms me. I’ll survive. Even if I lose my job, I’ll survive. I smile.
“That’s exactly what I’m suggesting,” he says, waiting to speak until I look him in the eyes.
I’m prepared for him to say this. Some women may be offended by his brash statement. Some might hightail it out of his office. I’m sure some have accepted. I’m in none of these categories. I keep smiling. I actually appreciate the honesty. No games. I’m also flattered. Who doesn’t want to be desired? Who doesn’t want to feel chosen?
I’m almost amused when a flash of victory flits across his otherwise expressionless mask. He must have it easy if his commands are met this quickly, if he can say such a thing, snap his large fingers, and get exactly what he wants. I wonder what it would be like to be him. It can’t be anything other than amazing.
“Thank you,” I say. He looks confused.
“You’re welcome,” he says, the words seeming uncomfortable on his tongue. It’s obvious he isn’t sure why I’m thanking him. This feels good as well. He might be the one with all of the power, but right now I feel on top of the world.
“I had a really bad morning, a really bad few days, to be honest. But you’ve made me feel better. I know I’m nothing like a supermodel, and it’s quite flattering to have you be so open with your desire for me. I’m sure it will burn out quickly, but it’s still flattering,” I say.
He opens his mouth to speak, but I hold up my hand. He looks incredulous, but he stops what he’s about to say. I feel even more powerful. It’s the best I’ve felt in a very long time.
“Does my job depend on my answer?” I ask. He looks horrified as his body straightens. Then he glares at me.
“Absolutely not. I’ve never had to threaten a woman in order to sleep with me,” he says. His voice is icy cold. My expression doesn’t change. I still feel pretty good. I step away from the chair and move toward the door. He doesn’t follow or say anything else. I don’t turn until my hand is resting on the sleek brass handle that will free me from this room.
“I won’t be having an affair with you, but thanks for the offer,” I say, giving him a genuine smile as I open the door. With one word he stops me from stepping out.
“Why?” he asks. All iciness has disappeared. He merely sounds curious again.
I look at him, having to stop myself from laughing. His offer truly lifted my spirits. I have a boyfriend I’ve been with for ten years who doesn’t want me, even when standing naked before him, and now I have a stranger offering a lurid affair. The two worlds don’t make sense.
“Because that’s not who I am,” I say. I step out into the hallway. I know he wants to say more, but my elation begins to fade. It’s time to get back to work. By the time I get home, I might crash, I might have a complete meltdown, but I have half a day to get through first.
I have zero appetite so I work through my lunch hour. It gives me time to prepare before the other girls come back. They don’t drill me about my talk with Mr. Alexander. I’m glad. I’m not that good an actress and don’t want to cave if they push me too much.
When the day ends, I make sure to leave with a large group. There’s no way I’m getting stuck in an elevator again, not with Mr. Alexander. I’m strong — but I’m not that strong.