Chapter 17 #2
“No way. If I had a sister, I’d know.” I balled my hands into fists, pacing in front of her. Could I have a sister? Dad had been a different man after Mom had died. Maybe he’d gotten Amina knocked up sometime after the funeral.
“How old is she?”
“Twenty-six.”
All the air escaped my lungs and I couldn’t breathe.
Dropping my hands to my knees, I struggled to stay off the ground.
Mom had died when I was twelve. I’d been a middle-school kid riding home in my older brother’s car to find my mother dead.
To find her blood soaking the front sidewalk next to a plastic tray of yellow flowers.
If this sister was twenty-six, then she was nine years younger than me. Three years old when my mother had been ripped away from us. Three.
“No. Impossible.” Mom and Dad were hopelessly in love. Always. I couldn’t remember a time that they’d fought. I couldn’t remember a night when Dad had slept on the couch because he’d pissed her off.
“Dash, she could—”
“No!” I roared. “Dad wouldn’t have cheated on Mom. It’s. Fucking. Impossible.”
Bryce kept her mouth shut, but there was judgment in her eyes. She was sure Dad was a murdering cheat. And I’d defend him to the end.
“Get in the car.” I walked around the front of her car, ripping the passenger door open. When Bryce didn’t move, I bellowed across the roof, “Get in the car!”
Her body jerked into action. She spun around, getting in and strapping on her seat belt. I climbed in too, not bothering with a belt.
“Drive.”
She nodded, putting the car in gear. But before she let off the brake, she looked at me. “I’m sorry. I thought you knew.”
“There’s nothing to know.” I stared out the window, my hands gripping my thighs. Every ounce of my willpower went to not putting my fist through the glass.
Bryce’s hand stretched across the console. “Dash—”
“Don’t. Touch. Me.”
Her hand snapped back to the wheel.
I didn’t want comfort. I didn’t want the smooth heat of her skin on mine. I didn’t want to believe a word that had come out of her mouth.
She was wrong. She was dead wrong. And I’d prove it to her. Tonight.
“Drive,” I ordered again.
“Where?”
“Right.”
Bryce silently followed my one-word directions through town until we turned onto the quiet street of my childhood. I pointed to the curb in front of Dad’s house and she pulled over. Without a word, we got out of the car and she trailed behind me to the side door.
Five punishing knocks and a light flipped on inside.
Dad made his way to the door to unlock it. “Dash?”
I pushed past him inside, marching into the kitchen.
Mom’s kitchen.
The one where she’d cooked us meals every day. Where she’d packed our lunches into aluminum boxes with cartoons on the front and filled our thermoses with chocolate milk. Where she’d kissed Dad every evening and asked him about his day.
Impossible. Dad had loved Mom with every ounce of his being. He’d never cheat on her. Bryce was wrong and I wanted her to stand witness, to hear the truth in his voice when he denied having a daughter.
Dad came into the kitchen, his eyes squinting as they adjusted to the light. He was shirtless, wearing only a pair of plaid pajama pants.
Bryce slipped in behind him, choosing to stand against the refrigerator. If she was scared, she didn’t show it. If she was doubting herself, she didn’t show that either.
Fuck her. She didn’t know. She didn’t know that I’d grown up with two people who loved one another more than life. That Dad had almost died of a broken heart when Mom had been killed.
“What’s going on?” Dad asked.
“I want the truth.” My chest heaved and I fought to keep my voice steady. “And you’re going to give it to me.”
He stood motionless. Calm. “The truth about what, son?”
“Bryce went to see Amina’s daughter.”
Dad’s eyes closed and his chin dropped.
No.
Dad always hung his head whenever he disappointed his sons.
“It’s true then? She’s your daughter?” A slight nod and I flew across the room, my fist colliding with his cheek. A crack filled the kitchen and Bryce let out a small scream as she jumped. “You’re dead to me.”
Without another word, I marched out of the room. The walls were closing in on me. I flew through the mudroom and burst outside, gasping for breath in the night air.
A hand, gentle and light, landed on my spine. “I’m sorry.”
“She loved him. And he . . .” My throat closed on the words. I couldn’t say it. I couldn’t believe Dad had cheated on Mom.
My mother had put up with so much shit from him. And it had cost her her life. Meanwhile, the man I’d loved, the man I’d looked up to, had gotten her best friend from high school pregnant.
Mom and Amina’s fallout made sense now. They hadn’t drifted apart. Did Mom know? Or had Dad kept Amina and his daughter from all of us?
“Fuck.” I stood and walked to Bryce’s car, her footsteps echoing behind.
Inside her car, she didn’t utter a word as she drove away.
I dropped my head, shoving my hands in my hair. “I have to tell Nick.”
After years, my brother and Dad finally had a decent relationship. One phone call and I’d destroy it all over again.
“I’m sorry. I’m so sorry,” Bryce chanted over the steering wheel. Her eyes were glued to the road ahead. “I thought you knew. I thought you were lying to me and covering up for your dad. I would have handled it differently. I should have handled it differently.”
“You’re not the one who cheated on his wife and just lost the respect of his son.”
Her shoulders fell. “I’m still sorry.”
“Not your fault.” My hand drifted to her shoulder and she tensed. Shit. Was she scared of me? I was angry, but not at her. “Sorry. For earlier.”
“Don’t worry about it.” Bryce relaxed. “I always figured you had a temper. And I’m a big girl. I can handle a man yelling at me. Just don’t make it a habit.”
“I won’t.” I didn’t want Bryce to ever fear me. I watched the road as she drove toward The Betsy, but when we got there, she didn’t slow. She blew right past the bar. “Where are we going?”
Bryce gave me a small smile as she turned into the parking lot of Stockyard’s, a bar two blocks down from The Betsy known for its greasy food. “Are you hungry? I’m starving. All I had for lunch were cookies.”