Chapter Fifteen
Cody
Cody felt TJ’s body tense as he kissed him, but it lasted seconds, if that.
TJ’s lips parted, allowing Cody’s tongue to slip inside, and he took the kiss he’d been wanting all day.
He grabbed TJ’s face, slid his fingers into TJ’s short hair, scraped his nails along the scalp and let his tongue tangle with TJ’s.
Pushing him down onto the bed, Cody lay over him as he continued to kiss him.
Years he’d been waiting for TJ, and now that Cody had him, nothing was going to stop him from taking him. By the time Cody got TJ’s shirt off, they were both breathing hard.
Kissing TJ, Cody moved his hands down over TJ’s chest, feeling the scattering of hair that covered it, and Cody rubbed a thumb over one of his nipples, swallowing the groan he gave.
He plucked and teased it, moaned when TJ arched up.
His dick hard, Cody wanted to taste it again, so he broke the kiss and kneeled between TJ’s thighs.
TJ watched, eyes hooded, as Cody unzipped his jeans then moved off the bed, tugging the jeans down TJ’s legs, leaving him naked.
TJ’s eyes widened, and he sat up, but Cody stopped whatever he was about to say by kissing him again. TJ moaned, his hands moving over Cody’s shoulders, and Cody whimpered. To have TJ kiss and touch him. A dream he’d had for years finally coming true.
Cody wanted to be naked too, so he stood and stripped, then moved back over TJ.
When their bodies touched, Cody shuddered, his dick hard and rubbing against TJ’s.
He thrust against him, unable to keep his hips still, and he captured TJ’s lips in a dominating kiss, his tongue thrusting in and out of TJ’s mouth, his hands gripping the short hair.
TJ bucked beneath him, his moans loud in the bedroom, and Cody lifted his head, staring into TJ’s hooded eyes. “TJ.” Kissing him again, Cody groaned when TJ grabbed his ass, the fingers digging into the meaty flesh. “I have to taste you.”
Cody pushed down between TJ’s legs and sucked his cock into his mouth, swallowing around the head. He needed TJ now. Needed to taste him, needed to fuck him. Pushing his legs up, Cody moaned at the sight of TJ’s asshole and licked across it, feeling the puckered flesh on his tongue.
TJ cried out, and the sound spurred Cody on.
Lapping at his hole, Cody mumbled, “Lube.” A bottle appeared next to him as he speared his tongue into TJ’s ass.
TJ cried out again, the sound echoing around the room.
Cody fucked his ass with his tongue, then lubed a finger and pushed it inside.
TJ shuddered, his legs spreading wider, and Cody crooked his finger until he found that spot inside TJ’s ass that he knew would make him feel good.
Cody had never had this done to him, but he’d dreamed of this moment so many times he knew what to do to make TJ scream, and when he pushed two fingers into him and tapped his prostate, TJ did just that. He rubbed and tapped and teased as he licked around his fingers buried deep in TJ’s ass.
“Fuck Cody. I’m so close.”
Cody pulled his fingers free, added more lube, then slid three inside. TJ tensed, his body arching, and nothing had looked more gorgeous to Cody than TJ did in that moment. Skin flushed, body tight, head pushed back into the pillow, Cody wanted to capture this moment so he would never forget it.
TJ sat up and grabbed Cody’s shoulders, pulling him up, and Cody let him.
The kiss TJ gave him blew Cody’s mind, and he let TJ tangle their tongues together as his hands slid over Cody’s body.
Cody moved back, stared at TJ, and took the condom he held out.
TJ licked his lips, his eyes watching Cody.
Cody kissed him again, pushing him back down onto the bed.
He didn’t know how long they kissed for, but by the time he sat up to roll the condom on, his dick hurt. He needed to be inside TJ. Brushing the head over TJ’s ass gave him time to calm down, and when he pushed inside, he whimpered, the tight heat making him tremble.
TJ pulled him back down and kissed him again, and Cody lay still, forcing his orgasm back. Finally, he had the man he’d always wanted. The man who he had dragged himself back from death for. The man who he had changed his life around for. TJ.
TJ’s hands moved over his back, grabbing his ass, urging him to move, and Cody pulled out, then slammed back inside. “I can’t do slow. Not this time.”
“Don’t. Fuck me how you want to.”
Cody growled low and deep and fucked TJ, grunting with every thrust into TJ’s ass. TJ wrapped his legs around Cody’s hips, moving with Cody, his hands touching and gripping and pulling at Cody’s body.
Cody let his body take over, his hips moved freely, and he kissed TJ, his hands touching everywhere he could reach. TJ shuddered and arched back when Cody shoved a hand between them and stroked his dick. TJ moaned, jerked, then cried out, “I’m coming!”
Cody felt TJ tighten around him, squeezing his dick, and he gasped and thrust deep inside, coming hard.
TJ’s orgasm tripped Cody over the edge into pleasure so deep Cody lost track of everything.
Cody shuddered, his body jerking, shooting deep into the condom and he had a fleeting thought of not having it in the way someday in the future.
Sagging on top of TJ, Cody panted, his head on TJ’s chest, listening to his heart race.
As his skin cooled, Cody lifted his head and kissed TJ’s lips, watching him open his eyes to stare up at him.
God, he loved TJ, but he knew for a fact TJ wasn’t ready to hear those words, so he kissed him again and carefully pulled free.
He dealt with the condom, then lay back on the bed next to TJ. TJ coughed, then asked, “Do you only top? Not that I’m complaining.”
“I don’t really know. After the barn, I stayed away from anything to do with sex. You’re the first since that night. I’m not against it, but I don’t think I’ll want to bottom again. There’s just too much… Is that a problem?”
“No. I prefer to bottom. I will top occasionally, but it isn’t for me.”
“I guess we work that way, then.”
He heard the sigh and kept the wince to himself. “Cody…”
“This shouldn’t have happened… you’re too young… what about Cass…”
“You took all my good ones.”
Cody rolled onto his side, chuckling when TJ grinned at him. “I’m sure I have more somewhere.”
“We shouldn’t have done this, but we have and I…” TJ exhaled. “I don’t want to go back to how things were. You know I spent all day talking myself into telling you to go. I never expected to feel this way about you. You’ve just come back. You’ve gone through so much and—”
“Yet here I am. One day you’ll wake up and not see teenager Cody.”
“I’m not seeing him now because I didn’t want teenager Cody to fuck me like I wanted you to.” Cody grinned and TJ rolled his eyes. “Fine. Okay, I said it. I want you.”
“I thought I’d have to fight you for longer to admit it.”
“Hard to deny it when you just had your dick in my ass.” TJ sat up and wrapped his arms around his bent knees.
“I don’t know how we’re going to handle this.
I wasn’t expecting this when you turned up in my kitchen.
I thought you would stay a couple of nights, then go to Cass. It has become apparent I was mistaken.”
Cody chuckled and sat up next to TJ, wrapping his arm around his shoulder and placing a soft kiss on it.
“I will deal with Cass when I need to, but I do want to see Toni and Carter first.” Cody kissed TJ’s shoulder again, feeling his arousal build.
Slow, but it was building. “You’re off work tomorrow. ”
“I am.” TJ turned his head and accepted Cody’s kiss when he gave it. “Is there something you want?”
“You.”
“We only just—”
“I am twenty and I’m with you. Finally. You’re in for a long night, TJ.”
“In a minute. We need to deal with your situation with Cass—”
“I have no intention of having any form of a relationship with him. Ever. He was going to send me to a conversion camp because he hated the fact his son was gay. Is gay. Do you think it’ll be any different now I’m an adult?
You think we can rebuild a relationship after he knew what I was doing and refused to get help for me? ”
“You refused therapy as well, but he should have made you go. I tried talking to him about it so many times, but he liked to remind me I wasn’t family and had no right to say anything about how he dealt with you. Carter tried too, but it didn’t make a difference.”
“I know. I used to hear you all arguing, and I hated it and hated them. I hated myself more, but never you. I never hated you.”
TJ reached up and palmed Cody’s cheek. “Cody. I wish you’d come to me and told me what was going on. I could have helped you.”
“No, I’m glad I didn’t. What happened to me happened for a reason.
I would be dead somewhere of a drug overdose or my liver would have quit.
I went through hell, but I made it and I’m a better person for it.
It’s given me a purpose in life to help others and it made me stronger.
Strong enough to come back here for you.
” Cody kissed the palm of TJ’s hand. “I am glad you’ve seen some sense, though.
” He grinned, then laughed when TJ tickled him.
“I can’t believe I let you—”
“Lalalalalala I can’t hear you.” Cody yelped when TJ lunged and pushed him onto his back. “TJ!”
“I can’t believe I let you fuck me, but I’m glad I did. Give me time to get my head out of my ass. I can handle the age difference… just… it’s knowing you as a teenager and your family that I’m struggling with, but I’ll try.”
“Promise.”
“Yeah.” TJ kissed him slow and deep, and Cody moaned because it was so fucking good. “I can feel you.”
“I finally have you in bed.” Cody kissed him back, their tongues dancing erotically. “I want you to ride me.”
“I want to do something else first. Roll over.”
Cody tensed, then relaxed. He wasn’t ashamed of his back, but he’d never had someone look at them other than his family. Mama and Jed and the boys. They were his family, but so was TJ, so Cody rolled over and rested his head on his hands.
He heard TJ’s swift intake of breath and relaxed under TJ’s touch when his fingers traced one of the scars that littered his back. “Cody,” TJ whispered his name. “Some of these are… shit, Cody.”
“I’m alive. I survived.” Cody blinked his eyes rapidly when he felt TJ kiss his back.
Not so much on the scar tissue, but he knew what TJ was doing.
Warm hands slid over his skin and more kisses followed.
“I love you.” The words were spoken so quietly, and Cody hadn’t meant to say them.
They’d slipped out, and he knew TJ had heard him because he paused above him.
“Cody—”
“Don’t. You don’t get to tell me how I feel. Forget I said it. I wasn’t going to tell you yet because I knew you’d be like this.”
“That’s not fair.”
Rolling over, Cody sat up and faced TJ. “Look how you’ve been about us. You’ve pushed me away and I understand why, so I held back how I feel. I’ve told you that I came back for you. You must have realized that I felt something for you.”
“I guess I never thought about it. You came back, and I had to get used to seeing you as an adult. Then you made it clear why you’d returned, and with work and all the hours I’ve been putting in there, my head’s been all over the place.
And the fact you asked me not to say anything to Carter or Cass.
” TJ rubbed his forehead. “Too many C’s. ”
“I know I shouldn’t have put you in that position where they’re concerned, but I don’t care about them.
My family, the people I consider my family, don’t live in Robinson.
Only you do.” Cody kissed TJ’s shoulder.
“I wanted to come back sooner, but I wasn’t ready.
I wanted to be. I was scared you’d find someone, and I’d be too late.
That I would have to see you with another man. ”
“How could you be so sure of how you felt about me? You were a kid.”
“It was my attraction to you that made me realize I might be gay. Did I ever tell you how bad it was when I told Cass?”
“I was there. I know he wasn’t happy, but he kinda shrugged it off, saying he’d get used to it.”
Cody snorted and kissed TJ’s shoulder again.
“You weren’t there the first time.” Now that he could touch him, he did it as often as possible.
Thinking back to that night had Cody tensing, but then he remembered it was in the past and he had TJ now so he knew he could tell TJ the truth.
“No, he wasn’t happy. I was fourteen when I told him, and he reacted by punching me in the face. ”
“What the fuck?”