Chapter 9 #2
“Stop overthinking it. It has nothing to do with what happened in your childhood. The shit you’ve accomplished is fucking badass.
You’re a national champion, Lila. The best collegiate female distance runner out there.
That’s fucking amazing. And I don’t give a shit if your dad was drunk or sober or if your childhood was messed up or perfect.
You’ve accomplished shit most people couldn’t dream of.
Not to mention, being a straight A student at one of the most competitive universities in the country.
Own that shit. You’ve got nothing more to prove.
Just hold your head up, look them in the eyes, and say, Damn straight, asshole. ”
Her eyes widened, and she shrugged. “Never thought about it like that.”
“You’re always going to have people who aren’t happy for your success, but only you control how you respond to it.”
“Fair point. But Kline jumped on that train so fast like he knew my whole story. No one knows my whole story outside of you and Travis and maybe Brax. Just the stuff they’ve heard. They don’t know what a good man my father is or all that he’s been through.”
“It’s no one’s fucking business. And I told you Kline wasn’t the guy for you. So, if you kick his ass to the curb, I’ll be fine with it.” I smirked.
“I bet you will, Bear. Fine. I’ve got to get into my birthday suit and march into the tide. The least I can do is check something off the damn list today.”
I chuckled. “Why is this so important to you?”
“Because I just want to feel normal for once in my life. I’ve been so busy trying to prove I have it together that I stopped living somewhere along the way.
And fear has been driving me for a long time.
I just got drunk for the first time in my life recently; I haven’t had sex yet or showered with a man.
I’ve been so focused on achieving things that I’ve been missing out.
I haven’t had a ton of fun in my life.” She shrugged. “So, I’m changing that now.”
“You sure are.” I smirked.
“So, are you just going to watch me or join me?” she asked as she unzipped her jean shorts and started sliding them down her legs as a little white lace peeked out.
Good Christ.
I let out a long sigh before turning around so I had my back to her. “You do know your brother will cut off my fucking balls and disown me for skinny dipping with you, right?”
She broke out in hysterical laughter. “Come on, Bear. Aren’t you the one who just told me not to listen to what other people think?
Why don’t you just look him in the eyes and say, Damn straight, asshole.
” She chuckled, throwing my words back at me.
“And it’s not like I haven’t seen a naked man before.
I just haven’t had sex with one. Don’t be a baby. ”
“I’m not being a baby. I’m trying to be respectful, for fuck’s sake.” I’d seen more naked women than the average man. But this was Lila.
“Well, stop. We’re friends. Come on. I’ll go in first so you don’t have to see me if it’s that horrifying for you,” she said over a fit of giggles, and I knew she was moving toward the water because the leaves rustled beneath her feet, so I turned around.
To make sure she was safe, of course.
The moonlight caught her back side as it hovered above us. I was definitely being tested because the woman had the most beautiful body I’d ever seen. Like a work of fucking art.
Petite.
Lean.
Feminine.
She walked into the water and yelped. “It’s so cold. Remind me why doing this naked is better than wearing a bathing suit? Because my lady parts seem to be the most sensitive to this temperature.”
Did she really just say that?
I tugged my tee over my head and set it on the ground beside her clothing.
Her bra and panties were on top, and I tried like hell to keep my dick from responding to the knowledge that she was wearing nothing only a few feet away, but clearly, he had a mind of his own because he throbbed against my zipper.
I kicked off my boots before shoving my pants and briefs down my legs.
I’d dove into the water naked more times than I could count.
But doing this with Travis’s little sister definitely felt like I was crossing a line.
She whistled from the water and taunted me a little more. “This actually feels so good. Are you coming?”
Jesus. She had no idea how the things she said affected me.
Am I coming? I’d like to.
I had a one-track mind most of the time, and sex had always been at the forefront of my thoughts until recently.
But ever since Lila came back to town, that had definitely changed.
I had my back to her before I turned around and strode toward the water. I made no attempt to hide my erection other than it being dark, but I was fairly certain she could see everything because she went completely quiet, her mouth gaping open as she watched me.
“It’s always better in the water without clothes on, Snow,” I said, as I walked a few steps into the cove and then dove under where I knew the ground dropped off.
When I came up, I shoved the hair away from my face and moved to stand in front of her.
She was treading water as she was a good foot shorter than me, whereas I was able to just stand with my chest above the water line.
“I agree. This might be my favorite thing I’ve checked off the list so far,” she said, her breaths coming fast as she continued to tread water.
“Yeah, this is hard to beat.” There was only one thing on her list better than skinny dipping, and that was sex.
But I wasn’t about to say that. I offered my hand so she could take a break from moving her arms and legs to stay above water, and she took it.
But then she lunged forward, and her hands landed on my shoulders.
Her chest brushed mine as her hard nipples grazed my skin. Without warning, my dick must have doubled in size and darted in her direction because she jumped and laughed when the tip of my cock grazed her. I reached beneath her armpits and held her a few inches away from me.
“Jesus, Snow. You can’t be rubbing up against me like that,” I growled, because I was on edge having her this close to me without any clothes on.
Her hands reached back out for my shoulders, and she pulled herself closer again, and I didn’t fight her. Her legs wrapped around my waist, and I didn’t move. Her hands found each side of my face. A halo of light from the moon illuminated around her as her gaze locked with mine.
“Why not, Bear?” she whispered.
“Because you’re playing with fire.” I kept my tone even, though I felt anything but.
Her breasts were pressed against my chest, and her pussy sat on my lower belly, taunting my eager dick, who was standing at attention, even in the freezing cold water.
I couldn’t fucking think straight. I wanted her more than I’d ever wanted anyone or anything—but I knew better.
I would not be Lila James’s first anything.
I wouldn’t take her virginity or her heart.
She was leaving in a few months, and this couldn’t go anywhere.
Not to mention the fact that her brother would fucking kill me.
He’d always been a good friend to me, and he deserved the same in return.
“Maybe I should put playing with fire on the list.” She smiled so wide it made my chest hurt. My hands were hanging down at my sides because I was afraid to touch her.
“Lila, you need to get down. You can check this one off the list. Let’s get out of here and head home.
” I leaned forward to urge her down, but instead, she slid herself down my body, rubbing all that sweetness along my throbbing cock, and I nearly came undone right there.
Her eyes closed, and she moved back up ever so slowly and moaned.
Motherfucker.
Who’d have thought the most erotic thing I’d ever experience would be my best friend’s little sister rubbing herself against my dick while we stood in the water under the moon, naked as a bear’s ass.
Why the fuck did I think this was a good idea?
“Snow,” I whispered. “We can’t do this.”
“Do you not want me?” she asked, and her eyes opened and locked with mine.
“It’s not that, and you know it.”
She rocked herself down and up again, taking her sweet time and grinding against all of my hardness. “That feels so good, Bear. Why can’t we just let ourselves feel good?”
My hands grasped her hips to hold her still as I hissed. “Fuck.”
I took a minute to catch my breath because the urge to push into her, take her right here, right now, was fucking strong.
“You know why,” I growled, once I got myself under control.
“Because you’re afraid of my brother? Or afraid of your feelings? Which one is it, because I know that you want me, and I obviously want you.”
“I’m not afraid of your brother. I’m afraid of what crossing this line would do to all of us.
You’re fucking leaving at the end of the summer, Lila.
You’ve never had sex, and you want me to just casually take that from you?
Not fucking happening.” I was angry, but I couldn’t seem to push her away or walk out of the water. I just stood there, completely still.
“I’m not suggesting we have sex,” she said, as she slid her hot little body down and up my cock once again. I didn’t stop her this time. Instead, I hissed out a breath at the feel of her against me.
“What are you suggesting?” I asked, and this time, I helped slide her up and down again two more times as she rubbed up against me, and she groaned.
“I’m just suggesting we explore this, because I’ve never felt—this, whatever is happening right now; it hasn’t happened to me before,” she said, and her voice was all breathy and laced with need.
“You’ve never been turned on like this?” I moved my hand to the side of her neck, forcing her head up so she could look at me. “Open your eyes right now.”
Her eyes flew open, and her breaths were coming faster as she continued to grind up against me over and over, her fingers digging into my shoulders as her gaze locked with mine.
“Never, Bear. And I don’t want to stop right now,” she said, her tone frantic.
I didn’t want to do anything to take advantage of her, but I didn’t want to stop her from feeling good either. It was fucking sexy as hell to see her chasing her pleasure while grinding all that sweetness against me.
“One time, Snow. We never talk about this, and it never happens again. You got it?” I asked, as I gripped her hips harder and helped her move faster, pressing myself into her where I knew she wanted me. We weren’t having sex—we were just getting off by rubbing up against one another naked.
Was I actually trying to fucking justify this?
“I pinky promise,” she said, and her lips were so close, I couldn’t help myself.
I’d be damned if the first time Lila James got off would be grinding up against me without my mouth on hers.
My tongue snaked out and ran across her bottom lip, and she gasped.
I nipped and licked and teased her before my mouth covered hers.
Her lips parted, and my tongue found hers.
Her hands tugged at my hair, and I lost all control.
I slid her up and down, faster and faster.
My dick was so hard, I knew I couldn’t hold on much longer with her bare pussy grinding against me rapidly.
Her head fell back, our mouths losing contact, as her entire body shook and trembled.
And fuck me if I didn’t go right over the edge with her.
We continued moving, riding out our pleasure, both of us gasping for air as I processed the fact that I’d just gotten off while humping my best friend’s little sister, who also happened to be a virgin.
And it somehow managed to be the best fucking sex of my life, and we hadn’t even had sex.
Lila’s head moved, and she tucked it between my collarbone and jaw, and her arms wrapped around my neck as she stayed completely still, waiting for her breathing to settle. It wasn’t lost on me that she felt completely weightless, like she belonged there.
Somewhere she could never stay.
“Are you mad?” she whispered, and her lips kissed my shoulder before she pulled her head back to look at me.
“Not at you.”
“I’m sorry. I know you didn’t want that to happen. But it just felt so good, and I couldn’t stop myself,” she said, and my dick hardened again at her words.
“Don’t apologize. But we need to stop talking about it and get out of the water right now, all right?”
She started to slide down my body, and then she paused as her head fell back in a chuckle. “Ohhhhh. We’ve got a situation.”
“We sure as fuck do,” I grunted, as I held her a few inches from me and walked toward shore, setting her on her feet once we were in shallow enough water that she could stand.
“Don’t be mad, Bear. This was on me, not you. I’m sorry for pushing it. I got lost in the moment. We don’t need to make it a big deal.” She tugged her long ponytail over one shoulder and wrung out the water. She wouldn’t look at me, and I could hear the shame in her voice as we walked toward shore.
We stopped in front of the pile of clothes, and I reached for her panties and bra, holding them out to her, before tugging on my briefs and jeans.
She slipped into her shorts as I pulled the T-shirt over my head, even though everything was wet and sticking to us. I wasn’t going to speak until we were dressed.
We started walking toward my house, and I turned to look at her.
“There’s nothing to be ashamed of. And that was not just on you.
We both wanted it to happen, and it felt fucking amazing, so don’t go beating yourself up.
I’m just not the guy you’re looking for, Snow.
I may not get to be the first man who gets to have sex with you, but I’m not mad that I get to be the first man to give you pleasure. ”
She laughed. “Well, don’t go getting a big head about it.”
Did everything she said have to sound so sexual?
She had to be the sexiest virgin on the planet.
I felt like some sort of deviant around her.
I needed to shake it off because this ended now.
This was a one and done, and we wouldn’t speak of it again after tonight.