Epilogue
Moon
Five years later
"You look so fucking sexy on your knees for me." Dagger groans, his hand wrapped in my hair as he guides my mouth up and down his length at the pace he craves.
He loves it when I give him full control like this. I reach between my legs, teasing my clit in mesmerizing circles as I please him.
The secret nobody tells you about love is that when you love someone pleasuring them is so hot that you can finish just by making them happy.
"Mmm, fuck." He groans thrusting into my throat, I swallow around him over and over, knowing what he likes.
"Mommy! Juniper bit me!" River yells out. His angry little fists banging against the door.
Dagger and I both freeze. We sigh, before he helps me up and we both quickly throw our clothes back on.
"You both were supposed to be napping," I reply swinging the door open once we're both decent.
"Juniper woke me up crying in her baby bed!" River says sounding exasperated. I swear he's the smartest little four-year-old I've ever met.
"How did she bite you if you were following the rules?" Dagger asks, squatting down to his level.
He's referring to the 'no pulling Juniper out of her crib' rule.
"Well she was crying Daddy, what was I supposed to do?!" He asks raising his hands in the air.
"You're supposed to leave her in her crib. She will fall back asleep after a few minutes. Remember when Mommy taught you about that?" Dagger asks in the calmest tone ever.
For as long as we've had children he's never raised his voice at them, he talks to them like normal people and communicates with them so gently. It makes my heart warm watching how he is with our babies.
I glance down at my ring as River grabs my hand with his tiny little one to lead me to where Juniper is. Thank God, we taught him about tummy time and the proper ways to hold and carry a little one. Juniper lets out excited little sounds, not yet learning words but I can tell she'll be very intelligent like her brother in no time.
I quickly pick Juniper up from her play mat and rest her on my hip.
Looking out the window in their playroom, I see the beautiful backyard. The place Dagger and I got married last fall right before my little Junebug was born. The whole club was in attendance of course.
We made sure to save two seats in the front row, One for Razor and one for Monica. My heart sinks thinking about the empty seats with reserved signs on them. I still miss them every day.
The pain of loss never really goes away. I like to say it comes in waves.
One thing I find comfort in is that wherever they are they aren't alone. They have each other. Dad never recovered after losing Mom. I like to think they're at peace now that they can be together again.
The sound of Rivers' cute little giggles brings me out of my thoughts. The sight of Dagger throwing him up in the air and catching him with a bright smile on his face once again proves that I chose the right man.
And God, does he age like fine wine.
"Any chance I can bribe you kiddos to go back to sleep?" Dagger asks Juniper, giving me a wink as he boops her on the nose.
"Didn't think so." He says with a sigh and I can't help the smile that spreads across my face.
Every day Dagger reminds me why I fell in love with him. Every day I get to watch the man of my dreams love not only myself with all his heart, but also our perfect little doppelgangers.
Our little family unit is everything I never realized I was missing. I'm so grateful for Dagger in so many ways, but I'm most grateful for him giving me the gift of motherhood.
Even with the club still at war, we find peace in each other every day. And I couldn't ask for anything more.
Dagger grabs Juniper off my hip, blowing raspberries on her little tummy in the way that always sends her into the most adorable little giggle fit.
The threats to the Devil's Outlaws MC will most likely never cease to exist. And someday the dangers of the life we live will manage to catch up to us, but for today... -even if it's just today- I'm happy, and I have everything I need right here in front of me.