Chapter 19
Chapter Nineteen
Raine
After hours of Dane showing me what it’s like to be his mate, we finally made our way back to the clubhouse. We did this with him carrying me like a bride, and he was walking me over the threshold. That threshold being a ways away.
I told Dane I could walk, though I’ll admit it would have been uncomfortable, not because I didn’t have shoes, I preferred to be without shoes. It’s a matter of not having any clothes to don on.
Our saving grace was that we were in the middle of nowhere, and none of Dane’s brothers were out there. The instant we got to the back of the clubhouse, Dane opened the back door and shouted, “No one in the hallway.”
There wasn’t a response to this, but there was movement, doors closing.
Dane carries me inside, the door slamming closed behind us, and moves quickly down the hall to his room. “Don’t give a shit who sees my ass, but don’t want my brothers seeing you.”
“I know shifters aren’t prudes. They don’t care about nudity.” Or, well, that’s what I’d heard. My parents shielded me from that when I was a kid. They made sure I didn’t see them when they shifted from their wolves to human bodies.
“You’d be wrong about that, dolcezza ,” Dane grunts while letting us into his room. “Depends on the shifter. Some don’t care who sees them. I don’t care who sees me, but I don’t want anyone seeing my mate’s body. That privilege is for me alone.”
Okay, so I really, really like that answer.
“Our club, before Karsyn came in the picture, we didn’t give a damn. It was anything goes unless Sage, Corbin’s little girl, was around. If she was here, it was all behind closed doors. She wasn’t, and you could walk in on anything. Now, with mates being at the clubhouse, it’s a rule. No one fucks in the clubhouse unless it’s in your room. No walking the halls naked if it’s something that has to happen, you come to the back door, call out, and if anyone’s around, they clear the halls, make it so no one sees shit.”
“That’s a good way of doing things,” I murmur, seeing this as a good solution. “So, no more wild parties at the Spiked Raiders clubhouse?” I remember Sloane telling me about them and how that’s when she found out Dane and her . . .
“Club still parties. There’s doxies here at the clubhouse for those who want to use them.”
“Doxies? What’s that?”
“Doxies are what we call the women here who are free and willing to fuck whoever wants to fuck them. In other words, they’re what others would call clubwhores.”
Whoa. So, he’s got free and easy willing women here. Just like Brady has surrounding him.
Dane gets right in my face, and it’s like he reads my thoughts because he jumps right in where my thoughts left off. “I’ve fucked them free and easy pussy. Had my share of those bitches that give themselves willing.” This isn’t something I want to be hearing him say. “What you gotta know, Raine, is the importance of finding my mate. You being that mate. I’m not going to fuck it up by straying. You’re too damn important to me. Not because you’re my damn mate and I need you to keep my sanity. But it’s more. Where we’re at, it’s new for both of us. We’re mates for a reason. The Moon Goddess wouldn’t allow us to be such without reason. You have my word that you can trust me and know that I’m not gonna look at some other bitch. Not when I’ve got you in my bed.” This last sentence is spoken so softly while he runs his hands along either side of my waist, pulling me into him.
What he said was nice. Very nice. But it still scares me. Not because I can’t trust him. He’s right that we wouldn’t have been chosen for each other without reason. That’s not what gets me, it’s a matter of whether will I actually be enough for him.
Dropping his hands from my waist, Dane steps away to his dresser and grabs me a tee from the first drawer and a pair of sweats from another. He quickly pulls the sweats up over his legs, the top resting very low on his waist, and comes back to me and helps me into the shirt. Not that I needed any help, still, it was very nice.
Dane takes my hand and guides me over to the bed, sits down on the edge, pulls me between his legs, and falls backward, taking me with him. He rolls us until we’re both lying facing each other.
“To finish what I said already, you’ve nothing to worry about when it comes to those bitches. ”
“I’m not worried about you being with one of those women,” I tell him quietly, curling my fingers against the hardness of his chest.
“What’re you worried about then?” he asks just as quietly.
“That I’m not going to be enough.” How is it just a little while ago I wasn’t worried about telling him anything. It wasn’t his business, and now here I am, just hours later, hours after he showed me with his movements in the way he moved inside me. I’m not hiding what I’m feeling.
“Told you out in the woods, there’s some things we gotta talk about.”
“Yes,” I agree. There were lots of things we needed to talk about, but he’d said some were more important than other things. “What should we start with first?”I didn’t know where I’d want to start. Actually, I do know. I just don’t know if it’s what he’d want to talk about it.
“We can start with the fact I want you moving into my place with me,” he announces.
“What?” I blink, my breathing quick and labored. Out of everything, that’s the last thing I expected him to mention first.
“Want you moving in with me. Don’t want you sleeping anywhere but next to me in a bed that will be just yours and mine. Don’t want to be away from you and worrying about the fact I’m not with you. We’re in the same house, same bed. I know where you are, and I know you’re safe.”
“But we don’t know much about each other,” I tell him and lean toward him. My nose touching his, I blurt, “Like at all.”
“Know that, dolcezza , but in truth, I know more about you than you think.” Dane’s fingers slide up, trailing along my side, the curve of my breasts, stopping only to curl around my neck. “I know the sounds you make when I’m inside you. I know the sound of you breathless, hot, and ready for me. I know the sounds of you coming hard for me, your pussy squeezing my cock like it was going to suck me dry to keep from dying of thirst. I also know how greedy your pussy is when you want something.”
“I don’t have a greedy?—”
“Raine, baby, your pussy is greedy. You couldn’t take me inside you fast enough.”
Okay, so I’d been more than ready for him. I liked having Dane’s cock inside me. It felt amazing. Magnificent even. There was nothing that felt better. Granted, his mouth on me was a very close second.
Still, I didn’t need him to tell me this.
“So, you want me to move in with you because you know the sounds I make during sex,” I say.
“Not just because of that.” He chuckles, his eyes still that blue, but they took on more of a normal blue and not that electric sapphire they were. “We’re mates, dolcezza . We’re going to have years to be able to learn everything about each other. We don’t have to know everything now. What fun is that?”
Why do I like his answer so much? Probably because it’s true. Being that we’re mates, we have a lifetime together to learn everything about each other.
“Fine, I’ll move in with you.”
“Good, now that you’ve committed to that.” Dane’s eyes take on a completely different look in them. One that screams serious. “I’m gonna tell you something. I don’t know how you’re gonna take it, but it’s the truth. I’d never lie about this or anything else.”
“What?” Now, he’s got me feeling nervous.
“You told my brothers about seeing me in your dreams. That we talked in your dreams.”
“Well, it wasn’t you per se, but I talked to your wolf,” I mutter. “Why?”
“It’s not something that any of them or one can do. No one can unless they’re an anchor for a dream walker.”
A what ?
“What’s a dream walker?”
“It’s complicated to explain, but they can walk into other people’s dreams. They have the ability to shape a dream from into a nightmare if they so want. You thought, you’re not just a dream walker, but also human. No one knows the truth about you other than my brothers and your parents.”
“My parents know?” I don’t believe this. They knew this about me and didn’t share?
“It was only just yesterday, baby, that Coby and I spoke with them about it. Your mom didn’t know anything until you told her about your dream the other day.”
Right. I did tell her about it, and she’d gotten that look on her face.
“So, you explained a dream walker. What’s an anchor?”
“An anchor could be anyone, anything for a dream walker. It seems for you, it’s your mate, me. They keep you grounded from getting lost in a dream world.”
Dream world?
This is all too much.
“I, ugh, I don’t think I want to hear any more. Not right now. I need to let what you’ve said sink in a bit.”
“I’ll tell you only as much as you want, baby,” he murmurs and presses a kiss to my lips. “We take the information bit at your speed. No faster.”
“Thank you.” I nod, another thought crossing my mind at the same time, making me giggle.
“What you giggling about?” he asks.
“That you at least are taking this at my speed. Everything else is at yours.”
“Didn’t fuck you at my speed, that was all you, baby?”
I open my mouth only to shut it again because, technically, he’s right.
Well, if that’s the case, then I want to go at my speed again and see what he can do to me all over again while the two of us are here in this bed rather than in the woods.