26. Chapter 26
Chapter twenty-six
I don’t do gentle.
I never have. But TJ. TJ and his wide-eyed wonder at everything we’ve done so far tonight. His endless desire to try everything.
Nothing he has seen has tamped down his ravenous hunger for more. Shockingly, it’s been the opposite. I won’t lie. I was certain watching me with Fynn would be a deterrent. And maybe the tiniest part of me hoped it would be. That would mean I wouldn’t be here in my apartment with him. Doing things with him I haven’t done with anyone in a very long time. And feeling things. Feeling so many things.
I got on my knees for TJ. I don’t get on my knees for anyone.
And now I want him. I want inside of him. I want him to feel it. To experience it. He said he wants to know what it feels like to be with a man. No, he didn’t say that, did he? I did. He wants to know what it feels like to be with me . And I want him to know that. But first…. I have this overwhelming desire to go slowly. To be gentle. And that is not me at all.
I turn the shower on and hold my hand under the waterfall spray until it warms. TJ is watching. Standing naked, his bare ass resting against the counter. His eyes are hooded and filled with lust. We’ve both come twice already tonight.
I’m not sure how much more he is up for. He can stop me at any time. Stop is all he has to say. I won’t be rough. I won’t be commanding. He thinks he wants that. So far, he has shown hints he can handle it. I look at his gorgeous face and perfectly toned body. All lean, hard muscle and golden skin. The dark brown hair skating across his chest and legs and the soft curls surrounding his cock, resting lazily against his thigh.
He has a smile on his face bordering on a smirk. His eyes graze over my naked body just as mine are his.
“You doing okay?”
“You keep asking me that?”
He’s right, I do.
“I told you before, I’m not fragile. I want this. I want all of it. I want you to do anything and everything with me… to me.” He steps to me and places a hand along the glass shower door and presses his warm skin against mine. I hum. His lips find my neck and he licks down the muscle along the top of my shoulder and bites. Hard.
I wince and grin. Fuck me. I love that.
“Careful,” I kid him.
“Why? Are you the fragile one?”
I grab the back of his neck and yank it back. His eyes sparkle and my cock twitches. “Get in.” I step aside and he steps under the water, dousing himself fully in it. Lifting his head to the spray and then wiping his hair back from his face.
I’m so mesmerized I almost forget what I’m doing until he flashes me a smile and turns his back to me.
I grab lube out of the drawer and a condom and place each along the shelf that runs the width of the shower. I make sure he sees them and understands what it means. “I want you so damn bad. Are you ready for that? Ready for my cock inside you?” I whisper in his ear as the water sluices down our skin.
“So ready…please…. please fuck me.”
My cock slides between his firm ass cheeks with no help from me. It knows where it belongs. He moans and leans his head back to me.
My hands are wet enough from the shower to give him a preview. Toy with him. I pull my body away enough to give my hand access, but hold his body tight to me with my other arm. There will be no escaping. I love the feel of his back against my chest. I reach between his cheeks with one finger and slide it inside of him. He jerks against me as my finger gently probes and teases. I pull it out and trace the puckered hole while I kiss his shoulder. I slip inside, knuckle deep again, and he wiggles against me, seeking more. I add another finger. For now, the water from the shower is enough.
He reaches back and grabs my ass, then his hand fumbles around my hips and reaches for me. I hand over my cock. “Looking for this?”
He squeezes and damn, it feels so good. His hand is so hot and strong. I pull back and let him slide it along the channel between his cheeks, the precum making it slick. The heat of it is driving me wild. Him playing, using my cock as his own personal sex toy. He places the head against his hole and presses slightly, before playing slip and slide again along his channel.
He turns around to face me and looks down at our cocks. The question in every virgin’s mind right there in his eyes as he stares at our erections mashed together.
“I promise, it will fit.”
He swallows and grins at me, and blushes.
“I’ll go slow.”
He protests that, and I press a finger to his lips. He takes the finger into his mouth and sucks. Oh God, my cock jerks against his. “Before you protest that, just trust me on this. Let me get inside and then you can make any demands you want. Deal?”
He nods. “Deal.”
I grab the lube and turn him back around. “Here, put some on my fingers.” He opens the tube and pours a generous amount along my two fingers. I spread the cool gel along my fingers and then along his hole, eliciting a hiss of delight and a mmmm . My sentiments exactly.
My fingers press against the tight entrance and I slide one and then the second finger in, swirling slowly inside. TJ’s moans drown out the sound of the shower and his hips buck against my arm. I reach over and turn off the water.
He raises his arms and braces himself against the wall. I hold him tight before I spread my fingers more and graze his prostate.
Ahhh…. fuck…. that’s good.
My cock jerks in agreement.
“Damn, I could do this all night.”
“Okay,” he growls.
I continue to probe and explore and drink in the sounds coming from him until I’m about to come from that alone. “Are you ready?”
He tips his head back to me. “Kiss me.”
I smile and gladly meet that demand. I grab his chin with my hand and pull his mouth to mine, shoving my tongue inside. He moans again. Our tongues thrash around, not even contained within our mouths.
I grab the condom wrapper and place it against his lips. “Open it.”
He grabs it with his teeth and I pull the wrapper open enough to remove the condom. He spits the wrapper out and I step to the side so he can watch me sheathe my cock. He’s practically salivating. I pour another dollop of lube into my hand and coat the crown of my cock. I move behind him and spread his cheeks. His entrance is glistening and I press against it.
“Don’t hold your breath,” I say.
“What?”
Then I press in and he inhales sharply. I wait for the exhale. But it doesn’t come.
“Exhale babe.”
He dips his head and does as I ask. I continue my intrusion. He grunts and freezes up again. I continue to breech the band of muscles, slowly pushing all the way until my hips are pressed against his glorious ass.
“Exhale,” I whisper into his ear.
He does, and then he leans back into me. He exhales again. This time I feel his entire body relax under me.
“There you go,” I whisper.
He moans and I pull out and press in again.
Another moan.
That sound and this view. His beautiful round ass being so gently impaled by me.
“Nandy…. fuck…. so incredible.”
Yes. Yes, it is. I try to maintain a reasonably slow pace, but his moans. Every time I bottom out the noise that comes from him. The twitch in his butt cheeks. So damn amazing.
“Come on,” he grunts. “Fuck me like you mean it.”
“Say that again.”
He laughs and chases me with his ass. “You heard me. Fuck me, Nandy. Let me have it.”