Chapter 21
Willow
Itry to pull away from Hades, but he refuses to let me. Instead, he tugs me closer and wraps his arms around me to lift me. Instinctively, my legs go around his waist, and I bury my face against his chest. He says nothing while he unlocks the door and carries me inside.
“Did you hear me?” I ask when I can’t take the silence any longer.
He sets me on the bed, freeing me from his hold. Immediately, I miss his heat.
“I did,” he confirms. “And you wanna know what I think?”
“No.”
Hades chuckles as he sits next to me on the mattress. “I think the fact that you’re a virgin means I might not be able to satisfy you, not the other way around.”
I whip my head up and stare at him in confusion. “What?”
“Willow, me being your first means it’ll feel so damn good for me.
Your pussy will be tight and warm,” he says, causing me to blush.
“On the other hand, the first time for you will likely be painful. I’m not small, by any means.
My cock will stretch you, fill you so fucking full that you’ll feel like your body can’t take it. But guess what?”
“What?”
“You’ll take it, and once the pain subsides, you’ll love it and be begging for me.”
I want to look away, but I can’t. He has me in a trance. “You say that like I’m going to have sex with you.”
“You are.” He sounds so sure, so confident. “Not tonight, and hell, maybe not even tomorrow. But soon, Princess. I’m going to be balls deep in you very soon.”
I manage to tear my gaze away from him. “Hades, I don’t… I mean… What if I can’t? Having sex is scary enough, at least for me. But add in what happened today, and I’m terrified.”
“Why is it scary for you? Aside from today, that is?”
I shrug. “Sex was never talked about in my family. And if it was, it certainly wasn’t made out to be something pleasurable. It was discussed as if it’s a duty, a task to be completed rather than an experience to be enjoyed.”
“Have you ever had an orgasm?” he asks, genuine curiosity in his tone.
“No,” I admit. “I’ve tried. I have a vibrator at home, but I never could get there. I think I’m broken.”
“Oh, Willow, you’re not broken. You just haven’t found what works for you. Is there anything that turns you on? Anything that makes you wet?”
I swear, the longer we talk about this, the higher the temperature of the room goes up. “I, um…”
“Never mind,” he says when I fail to continue. “We can figure those things out together. It’ll be fun as fuck for me to help you with that.”
“That still doesn’t solve the problem of today,” I cry. “I can admit that I want to try things with you. But what if I can’t? What if I freak out or freeze or some other crazy PTSD shit?”
“Then we’ll deal with it.”
“You make it sound so easy.”
“Because it can be,” Hades insists, tucking my hair behind my ear. “Let’s talk it through.” I nod, and he goes on. “What can I do to ease your mind about possibly freaking out?”
“I don’t know,” I exclaim, throwing my hands up. “You’re the experienced one, not me.”
“Okay. Well, I have an idea, but it involves you putting your complete trust in me.”
“You’d never hurt me,” I say, as sure about that as I am that my heart is pounding against my ribs.
He grins wickedly. “I’ll hurt you, Princess, but in the best possible ways.”
“What’s your idea?”
“Have you ever tried ecstasy?”
“No. I’ve never done any drugs.”
“I think it could help. You’ll be so turned on and ready for my cock that freaking out won’t even be an option.” At my raised brows, he adds, “Or we could try somnophilia which is me fucking you while you sleep. Personally, I’d prefer ecstasy, but it’s up to you if you want to try either.”
“I don’t know,” I say, fidgeting with my hands. “Can I think about it?”
“Of course.”
“In the meantime, can we do other stuff?”
“Like what?”
“Again, you’re the one with experience,” I remind him.
“How ‘bout this? Sex is off the table until you tell me otherwise. And while I impatiently wait for that, I’ll show you all the other ways I can make you explode.”
“No oral,” I say, unable to fathom putting another dick in my mouth.
“You don’t have to suck me off. I will be eating your pussy, though.”
I eye him skeptically before nodding. “Fine. But Hades?”
“What?”
“What if I’m never ready for sex?”
“You will be. I’ll make sure of it.”