Chapter 6 #4
Aspen’s mouth flooded with saliva, and they had to swallow several times to avoid drooling.
“O–okay,” they managed to stumble out. They didn’t even bother taking off their clothes. They just fell to their knees at Noah’s feet.
“Fuck, Asp,” Noah said, running a hand back through his hair, before dropping that hand to the top of Aspen’s head.
Noah was a pretty decent teacher, but he kept interrupting himself to moan and shudder as Aspen worked him with their lips and tongue.
When his knees began to shake, he pulled them onto the bed and taught Aspen how to blow him while lying down.
Aspen only internalized about a quarter of the lesson, mostly just letting their instincts guide them as the butterfly flapped unhelpfully through their brain.
“Asp… Gonna… Please… Please…” Noah moaned as Aspen grabbed two handfuls of his ass and sucked.
Noah came with a quiet groan, his legs shaking against the sides of Aspen’s head before his body went limp. Aspen scurried up the bed to wrap him up in their arms, and he reached for Aspen’s pants, but they batted his hand away.
“That was amazing,” they said, as his hand came to rest on their belly. “Seriously, I fucking loved that. I would blow you every single day if you asked me to.”
Noah was quiet, which wasn’t abnormal for him, but there was something charged in the silence. Their breaths slowly returned to normal until the only sound in the room was the soft tapping of the pipes in the ceiling as someone above them used the bathroom.
Finally, Noah’s hand tightened in Aspen’s shirt, and that butterfly began anxiously flapping its wings.
“I think you should see other people.”
Aspen’s mind tripped over itself, and in the absence of any real thought, their insecurity flared to life. “Did I do something wrong?”
“What?” Noah asked sharply, pressing up onto one hand so they were facing each other. Aspen searched his face, trying to figure out what the look was in his eyes.
“Did I…do or say something wrong? Should I not have said I want to…to do stuff to you every day?”
Noah’s lips moved like his mind was forming words, but his mouth hadn’t quite landed on one yet.
“No. No you… God, Asp, you didn’t do anything wrong.
You did everything right. You’re so good at literally everything I throw at you in bed, and I feel like there’s so much more out there for you to explore and experience. I’m afraid I’m holding you back.”
Aspen pulled their legs up to their chest, and they were incredibly grateful they hadn’t taken off any of their clothes. “But…I really like everything we’re doing. I don’t want to stop just to ‘get experience’ or whatever you said.”
Noah’s brows lifted, and this time it was easy to read the shock on his face. “Asp, that’s not… I didn’t mean you should see other people instead of me. I meant, just like we said at the beginning, I think you should try exploring things with other people in addition to what we’re doing.”
Aspen’s shoulders sagged, and their legs splayed out in front of them. “Sweet Gay Jesus, babe…you scared the shit out of me.”
Noah let out a soft huff, somewhere between amused and exasperated. “I’m sorry. I’d been thinking about it all night, and it was a fully formed thought with lots of explanation behind it, but…I guess I didn’t express that very well.”
Aspen tapped their foot against the bed three times before shaking their opposite leg four times. “Yeah, no, the delivery fucking sucked.”
Noah shifted onto his butt so he could wrap his arms and one leg around Aspen. This was clearly an illegal wrestling move designed to incapacitate Aspen with giggles.
Which it did.
“Why are you so fucking ridiculous?” Aspen said, shoving at him, which only made him hang on tighter. “Seriously, your mom calls you to nag you about dating and guilt you over how much time you spend with me, and your solution is to tell me to fuck other people?”
Noah tightened his grip until Aspen could barely move. “My solution is to make sure I am not in fact holding you back in any way while I…” His voice trailed off, and he buried his face in Aspen’s hair to whisper, “Consider going to see someone about everything that has happened with my parents.”
The butterfly took flight, flapping around somewhere behind Aspen’s eyeballs, causing them to fill and rapidly spill over.
“Okay,” they said, their voice coming out wet and broken. Noah tipped Aspen sideways until their head was tucked under his chin. “Okay, yeah, that makes a little more sense, but… Just to be clear, you’re not saying you’re getting a therapist and therefore don’t want to do our trial anymore…right?”
Noah cradled the back of their head as he slowly rocked them back and forth, something that immediately soothed Aspen’s tears.
“No, Asp, no, I promise. I love everything about our relationship right now. I don’t want to change a thing—which ironically is what makes me think you should change things up and see more people.
Maybe seeing a therapist will help me figure out what I want, maybe it won’t.
Either way, I still want you to find everything you’re looking for during our trial. ”
Aspen chewed on a thought for several minutes before finally finding the strength to voice it. “What if…I saw other people…with you?”
Noah’s rocking stopped, and Aspen held their breath. “Like…go on three-way dates? Or have threesomes?”
“Both? Either? We’re so fucking busy, and just like you said, I love everything about our relationship right now. I don’t want to see you less, but yeah, I mean, I wouldn’t mind seeing other people and trying out new things in bed, and…”
They had to really make sure this was true before they said it.
They tapped their toes three times on each foot, then four, and finally, they gripped Noah’s arm tightly to their chest. “And I would probably be down for even dating other people, but only if you get to be a part of it—in whatever capacity you feel okay with. Dating, sex, just being friends, whatever. I want you to be a part of it…because I want you to be a part of everything in my life.”
Noah was still frozen, like he’d been struck by a curse or Medusa’s serpentine gaze. “I…don’t think I could commit to dating other people, seeing as how I can’t even commit to dating you right now. Hence the whole trial thing.”
The butterfly swan dived into Aspen’s heart, crashing into the walls and making their chest ache something fierce.
“But,” Noah said slowly, and Aspen gripped his arm even tighter, “I think I’d be down for threesomes if that’s what you really want.”
Aspen had to look into his eyes for this. They struggled their way out of his grasp until they could kneel between his legs, cupping his face so he couldn’t look away. “Not just if it's what I want, babe. Would you like to join me in exploring gender-fucky sex with other people?”
Noah’s expression was open and unguarded, so Aspen was easily able to read the truth behind his stern, “Yes.”
Well, that was easy. Now they were just sitting here, cupping his face. Noah gazed at them, clearly wondering what they were going to do next, and at a loss for what else to do or say on the matter, they crashed their mouths together and collapsed on top of him, ignoring his groans of protest.
“Well,” they said several minutes later. “That all sounds great then. You can start looking for our new fuck buddy whenever you’re ready.”
“Wait…what?” Noah asked, doing his best to grab Aspen’s face. “Asp, that wasn’t—”
Aspen shook off his hands and silenced him with more kisses.
When he continued to fight that, they put their hand over his mouth and asked, very clearly, if they could sit on his face.
His eyes widened, and he nodded aggressively.
Aspen grinned down at him as they managed to yank off their pants one-handed and get into position, refusing to give him any chance to protest their amazing threesome plan.