Chapter 12
G abriel was stunned by Pandora’s compassion for a man who had caused her such harm. He shook his head in wonder as he stared into her eyes, as dark as cloud-shadow on a field of blue gentian. “That doesn’t excuse him,” he said thickly.
“No, but it helped me to forgive him.”
Gabriel would never forgive the bastard.
He wanted vengeance. He wanted to strip the flesh from the bastard’s corpse and hang up his skeleton to scare crows.
His fingers contained a subtle tremor as he reached out to trace the fine edges of her face, the sweet, high plane of her cheekbone.
“What did the doctor say about your ear? What treatment did he give?”
“It wasn’t necessary to send for a doctor.”
A fresh flood of rage seared his veins as the words sunk in. “Your eardrum was ruptured. What in God’s name do you mean a doctor wasn’t necessary?” Although he had managed to keep from shouting, his tone was far from civilized.
Pandora quivered uneasily and began to inch backward.
He realized the last thing she needed from him was a display of temper. Battening down his rampaging emotions, he used one arm to bring her back against his side. “No, don’t pull away. Tell me what happened. ”
“The fever had passed,” she said after a long hesitation, “and... well, you have to understand my family. If something unpleasant happened, they ignored it, and it was never spoken of again. Especially if it was something my father had done when he’d lost his temper.
After a while, no one remembered what had really happened.
Our family history was erased and rewritten a thousand times.
“But ignoring the problem with my ear didn’t make it disappear.
Whenever I couldn’t hear something, or when I stumbled or fell, it made my mother very angry.
She said I’d been clumsy because I was hasty or careless.
She wouldn’t admit there was anything wrong with my hearing.
She refused even to discuss it.” Pandora stopped, chewing thoughtfully on her lower lip.
“I’m making her sound terrible, and she wasn’t.
There were times when she was affectionate and kind.
No one’s all one way or the other.” She flicked a glance of dread in his direction.
“Oh God, you’re not going to pity me, are you? ”
“No.” Gabriel was anguished for her sake, and outraged. It was all he could do to keep his voice calm. “Is that why you keep it a secret? You’re afraid of being pitied?”
“That, and... it’s a shame I’d rather keep private.”
“Not your shame. Your father’s.”
“It feels like mine. Had I not been eavesdropping, my father wouldn’t have disciplined me.”
“You were a child,” he said brusquely. “What he did wasn’t bloody discipline, it was brutality.”
To his surprise, a touch of unrepentant amusement curved Pandora’s lips, and she looked distinctly pleased with herself. “It didn’t even stop my eavesdropping. I just learned to be more clever about it. ”
She was so endearing, so indomitable, that Gabriel was wrenched with a feeling he’d never known before, as if all the extremes of joy and despair had been compressed into some new emotion that threatened to crack the walls of his heart.
Pandora would never bend to anyone else’s will, she would never surrender.
.. she would only break. He’d seen what the world did to spirited and ambitious women.
She had to let him protect her. She had to take him as a husband, and he didn’t know how to convince her.
The usual rules didn’t apply to someone who lived by her own logic.
Reaching for her, he gathered her close against his thumping heart. A thrill went through him as she relaxed automatically.
“Gabriel?”
“Yes?”
“How did you win that last hand of whist?”
“I counted cards,” he admitted.
“Is that cheating?”
“No, but it still wasn’t fair.” He stroked back the wayward strands of hair that crossed her forehead. “My only excuse is that I’ve wanted to be alone with you for days. I couldn’t leave it to chance.”
“Because you want to do the honorable thing,” Pandora said seriously.
His brows lifted as he looked askance at her.
“You want to save me and my family from scandal,” she explained. “Seducing me is the obvious shortcut.”
Gabriel’s mouth quirked with a sardonic smile. “You and I both know this doesn’t have a damned thing to do with honor.” At her perplexed look, he added, “Don’t pretend you don’t know when a man wants you. Even you’re not that na?ve. ”
She continued to stare at him, a twitch of worry appearing between her brows as she realized there was something she was supposed to know, something she should have understood.
Christ. She was that na?ve. There had been no flirtations or romantic interests that would have taught her how to interpret the signs of a man’s sexual interest.
He certainly would have no problem demonstrating it.
Bending his head to kiss her, he let his mouth drift back and forth until her lips trembled and parted.
Their tongues met in a slide of tender wet silk.
As he deepened the kiss, it became more and more delicious, her mouth lush and clinging and innocently erotic.
Carefully he lowered her to the velvet brocade cushions, keeping a supportive arm beneath her neck.
His body was sweltering beneath the layers of his clothes, so uncomfortably aroused that he had to reach down and adjust himself.
“Sweetheart... being around you makes me as hot as a buck in running-time. I thought that was obvious.”
Turning crimson, Pandora ducked her face against his shoulder. “Nothing about men is obvious to me,” came her muffled voice.
He smiled slightly. “How fortunate for you, then, that I’m here to enlighten you on every particular.
” Aware of her fidgeting, he glanced down to see her trying to pull down the hem of her robe where it had ridden up to her knee.
Once that was accomplished, she lay there unmoving, contained fire seething beneath the calm surface.
Bringing his lips closer to her exposed ear, Gabriel spoke very softly.
“You dazzle me, Pandora. Every beautiful, fascinating, kinetic molecule of you. The night we met, I felt you like an electric shock. Something about you calls to the devil in me. I want to take you to bed for days at a time. I want to worship every inch of you while the minutes smolder like moths that dance too close to the flame. I want to feel your hands on me, to—what is it, sweet?” He paused as he heard her indistinguishable muttering.
Pandora flipped onto her back, looking disgruntled. “I said you’re talking into my bad ear. I can’t hear what you’re saying.”
Gabriel regarded her blankly, then dropped his head with a smothered laugh.
“I’m sorry. I should have noticed.” He took a steadying breath.
“Perhaps it’s just as well. I’ve thought of another way to make my point.
” He levered himself up from the sofa cushions and brought Pandora with him.
Sliding his arms beneath her slim body, he lifted her easily.
“What are you doing?” she asked, floundering.
For answer, he settled her deliberately onto his lap.
Pandora frowned and squirmed uncomfortably. “I don’t see why you—”
Suddenly her eyes widened, and she went very still. A rapid sequence of expressions crossed her face: astonishment, curiosity, mortification... and the awareness of a robust male erection beneath her.
“And you said men weren’t obvious,” Gabriel mocked gently.
As she wriggled to adjust her position, it sent exquisite pulses of feeling through his groin and belly.
He steeled himself to endure the sensation, breathlessly aware that it wouldn’t take much more than this to send him rocketing to climax.
“Darling, would you mind... not moving... quite so much?”
Pandora gave him an indignant glance. “Have you ever tried sitting on a cricket bat?”
Biting back a grin, Gabriel moved most of her weight to one of his thighs. “Here, lean against my chest, and put your... yes, like that.” When he’d settled her more comfortably, he loosened the belt of her robe. “You look overheated,” he said. “Let me help you off with this.”
Pandora was undeceived by his solicitous tone. “If I’m overheated,” she told him, pulling her arms from the sleeves, “it’s because you’ve embarrassed me.” With a severe glance, she added, “On purpose.”
“I was only trying to make it clear how much I desire you.”
“It’s clear now.” She was pink and flustered.
Gabriel tugged the robe out from beneath her and tossed it aside, leaving her clad only in the muslin nightdress.
He tried to remember the last time one of his sexual partners had been shy.
He couldn’t recall what it was like to feel embarrassed during intimacy, and he was charmed out of his wits by Pandora’s modesty.
It made something familiar seem entirely new.
“Didn’t your sister explain what happens to a man’s body when he’s aroused?” he asked.
“Yes, but she didn’t tell me it could happen in the parlor, of all places.”
His lips curved. “I’m afraid it can happen anywhere. The parlor, the drawing room, a carriage... or a summer house.”
Looking scandalized, Pandora asked, “Then you think this is what Dolly and Mr. Hayhurst were doing in the summer house?”
“There’s no doubt.” He began to unfasten the top buttons of her nightgown, and kissed the newly revealed skin of her throat.
Pandora, however, hadn’t yet finished with the subject of the summer house rendezvous. “But Mr. Hayhurst wouldn’t have returned to the ballroom with a... a protrusion like that. How do you deflate it?”
“I usually distract myself by thinking about the latest analysis of foreign securities on the stock exchange. That usually takes care of the problem right away. If that fails, I picture the Queen.”