Chapter 54
Reese cups my face and stares down at me. “I would never cheat on you, Cat. You’re my life, my wife, my best friend.”
My hands go to his wrist. “I know. I told you on the phone. I don’t doubt you.”
“There is no one that can hear a claim like that and not have it cut and create doubt. You’re human, Cat.”
“I didn’t doubt you. I really didn’t. I don’t.”
His head rests against mine. “The only person I’m ever going to touch again in this lifetime is you. The only person who will ever be the mother of my children is you.”
I swallow hard, feeling like I should tell him now. Yes, now, but no. No. I can’t tell him like this. This is about her. I don’t want it to be about her. “Reese—”
He kisses me, a soft brush of lips against lips, his mouth lingering against mine, and there is so much in this kiss; love, fear, passion, friendship, more fear. I pull back. “We’re good,” I promise him. “She didn’t break us.”
“I didn’t break us, Cat.”
“I know. Reese, I know. I’d know if you did. I’d feel it, but we need to talk about what to do about her.”
He inhales and releases me, turning away to run a hand through his hair. “Right,” he says, as I did about three times in the car before he walks to the bedroom window in front of the couch and stares out of the glass.
I cross to join him, stepping to his side. “I know that Royce will have an opinion and it will matter, but what about Cole? He’s your partner and this affects him, too. It’s going to affect a lot of things.”
He turns to face me. “The only thing that it can affect that matters, is us.”
“We won’t let it.”
He steps to me again, his forehead finding mine. “We won’t let it,” he agrees, kissing my temple and then guiding me to the couch, where I happily, queasily sit down. Did I really wish for morning sickness that is apparently all-day sickness?
“You’re right though,” he says. “I have to talk to Cole. I called him. He and Lori are on their way over here. You need to call your family.”
My family that I barely get along with. “I guess so. I could—I guess ask Gabe to come over. He’s the one I’m closest too. Actually, Reid’s the real bastard. We might need him. Should I just ask them to come over?”
“Yes. Ask.” He pulls his phone from his pocket and hands it to me.
I breathe out. “I hate calling them.”
“I know. I’m sorry.”
“Don’t say that. Just—just don’t.” I dial Reid and he answers on the first ring.
“Cat?” he asks, sounding surprised.
“I have a problem. I need you and Gabe.”
“I don’t remember the last time you said that to me. Are you okay?”
“Yes, but I need you. Now. Here at my place, as soon as possible.”
He’s silent a beat. “I’ll cancel my evening meeting. I’ll be there. I’ll bring Gabe. Whatever it is, it’ll be okay.”
“Did you, Reid Maxwell, just comfort me?”
“I’m your brother,” he says and hangs up.
Tears burn my eyes as I hand the phone back to Reese. “He’s coming.”
Reese takes the phone and swipes tears from my eyes. “I heard what he said. He loves you.”
I nod. “I guess,” I say. “And Royce? Is he here?”
“Downstairs waiting on us,” he says, angling in my direction. “But I needed to talk to you first. Everything is you first, Cat.”
I grab his hand. “Stop, Reese. Stop acting like we’re delicate. We’re not. She’s a bitch and we’re going to beat her. Let’s figure out how.”
He stares at me a few beats and then laughs. “She’s a bitch and we’re going to beat her?”
“Yes.”
He leans in and kisses me. “That’s my Cat. And yes, to both.”
“Good,” I say. “Will she go public?”
“She’s crazy. She’s capable of anything which is why Royce is having Savage shadow you unless you’d prefer someone else?”
“Savage is funny,” I say. “And I get the idea he wouldn’t mind killing someone just because it felt good, and he’d consider that loyalty, so right about now, that works for me.”
“Savage it is,” he says.
“What about you?”
“What about me?”
“Will someone be with you?”
“Yes,” he says, “and not because I want protection, but because there are too many people around me at all times who could get caught in the crossfire.”
“And with a gun?” I ask urgently.
He pulls me closer. “If I’m dead, she can’t extort me, but that’s why I’m worried about everyone else.”
“What about Dana?” I ask. “If this goes public, she could freak out.”
“I’m going to call her this evening after we have a plan. I’d rather talk to her in person, but the press will make that challenging.”
“What about the police? Do we talk to the police?” I shake my head. “Never mind. She hasn’t broken a law yet. She hasn’t asked for anything.”
“She did. She told you if I didn’t contact her, she’d go to the press. Royce wants me to talk to the police, too, but after we all talk. Him, you, me, Cole and Lori.”
“Do we know who the real father of the baby is?” I ask.
“Royce is working on it, but that could take time.”
“I go back and forth between the need to keep her quiet, and the need to just beat her to the punch and expose her in my column.”
“I don’t want you affected,” he says. “If I have to pay her off—”
“No,” I say, a sharp pang of emotion in my chest jolting me. “No, you will not pay her off.” I try to get up and he holds on to me. “Let me up.”
“Cat—”
“Paying her off feels like guilt.”
“It’s not about guilt, you know that.”
“Paying her off feels like guilt and admission of owning that child’s future for the rest of our lives, and her with it.”
“It’s about protecting the firm.”
“And she knows that. She picked now, while you’re in the middle of this trial, for a reason. Not only do you need her silence, you can’t demand a DNA test now without endangering the child.”
“But I can demand it as part of the settlement and I will, Cat. I shut up her up now with money she can keep even after the test. It’s about protecting everyone else, including you, but damn it, Cat, I’m not guilty.”
“Iknow.”
“You don’t,” he says, his voice hard now. “I feel that in you now.” He squeezes his eyes shut. “Damn it.”
“I trust you, Reese, but the idea that other people might not, feels weird which is probably why I just want to do it myself and write about it. It’s about control. I’d have some kind of control I don’t have right now but it’s not your fault. I don’t want her to punish you through me.”
“She is. She most definitely is.”
“No,” I say. “Pay her off. Your career matters.”
He lowers me to the couch, and comes down on top of me, like he needs to hold me in place to keep me from running. “You matter. Only you.”
“Your career matters,” I say. “It matters to you and me. It matters to us and our future. It matters to our future family. Pay her off.”
“Our family?”
“Yes. Our family, Reese. We want one. Don’t we?”
“Yes, sweetheart. We do.”
“Then let’s go downstairs and end this.”
“Not yet,” he says. “I’m not ready. We’re not ready.”
“We are ready. We’re strong together. We need to show that strength now.”
“You’re strong,” he says. “So damn strong, Cat, and I swore when you said ‘I do’ I’d keep you from having to be that strong. I’m supposed to protect you.”
“We protect each other.”
“I need to feel you right now,” he says, his mouth closing down on mine, a deep drugging lick of his tongue stroking against mine, possessiveness, passion, and something I’ve never felt in Reese in that kiss: desperation and fear. He’s afraid of losing me and I feel that same fear, for no reason. We’re in love. We’re happy. That isn’t going to change because of Debbie.