Chapter 17
DRIFTER
Ithought these past few days had just been about lust and need and obsession. And yes, that was a big part of it. Raelyn was incredible. She’s beautiful with a good head on her shoulders, loving and compassionate, a wonderful mother, and sexy as hell. Holy hell. Every inch of her had me spiraling.
But the attraction was just a part of it.
When I was with her, talking to her and laughing with her, I felt more like myself than I had in years, if ever. There was a sense of peace, a calm, with her that made the broken pieces of me fit back in place. I know it sounds crazy, but I felt it.
The same way I felt the warmth of her breath on my neck, the anticipation of watching her come, and the quickening of my pulse when I thought of being inside her. She was right there, sprawled out on the bed, waiting for me with greedy eyes.
Yeah, she wanted this just as much as I did.
As much as I wanted to savor the moment, remember the sound of her breath and the feel of her skin, I was already to the point of pure agony. I couldn’t wait another second, so I slipped on a condom and drove deep inside her with one swift thrust.
Her head flew back as she gasped at the sudden invasion, which made my entire body still. I looked down at her gorgeous, naked body, and I was completely spellbound by her beauty.
And when her lust-filled eyes locked on mine, I nearly came right there on the spot.
Giving her a moment to adjust, I lowered my mouth to her shoulder, kissing her along the contours of her neck.
It wasn’t long before her hands trailed down my shoulders to my ass, pulling me towards her as she rocked her hips forward.
I withdrew slowly, deliberately, causing her to groan in frustration as she waited for me to enter her again.
“Walker,” she pleaded as her fingernails dug into my hips.
Answering her plea, I eased into her again, and as I increased my pace, she began to move with me, matching my demanding rhythm. I couldn’t imagine a better feeling. I drove deeper, harder, and as she tightened around me, another deep moan vibrated through her chest.
I could feel her body tensing beneath me, urging me on as I became more determined to make her come undone.
I eased back, withdrawing from her once again, then quickly dropped my hands to her waist and lifted her.
A look of confusion marked her face, but it quickly vanished when she realized what I was doing.
A sexy smirk slipped across her lips as she moved to all fours. She glanced back over her shoulder, looking at me with wanton eyes and her dark hair cascading over her shoulders.
With her heart-shaped ass facing me, I stepped back over to the edge of the bed and rested my hands on her hips, slamming deep inside her. She immediately dropped to her elbows and let out a loud moan, and I took her harder, faster, forcing her closer to the edge with every thrust.
I continued with a punishing pace, and Rae’s hands curled into the sheets as she braced herself for the next wave that crashed through her body. She lowered her head and let out a needful moan. Knowing she was getting close, I slid my hand around her hip and down between her legs.
No sooner had I brushed the pad of my thumb over her swollen clit, she came unglued. “That’s it, baby. Come for me.”
Her breath quickened as she clamped down around me, making me lose all of my self-control. It was the final push I needed to push her over the edge, pulsing and filling her. I inched in closer, easing her farther onto the bed as I held deep, riding out the final waves of her orgasm.
Having no other choice, I submitted to my own release and drove into her one last time, burying myself deep inside her as I came. I stayed planted inside her for several breaths, just relishing in the sensation of her spasming around me.
Once we’d caught our breath, I withdrew from her, removed my condom, and tossed it in the trash beside the bed.
I lay down on the bed next to her, and as soon as I was settled, she curled up next to me, resting her head on my shoulder.
The room was cold and dim, and I could feel her heart beating against my chest. I couldn’t imagine anywhere else I’d rather be.
Her breath had already settled back into a steady rhythm, and mine wasn’t far behind. I tucked my arm behind my head as I stared up at the ceiling, trying my best not to overthink things. Sadly, it didn’t work.
It was impossible to shut off the brain when she was curled up next to me, naked and sated. My mind drifted back to all her little whimpers and moans, and how fucking warm and wet she’d been for me. That thought alone had my cock roaring back to life.
She let out a soft sigh, the kind that filled my chest with a sense of contentment I hadn’t felt in years. I was soaking in the feeling when Rae looked over at me and sighed, “Whatcha thinking about over there?”
“You.”
“What about me?”
“Just how incredible you are.”
“So, you don’t think we rushed into things?”
“Maybe.” She let out a little gasp, and before she could respond, I added, “But nothing that feels that fucking right could be wrong.”
The truth of that statement settled heavy in my chest.
I’d gone from avoiding any real contact with anyone to lying in bed next to Rae, talking about the rights and wrongs of us fucking, which wasn’t a conversation I expected to have, especially after how incredible it had been.
I glanced back over at her, and I could see the wheels turning in her head as she stared across the room. Knowing something was still bugging her, I asked, “You got anything else spiraling around in that head of yours?”
“Yes, but I’ll tell you about it later.”
“Ah, no. I’m not letting you get away with that.” I gave her a little nudge. “Spill it.”
“Dan showed up at the house this morning.”
“Okay. What’d he want?”
Her brows furrowed. “To give me a hard time about you.”
Of course he did.
Can’t say I blame him.
I would be curious about me, too, especially since I was screwing the woman he’d let slip through his fingers.
I tried to play it cool and kept silent as she went on to tell me, “He was playing the protective father, saying I didn’t really know you.
That you could be a criminal or something, and I have you around the boys. ”
“I see.”
“But that’s Dan. He likes to think he’s the one in control, but right or wrong, this has nothing to do with him.”
“No, it doesn’t, so why does it bother you?”
“Because he’s right. I really don’t know all that much about you.”
“You might not know everything, but you know more than most.”
That didn’t seem to settle her the way I hoped it might. She looked away and sighed, “Okay.”
“Rae.” She glanced back at me. “If you’ve got something you wanna ask, ask it. I’ll answer if I can.”
She studied me for a second, like she was weighing whether she really wanted to know all the answers. Eventually, she gathered the nerve to ask, “Have you been in jail?”
“Man. Straight for the jugular,” I scoffed and shook my head. “No, I’ve never been in jail, but that doesn’t mean I haven’t done things that could’ve landed me there.”
“Like what?”
“That one I can’t answer.”
Her expression flickered from frustration to curiosity.
While she knew I was involved with a motorcycle club, we hadn’t really discussed what that could mean for her and the boys.
I didn’t want to overwhelm her with too much information too soon, so I kept it simple.
“Club business stays in the club. Always has. It’s safer that way. ”
“For who?” she whispered.
“For everyone, especially you.”
She pulled the covers a little closer. Not in a guarded way, but thoughtful. She was taking it all in and doing what she could to make sense of it. I understood her hesitation. This wasn’t just about her. She had the boys and her folks to consider. So, her next question came as no surprise.
“Are you dangerous?”
“Depends.”
“On what?”
“On who is in front of me.” I didn’t look away. I kept my eyes trained on hers as I added, “I don’t go looking for trouble. Don’t need it. But if it comes to the people I care about or me… I handle it.”
Silence settled between us again, but it wasn’t as uncertain as it had been moments before. I reached out, brushing my fingers lightly along her arm as I asked, “You feel unsafe with me?”
“No. Just the opposite.”
“Then, you have your answer.”
She fell quiet, lost in thought as she let everything settle where it needed to. I could see it in the way she nestled up to me and the way her fingers traced the lines of my tattoos. After a bit, she looked up at me and asked, “What about the club? Are you going to stay?”
“I’m considering it.” Her eyes searched mine. “Just waiting to see how some things play out.”
She nodded slightly and let out a little yawn. “Okay.”
I leaned over, brushed a soft kiss against her forehead, and said, “Get some sleep. We’ll talk more tomorrow.”
“Okay,” she answered, her voice already heavy with exhaustion.
She curled up to me with her head on her own pillow and her chin barely touching my shoulder. She closed her eyes and muttered, “I have to get the boys at two.”
“I’ll make sure you’re up.”
And just like that, she was out. I stayed put for a moment, just watching her.
Seeing her face soften and the tension slip away did something to me.
I was doing this. Against all odds and all reservations, I was giving this a chance.
And if I were being truly honest, I didn’t have much choice in the matter.
Raelyn had gotten under my skin in a way I never expected.
And now, I had to figure out what the hell I was going to do about it.