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dear jake
when i used to dream of you, it was this frantic thing
i was trying to reach you
or you were trying to reach me
bobbing around in the ocean, i could see you and then not, pushing against the waves to find you
searching for you in a crowded shop, thinking i saw you and then finding it was just someone who looked like you
being told that you would be at a party and then looking everywhere and not finding you
but last night i dreamt of you
and it was calm
and there you were
we sat on a bench in a clearing between some trees and looked at the stars
and it was quiet
we were together
but there was no panic
no desperation
i was there
you were there
you weren’t going anywhere
we had all the time in the world
to just be
i could feel the warmth of your arm beside mine so vividly it felt real
it was peaceful
like you were coming by to say
hi
don’t forget me
let’s for a moment
or for as long as your subconscious can generate me
be together
sit beside me, my old friend, there is so much to say