29. Evan
29
Evan
W e haven’t left the bed in twenty-four hours, so when I open my eyes and see Luke wearing jeans and pulling on a dress shirt, it’s surprising. His hair is wet, and I can smell the clean scent of his soap. I rub my eyes as he begins buttoning his shirt.
“ How long have you been awake?” I ask. Unwrapping myself from Rachel , I sit up and drape my arms over my knees.
“ Not long.” He seems distracted.
“ Going somewhere?”
With his shirt buttoned he begins tucking it into his jeans, which makes me really sad for some reason.
“ The gallery. I made an appointment with the curator after we booked our flight.” He checks a shiny gold watch I never knew he owned. It makes his skin look even more golden. “ Eleven . Already called a ride-share.” He rolls up his sleeves and it makes him look, I don’t know, sexy in a way I’ve never seen him. I’m used to seeing him in a dress shirt for church, but he looks almost business-like.
“ You look damn good,” I blurt out with a heavy breath.
He winks at me and smiles. “ Thanks , little brother.”
My dick hardens as he walks across my bedroom floor to the bedside. Heaven help me, he’s wearing cologne! He grasps my chin and runs his thumb over my lips before leaning down and plucking at them with his teeth. An involuntary moan escapes into his mouth as his hand slides around my neck and squeezes. His tongue licks languidly at mine, and I wonder once again what my life would be like if I had allowed him to kiss me years ago.
The kiss ends when his lips barely part from mine, and he leans his forehead against mine as if he is as overcome as I am.
“ You’re like fucking candy, Evan .”
I smile. “ That good huh?”
“ Better !” He gives me a chaste kiss and stands, adjusting himself. His eyes slip from me to Rachel who’s barely covered and lying beside me. “ Take her somewhere. Show her the city. Just get her out of this bedroom for a while.”
“ Why ? Don’t want us fucking without you?”
He chuckles and runs his fingers through his hair. “ Maybe , but she needs a break, fresh air. She’s never been to Chicago . She’s been so excited to visit.”
I take his hand that is hanging next to his thigh. He squeezes back. “ I will, baby. Don’t worry about us. I’ll text you, let you know where we are.”
Nodding , he lets go of my hand and backs toward the door.
“ Good luck.”
He takes in a shaky breath revealing just how nervous he is.
“ It will be great. They’re going to love your new stuff,” I tell him.
“ From your mouth to God’s ears,” he says before turning and leaving the room.
I sit there, staring at the doorway as if he could return at any moment. Wishful thinking, I suppose.
“ Where’s Luke ?” Rachel’s voice sounds dry and broken. She stirs and stretches her voluptuous body. The sheet slips from her breast revealing a perfectly erect nipple. Leaning over her, I lick it causing her to yelp, curling back up from her long stretch.
“ If you don’t want me to suck on it, you should keep it covered.”
Her fingers sink into my messy hair as she arches her back. “ Figured it was probably breakfast time.”
I adore this woman!
Completely pulling the sheet away from her torso, I suck her other nipple into my mouth. She moans in pleasure while I roll her abandoned wet nipple between my thumb and finger.
“ Did he leave?”
“ He said he had an appointment at the art gallery we visited last time he was here.”
She rises up on her elbows at the news. Her eyes are wide with excitement. “ Really ! Oh my gosh, he has been so nervous and worried about which photos to show them.”
“ Is he going to show them the one of us?”
“ I told him he should.”
I can feel my face heat with worry and embarrassment. Rachel’s hands slide down my face to hold me gently.
“ No one would know it was you, baby. Try not to let it worry you.”
“ I know you’re right. Just a knee-jerk reaction.”
“ Luke would never risk your privacy, Evan . He has always kept your secrets.”
I lay my head on her soft belly and continue playing with her nipple. “ And you keep them as well. Don’t know what I would do without the two of you giving me the freedom I never thought I could have.”
She runs her fingers through my hair in that way that always soothes whatever I’m feeling. “ We love you—every part of you, Evan . When are you going to admit to yourself that who you are is not only acceptable but lovable?”
I close my eyes, suddenly uncomfortable with our conversation. She continues to pet me and soothe all my troubles. She won’t say anything more. She never pushes me. Needing more from her, I start suckling her breast, wishing she still had milk to feed me.
So fucking twisted, Logan ! My inner voice reminds me of this every time, and yet, I can’t stop. Won’t stop. God help me, but I need this. All the guilt presses in on me like a fucking vice, and I regress into this needy, pathetic, man. Rachel eases all the guilt. Her acceptance feels like a warm blanket, like the love I have always needed. Luke , on the other hand, makes me feel like a supernatural creature. When I’m in his bed, we’re two immortal gods making love that causes the heavens to thunder, especially when he’s in control. But then, when he gives that control over to me, I’m invincible.
As that feeling and Rachel’s comfort wash over me, I am able to breathe again, deep and clear. I switch to the other breast so I can stroke my cock. Her thigh rises and rubs against me as well. Her hands move from my hair, down to pinch my nipple and twist it enough that it hurts. My pulse races as my skin burns next to hers which is cool and supple. I grunt as I ride against her thigh and fuck my fist. I’m spiraling into my own sinful lust, willing to tear apart hell to have more.
“ Come for me, darling,” she whispers. The call of my siren has me coming undone with a fierce cry that echoes around the room. I paint her thigh and hip with my cum into which she swirls her fingertips, bringing them to her lips and sucking them clean.
“ Fuck , Siren !”
I drop my head to her breast as I pant for breath. A tremor rocks my body, so she wraps herself around me and kisses the top of my head. “ You’re okay, baby. Everything is okay. I’m right here.”
I allow myself a few minutes to bask in the moment with her. Where , for a little while, I feel incredibly at peace, and detached from the hell that stirs constantly in my mind.
RACHEL
“ It looks like the ocean!” I exclaim as we stand on the edge of Lake Michigan in Lincoln Park .
“ Kinda , but the ocean is much bigger.”
“ You’ve seen the ocean?” I ask.
“ Yeah ! Aunt Elise took Ember and me to Nantucket one summer while we were visiting her. She made us swear never to tell Mom and Dad . They never would have let her take us on a weekend trip outside of the city. Mom always acted like they didn’t trust her with us, but yet we spent two weeks every summer with her.” Evan is smiling as he tells me about his aunt and sister. “ Ember fell in love with the ocean. Started collecting seashells, and insisted she was a mermaid pulled from the sea and forced to live on land by our parents, which annoyed my mom.”
I leaned into him and looked up. “ Why ? She was just an imaginative little girl.”
Evan smiles, but it’s lacking in joy. “ Mom says Ember’s head is in the clouds. I think she despises that about her. That’s one of the reasons I encouraged them to let Ember go to school in Essex . It’s on the coast, and far enough away that she can have some semblance of her own life.”
Rising on my bare tiptoes in the grass, I kiss his cheek. “ You’re the best big brother to her.”
He shrugs off my compliment. “ I love her, and she doesn’t deserve to be saddled with all the guilt they throw at us.”
I tug at his collar. “ Neither do you. She’s lucky to have someone to fight for her.”
“ Aunt Elise fights for us, but Mom just rolls her eyes and ignores her. I want to make sure Ember can stay the fuck out of Wyoming if that’s what she wants.”
“ What does Ember want?”
His face softens when he talks about Ember . I didn’t know a brother could care for his sister like that. I always thought brothers and sisters fought like cats and dogs. But what do I know? I was an only child. Although Luke and Olivia together fills my heart to bursting.
“ She definitely never wants to move back home. Ember wants to find the love of her life and ride off with him on horseback. I guess her head is a little in the clouds.” He laughs and then looks down to our bare feet. “ She’s enjoying school, although a little like a fish out of water. Once she gets to know some people, and make friends, she’ll blossom.”
“ Have you found the love of your life?” I’m fishing, but it’s been so long since we were together as a couple.
Taking my hands, he spins me around, pulls me close, and kisses me. “ Loves of my life.”
I blush. “ You mean that? You’re not scared of what the three of us share?”
His hands feel warm on my waist and lower back. “ Of course, I’m scared.” He brushes my hair behind my ear. “ I thought I’d lost you. It felt like I could have one of you at a time but not both at the same time.”
“ I’m sorry.” I bury my face against his chest. “ Having Olivia complicated everything. I knew rejecting your proposal would hurt you, but I knew you needed to spread your wings—become the man you were meant to be.”
Cradling my chin, he lifts so I will look into his bright blue eyes. “ Was it about setting someone free and if they come back, they’re yours?”
I laugh. “ That wasn’t my reasoning. I am older than you, Evan . I do remember what it was like to finally be on my own. I grew a lot. It wasn’t easy either, but I needed it. You needed it too. I am not sure you would have ever reciprocated Luke’s love if things hadn’t gone the way they did.”
Evan wraps his arms around me and leans his forehead against mine. “ You hurt me, Siren . Felt like my heart had been crushed into a million tiny pieces…and then Luke …”
“ He told me.”
His eyes close, and I can see how the memories still hurt him.
“ Will you forgive me?”
“ Nah , Siren . You were right. I just couldn’t see it then. Here , Luke …you…the three of us can be what we need to be to each other. The second I cross the Wyoming border, I change. I have to. I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to come out to my family. It isn’t just about their feelings toward me. They would take it out on Ember …expect more from her than they already do, and I can’t leave her without someone to defend and help her.”
I caress his face as I fall deeper in love with him. “ I never thought about her as being one of your reasons.”
He smiles softly. “ Why would you? Not like I ever talked to you or Luke about it.” He lifts his head and looks out over the water. “ My parents will disown me, deny my existence, and be utterly disgusted and heartbroken.”
I squeeze him tightly, wishing I could make that truth disappear. “ And you’re right, we can never be an out-in-the- open relationship there. Of the three of us, you have been the smartest, to leave, and live somewhere that you can be true to who you are.”
“ But you and Luke aren’t going to move here to be with me.”
Knife to the heart. I don’t answer him. After all, what am I supposed to say?
“ I know you can’t. I know why, but all that matters to me is that we are together . No matter the miles, we will make it work. I can’t go through the pain of leaving the two of you again…not after…”
“ You sacrificed so much to be with Luke . He knows that. He understands the consequences should your family find out. Look at me, Evan .” He does with sadness in his expression. “ We will always keep your secret. We will guard it with our lives, no matter what! We can’t afford to lose you again.”
Evan laughs, and it catches me off guard. “ I’m sorry. I just suddenly wanted to ask you to marry me again. I don’t know what my problem is. It’s not even a possibility.”
“ You are the sweetest!” I declare as I kiss his face.
“ Like candy?”
“ What ?”
“ Nothing .” He rubs his hands over his face. “ Man , that was stupid. I’m sorry.”
I pull his hands away and find that his face is red. “ Maybe we can figure it out. I want to be yours and Luke’s in every way.”
“ So what, marry us and play house with Luke while I’m what? Your long-distance husband?”
Hell , if I knew. I don’t have any answers. Instead of answering, I lay my head over his heart and listen to the rhythm of his life force. “ All I know is that we love each other, and things can change. Who knows? If Luke can get his pictures in this gallery, maybe it will change everything. If he wants to move here to be with you and leave his family’s legacy behind, then Olivia and I will follow.”
“ Stop before you get my hopes up.”
He’s sinking again. I wonder what he has done for comfort all these years we were apart. That has me thinking of all the women he must have slept with. Luke has mentioned some of it, but I don’t want to know. I want to pretend he’s only ever been with us.
I take his hand and lead him back to the park and away from the water. He squeezes my hand tightly. I swear I can almost hear his heart screaming, help me! Hold me! Make it better! There is something in my makeup that is obligated to do just that. He is mine, and I am his. We share, and need from each other, what we could get from no other person, not even Luke .
“ Do you even know where you’re going?” he asks.
Not really, but it has to be somewhere that there aren’t a lot of people.
EVAN
I feel… I don’t know, disappointed, down, sad even. While right now is wonderful. They are here with me in Chicago , and it’s amazing. But what kind of future do the three of us have? Not the two of them. Me . I’m the odd man out. We must both feel it, because Rachel and I have hardly spoken as we walked back to my place. She knows I’m withdrawing. She lets me because there are some things I need to deal with internally, on my own.
As the elevator climbs, I think about Evander . Something about the way I’m feeling makes me want to see him. It’s the desire to slip into that subspace he takes me to. The dreams I had in that hotel room that night…they were surreal. Naked in the snow with Luke . His clothes melted away, but neither of us felt cold. Quite the opposite even. Then as suddenly as it materialized, it was gone, and I was in the hotel room with Evander . It was such a strange feeling as if Evander had turned into Luke , or the other way round. I shiver with the memory, catching Rachel’s attention.
“ Are you okay?”
“ You wouldn’t believe me if I told you.”
She narrows her eyes at me. “ Told me what?”
Saved by the elevator stopping on my floor, I lead her to my place. “ Nothing .”
Would it make sense to say that when we walked in the door and I saw Luke sitting on my sofa, it shook me? That dream suddenly materializes with his presence only to then quickly dissipate. When his eyes lock with mine, my entire body felt it. I want to ask if he really was there in the snow with me, devouring me with his mouth and his hands.
The moment disappears when he looks away and down to Rachel who is kneeling between his knees. “ What’s wrong?” she asks.
I already know before he says a word. “ They said no,” I answer. I toss my keys on the bar and walk to stand behind where he is sitting on the sofa.
His head drops back, and I run my hands over his face and into his hair. He’s so damn beautiful that I swear my knees feel like they’re about to give. I close my eyes from the brightness he exudes in those gold eyes that are simultaneously sparkling and sad. I let my lips drag over the hard line of his nose until our lips touch. Our kiss is soft, vulnerable, and full of so much damn need for each other, it’s painful.
Suddenly my mental torment of being away from the two of them while being in this relationship slithers away in shame. Luke’s hands slide into my hair as he pulls me down closer so our tongues can entangle. I slide my fingers over his chin and down his throat. His prominent Adam’s apple glides beneath my touch. I open my eyes when I hear the sound of a zipper.
“ He needs you to suck him deep, Siren .”
Luke groans against my skin and licks my throat. She looks so demure at his feet, taking his cock out, and rubbing it between her delicate hands. His mouth moves to behind my ear where he sucks and nibbles.
“ Need you,” he murmurs so quietly, I feel it more than hear it.
Caressing his cheeks with my thumbs, I hold him and look into his eyes. “ I got you, baby.”
His eyes fall closed, as if my words suddenly made the world right again. Luke doesn’t want to hear about how they are making a mistake by turning him down, or that he will get his dream soon. I’m going to take care of that for him. I know exactly what to do, and who can help me make it happen. Right now, though, Luke needs to be vulnerable. He needs my cock inside of his body, giving him unmeasurable pleasures.
The sound of Rachel’s gentle suckling is like music. As I kiss his features, my fingers unbutton his shirt, yank it from his pants, and throw it open. I pinch his nipples and twist them causing his mouth to fall slack with a moan that hardens my cock to an uncomfortable state. His chest is so broad and cut like a fucking dream. Rachel is running her fingers along the V that converges at the thin trail of blond hair that extends down from his navel. His abs roll and tense as she sucks him down her throat.
While one of his hands has a firm grip on the back of my neck, the other is gripping her hair. I take his lips captive with mine and lose myself in him. I vow that I will figure out a way to spend my life making Luke Garrett feel every pleasure that can possibly be bestowed on a man.
He grunts, tenses, and bites my lip. Rachel’s hand slaps against his chest, before dragging her nails down his torso. His entire body tremors and convulses as he comes down her throat.
I grin down at him and rub his bottom lip. “ You’re feeding our girl, Luke . Feeding her like you feed me.”
His lazy eyes open, unfocused and hazy. “ You’re so filthy,” he says in response. His hand slips from my neck and gropes my crotch.
“ Rachel , baby, go into the bedroom and undress. Get the lube out for us,” I tell her.
Obediently , she leaves us. I smile down at the love of my life.
“ You’re a vision, Luke .” He shakes his head and closes his eyes, but I kiss his lips. “ You are. Your clothes are open. Your dick is out, and there are scratch marks down your chest…and something about that watch.”
A faint smile crosses his lips. “ Gift from Rachel .”
His fingers deftly caress my balls. I hum with the pleasure, allowing myself to indulge for a few moments. Then I open my eyes and look into his.
“ How do you want me to take you, baby?”
His free hand grips my jaw. “ Face to face. Need to see you.”
Pleased with his answer, I smile. “ Let go of my balls, go to our girl, and let her undress you properly, and then wait for me. I’ll be right there to make you mine all over again.”
Luke moves like he’s slightly intoxicated, buzzed with the lust filling the room between us. He slides off his watch as he rounds the sofa and closes my hand over it. As he makes his way down the hallway, piece after piece of his clothing drops to the floor, blatantly ignoring my instructions. Halfway to the bedroom, he stops and pulls off his boots. I swear he is the sexiest motherfucker I’ve ever met, even when he was all long limbs and golden curls when we were teenagers.
Propping myself on the back of the sofa, I pull out my phone as Luke continues to make his way to the bedroom. His pants are slowly slipping down his hips revealing the top of his fuckable ass. I can see a glimpse of Rachel , waiting for us on my bed, and the anticipation gives me chills.
Finding the name I need in the contacts of my phone, I shoot off a quick message.
EVAN: Hey, I need a favor. Message me.
I know the price of this favor. I might not be able to convince Luke to do it, but for him, I’m willing to let Hugo paint my naked ass.
LUKE
By the time I make it to the bedroom, I’ve completely undressed. Rachel is lounging on the bed, leaning against the pillows like it’s her own personal nest. She’s sitting naked with her legs curved to the side. She has braided her long loose hair so that it is hanging over her shoulder. It looks a little messy—sexy. I lean in and kiss her swollen scarlet lips. I can taste myself on her tongue, and while I had no idea that was a turn-on, my dick seems to think it is.
I lie down at her knees, letting my fingers glide down her arm to her luscious legs. I just want to forget what a crappy day it has been. I was too confident that they would love my photos and offer me gallery space immediately. No idea why I let myself become that self-assured.
Rachel smiles softly and circles her fingertips along my shoulder. Slipping two fingers between her bent knees, I lift and pry them apart. She blushes as I open her up and reveal her sweet treasure. Maneuvering myself closer, I ease between her legs until her thighs are against my ears.
“ Oh , Luke !” she says with a breathless moan.
Wrapping my arm around her thigh, I take in a deep breath, smelling her arousal. She’ll never understand how the smell of her sends me to fucking Heaven . When I wiggle my tongue between her damp folds, she eases back and sighs contentedly. I work my tongue into her entrance and lap at the gathering wetness. Swiping my tongue to the side, I find her needy clit and flick it. Her hips slip down, pressing herself closer until I’m almost smothered by her sweet pussy.
I move her thigh, opening her up until she unfolds before me. This gives me complete access to every inch of her slick flesh. Angling my head, I use the flat of my tongue to deliver long slow licks over her flesh just the way I know she loves it. She shivers and her fingers immediately grip my hair.
“ Ohhhh !!!” she whimpers.
It takes me a minute to realize that strong hands have a firm grasp on my ass cheeks. Two thumbs divide them, and I feel Evan’s warm breath before his tongue tunnels deep into my body.
I groan against Rachel as my body fights to stay in my twisted position. As Evan’s tongue teases my back entrance and then works its way inside, I begin gently sucking on her clit. I can’t explain the way it makes me feel when Evan rims me. Overexposed , submissive, and so fucking high. I clamp onto her clit like it’s my own personal pacifier. For a moment, I consider if this is how Evan feels when he’s warming my cock or sucking Rachel’s nipples. The feelings are so all-encompassing that they make me feel incredibly vulnerable. It’s as if something in me reverts to a childlike need to be soothed and coddled.
She begins to writhe against my face. It only makes me suck more vigorously. When I use the tip of my tongue to flick the little bud, she goes off like fireworks. In a very unfeminine, but sexy-as-fuck way, she holds me against her and rides my face as if her life depended on it.
The more Evan works his tongue, the weaker my body becomes. She’s trembling while I lap at her flesh that’s drenched by the rush of her cum. When he runs the tip of his tongue up the divide of my ass, I tremble and slip away from Rachel , leaving her panting. She’s spread open, flopped like a rag doll.
Evan has moved away from me so I ease to my back trying to catch my breath. Suddenly , he lifts our rag doll and carefully spreads her over my body. She’s languid and soft as I wrap her in my arms and kiss her forehead. Evan adjusts her limp body, so her knees are poised at my hips.
He gives me a wicked smile and thrusts balls deep into Rachel . She moans with her mouth pressed against my neck. I caress her shoulder and down her spine.
“ Go easy on our girl,” I tell him.
“ Damn !” His head drops back as he digs his fingers into her voluptuous hips. “ Her pussy is still contracting.”
“ Was it a good one?” I softly ask, to which she nods.
He stays planted for a few moments before he begins rocking his hips. Her fingers flex against my shoulder with his movements. I’m a little confused since I thought we came in here to fuck each other, but I love having Rachel between us. She deserves all of our pleasure.
“ Would you like for me to join you?” I ask.
Evan bares his teeth as he slowly pulls out and eases back in. “ Just getting lube the old-fashioned way, cowboy.” I feel his fingers playing with her clit. Every once in a while, his fingers brush my cock which is now fully erect beneath her.
“ Oh my!” Rachel yells as her body stiffens.
“ That’s it, Siren . Luke and I need lots of your slick lube. Come all over us.”
Her head pops up, but her eyes are clenched while her mouth is hanging open. With a sudden cry she has another orgasm. This time, I can feel the contractions against my abdomen. Her entire body convulses while her face softens. As she melts against me once again, I feel her cum drip from her body.
“ So stunning,” I whisper before I lean up and take her parted lips in a deep kiss.
Evan growls loudly. “ Shit , girl! How am I going to keep from coming deep in your hot pussy when you clamp down like that?”
I chuckle and lay Rachel’s head against my shoulder. “ Better pull out,” I tell him.
He’s so tense, the tendons on his neck are popping out. He grinds his jaw and shakes his head. “ Can’t !” he blurts out.
I look down into Rachel’s angelic face. Her cheeks are rosy. “ You drove him to the edge, babe. If he moves, he’s gonna lose it.”
“ Can you shut it!” he grunts. “ Talk about horses or something!”
“ You’re hung like a horse,” Rachel tells him with a grin.
That has Evan backing away with a sharp hiss from between his clenched teeth. When he is free of her body, he bends down and rests his forehead on her lower back, panting for breath. More of her juices leak down over my balls to the exact spot Evan wants.
Rachel and I start kissing again while I caress her soft skin.
“ Thank you.” Evan’s muffled response seems to come out of nowhere, but his smart-ass tone is crystal clear.
Our kiss is interrupted by Rachel’s giggles. Her gentle quaking is causing my cock to ache. Letting my head fall back to the mattress, I groan in my throat.
Evan smacks her ass playfully. “ Move , Siren . It’s Luke’s turn.” His fingers carefully enter me, stirring tiny circles to open me up. I hum in contentment as he scissors his fingers to stretch me, making room for himself inside my body.
Rachel plants a soft kiss on my lips and slips out of my arms to lie next to me. I watch to make sure she doesn’t feel cast aside, but there is contentment in her expression. When she smiles softly, I know it’s to reassure me. Even so, I take her hand in mine and hold it gently, sliding my thumb back and forth.
Evan laps at my balls once, grabbing my attention. With a gentle push, he presses my knees to my chest. He gives me a wink and a smile. “ Your turn, baby!”
I know he is being lighthearted, but suddenly I feel vulnerable again. He must see the expression on my face because his smile fades. Leaning forward, he wraps my legs around his hips, and I lock my ankles as he kisses my lip tenderly.
“ I’m here, Luke .”
All the need I have for him wells up in my chest feeling like it might burst free.
“ I’ll make it all better,” he soothes.
Closing my eyes, I part my lips, and his tongue slips in to tangle with mine. I feel the enormity of every one of Evan’s kisses. He truly is giving me every part of himself with such a simple act. He breaches me slowly. I gasp and arch my back with the sensation of being penetrated by his thick cock.
“ That’s it, baby,” he says, pushing deeper.
Tears leak at the corner of my eyes as my mind grapples with my raw emotions and how much I need this man. The pain is always there. With the size of his cock, I don’t imagine it will ever not hurt the first few times he breaches me. He slides his fingers in my hair, stroking and petting me, while Rachel squeezes my hand and lazily glides her finger along the bend of my arm. Evan’s cock, lubricated by Rachel’s slick cum, stretches and fills me full. We’re twisted and entangled. It’s messy and complicated, and fucking beautiful.
Opening my eyes, I glance at her. There is so much love in her eyes, and awe in her expression as she watches Evan make love to me. Slowly I move my gaze to his handsome face. He looks like a broken man pretending to be strong, for me. Just for me. I lean my forehead to his, causing our breath to mix between us.
I want to beg him to make this feeling go away. It’s not the gallery turning me down. It’s this heavy weight I carry around constantly, this feeling that what the three of us have won’t last. His blue eyes lock with mine and as his stare intensifies, so do his thrusts. I welcome it. The harder the better.
“ More …” I rasp.
Maybe he’ll land so deep he can’t leave. Never want him to leave. Never want to be without him. I hate the distance. I hate that he needs to be here, and we need to be there.
“ Evan ?” I hold his face in my hands.
He lands hard, making my prostate ring with pleasure like a damn fire alarm.
“ What do you need, Luke ?” He pauses, allowing my body to settle and my mind to clear.
I grip him hard as I clench my jaw. Looking him dead in the eyes, I make my plea. “ Don’t . Leave . Me .”
His eyes fall closed with defeat or resignation. I’m not sure which. “ Never ,” he whispers against my lips. Then he kisses me. Kisses me like a long-lost lover.
Maybe that is what we are; lovers who keep losing one another over and over again. Because every time we part, I feel lost, a piece of me missing, a third of my heart.
I wonder if those three pieces will ever permanently fuse, so neither of us have to hurt any longer.
“ Hey ,” he whispers against my lips as his knuckles graze my jawline. “ Don’t pull away from me.”
“ I’m scared,” I admit like a fool. I’m supposed to be the strong one, the glue that holds the three of us together. I have no reason for being so emotional. We’ve done this before…but not like this, with him as the top and me as the bottom…not with her here.
His lips press softly to mine. “ Sometimes I am too.”
As weird as it sounds, as long as the three of us are disjointed, I feel safe. Whether it’s the two of them together without me or he and I without her, it’s never as fragile as when the three of us are together. Always feel like something is going to steal them away from me.
The rocking of his hips pulls me into a hypnotic state of pleasure. Evan is inside of me, connected to me. I slide my free hand up his chest and clench the pectoral muscle covering his heart while he fingers the pyramid pendant lying against my throat.
“ I love you,” I tell him with a rasp.
“ I’ve always belonged with you, Luke . Always .”
Then what took you so long , I want to ask.
Why can’t you come home with me?
Why can’t we live together forever?
Why can’t you help me shout out to the world how in love we are?
All these questions bounce around my mind until Evan takes my hand from his chest and entwines our fingers. He and Rachel both squeeze my hand at the same time. Evan’s weight shifts over me, so he is close and heavy. We watch one another, our eyes never shifting away. I hope he can see and sense how much I’m feeling right now. He nods as if to answer affirmatively, and I bear down on his cock in return.
He hisses and increases his speed. With one shift of his body, his cock begins stroking that point of pleasure deep inside of me. It throws my emotions for a loop as every nerve in my body alights with heated desire. A delicate hand wraps around my cock and squeezes. I grip her hand that is in mine harder. Evan and I are pressed too tightly together for her to stroke me, but she compensates by tugging and pinching the head of my cock.
“ Gonna come,” he tells me, looking me directly in the eyes. “ Make you mine.”
“ I’ve always been yours.” My eyes roll back as Rachel gives my cock a good stroke at the exact time that Evan’s cock pounds against my prostate. I yell out with a deep growl as my orgasm explodes causing my body to quake inside and out.
“ Fuuuck !” Evan hisses in my ear. He pounds into me hard one more time, stills, and fuck me, if I don’t feel his hot cum shooting through me.
Letting Rachel’s hand go, I wrap myself tightly around Evan’s body in an attempt to hold on and stay merged with him. It feels as if I’m being electrocuted with pleasure. Suddenly his hips start moving with a renewed vigor as he fucks me through both of our orgasms, growling out my name in my ear the entire time. The vibrations of his voice are just an additional sensation that has more cum gushing from my cock.
Evan owns my body.
Every time.
He collapses on top of me, and rolls our bodies to the side, still connected. I can feel his cum leaking out of me. Rachel’s warm body snuggles up against me from behind.
“ I love you both so much,” she whispers against my skin before planting soft kisses along my spine.
Evan is still watching me with so much intensity, I may go up in flames. He glances at my lips before kissing me tenderly, and I wonder if this is as wonderfully painful for him as it is for me.
“ I love you, Luke ,” he whispers against my lips.
I close my eyes and let his words wash over me as their bodies lull me away to Heaven .