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Love Rose x
You know when you think of a date, you think of a meal or if you are being extra creative you think of a pretty garden with the nice sunset and a blanket on the ground and a lovely little picnic or something along those lines.
I mean that's what i have read about in stories and watched in the normal Rom-Com movies so obviously that's what I had pictured in my gullible little mind when Alpha Stone asked me out on a date.
So imagine my shock when we arrived in pack gym- yes the same one that both Carla and I had been cleaning every week for the past four weeks as punishment. And yes while there was no stale smell of sweat in the air or any equipment lying around that needed to be cleaned and put away, I couldn't help but be disappointed.
Surely going to the gym wasn't going to be our date?
Noticing my confusion Alpha Stone gestured to what looked like boxing gloves on the bench.
"Put those on." he ordered.
I hesitated for a few seconds, glancing between the gloves and the man standing in front of me.
I was quickly starting to think that I had just completely misheard the man. When he said 'date' he probably meant to say 'extra punishment.'
Noticing that Alpha Stone was starting to get annoyed i quickly jogged over to bench and slipped my hands into the gloves. Looking completely
ridiculous i held my gloved hands out in front of me, unsure of what to do next.
His eyes looked over me before calling me towards him.
I took gentle steps forward, making sure there was still enough space between us. Clearly the man wasn't impressed. He reached forward, grabbed me by the shoulders and pulled me towards him so that there was hardly a few centimeters between our chests.
I stopped breathing. Like honestly i forgot how to breathe.
His hands grabbed mine and tightened the straps of the gloves making them more secure.
"Okay." he said letting me go, I quickly took a step back, finally feeling like I could breathe again.
"Hit me."
Was he being serious?
"You want me to hit you?" i ask in complete bewilderment.
Alpha Stone nodded.
So I did.
I punched him so hard that I actually took him by surprise. I don't think he was expecting it but all the pent up anger inside of me erupted and before I knew it, I was pounding him with every fibre of my being.
This one for keeping me locked up in the basement. Punch.
This one for taking me away from my parents. Punch.
This one for humiliating my parents and making them submit. Punch.
This one for hurting Gemma. Punch.
This one for marking me. Punch. Punch.
After the first hit Alpha Stone regained his posture and he blocked my hits like he was swatting away flies. But it didn't matter because I was too engaged in punching my anger out. I actually surprised myself with my own strength.
By my sixth punch i was drained. My arms ached, my shoulders ached and my mouth ached from gritting my teeth together.
I felt all the energy leave my body and I was about to drop to the floor when Alpha Stone quickly grabbed me by my arms and gently lowered me to the ground.
He didn't say anything and neither did I.
We just sat there in silence, my body was still shaking from the adrenaline, however inside I felt utterly calm. It was the weirdest feeling ever.
I turned to Alpha Stone who was already watching me. His face completely expressionless.
I had never actually realised how angry I was with him. I just kept bottling these emotions away, unaware they were building up inside me.
I was pretty sure my hands hurt more than he did but I found myself apologising.
"I'm sorry," I whispered, turning to look at my gloves instead, "I don't know where that came from."
Surely this wasn't how the whole mate bond was supposed to work. I mean i had seen the bond between my parents and honestly they were so in love. My dad worshipped the ground my mum walked on and she did the same for my dad. You could just see how much they loved each other from the way they looked at each other.
But with Alpha Stone and I- for goodness sake i just beat the shit out of him (well not really, i mean i kind of beat the shit out of myself if I'm honest but still.)
Everytime we were together there was awkwardness and i didnt feel anything for him, perhaps physical attraction but love? Definitely not.
I was 100% sure Alpha Stone had made a mistake in marking me.
I was about to take off the gloves when Alpha Stone says nonchalantly "you're weak."
Oh my god! I feel the anger bubble up inside and I wonder whether I should go for round two.
"But you are angry." he states, his gaze still locked on me, exploring my face as if he was trying to figure out a puzzle.
Of course I'm bloody angry, i want to say but I bite my tongue and sit still.
"You are angry at me."
My eyes turn to Alpha Stone, not because of what he said but the way he said it, as if me being angry at him was the worst thing to happen to him.
His thick eyebrows were furrowed and his eyes dark.
"Why?" he finally asked when I don't say anything. He sounds alien, nothing like his normal powerful, dominating self. He sounds like a child.
And perhaps that's why I answer as honestly as I did. I told him about how scared I was the first night in the basement, how upset I was that my parents had to submit to him, about how I felt when I saw him hit Gemma, how I hated being alone in the room with nothing to do, feeling like a prisoner even though he had said I wasn't. I told him how I hated him for marking me without my consent and how I was sure that we weren't mates and how much I missed my family.
By the end I was in tears, despite trying my hardest not to cry and Alpha Stone sat like a statue listening to me. His eyes burning holes into me.
When I finished speaking there was silence in the room part from my small hiccups from crying.
"I didn't realise you felt like this."
I looked at him, my eyes blurry with tears.
If I wasn't so emotionally and physically drained i would have flinched when Alpha Stone raised his hands to my face and gently wiped away my tears, but I was so tired that I didn't move an inch. Instead I just cried some more at how gentle he was being.
"I never asked for you to be put in the basement. My men didn't know you were my mate. In fact, most of them still don't. They just treated you the same as they would other prisoners. Believe me, when i found out you were in the basement I was furious." I sniffled but didn't say anything as Alpha Stone continued to speak, his hands gently reached over and started to undo the straps of my boxing gloves.
"The moment i realised, i went down and took you up to the medical room. You were ice cold-," his voice cracked as he recalled the memory. He quickly pushed aside the thought and continued to speak, "Eve with werewolves it's completely different. When the wolf side takes over it's pretty much impossible to control. I had no idea what was happening when my wolf took over and when i gained control your parents were submitting to me."
"You threatened to kill me!" I exclaimed, "That's why my parents submitted."
Alpha Stone shook his head, "There is one thing that is certain regardless of who is control. There is no way we would ever hurt you or kill you. It's physically impossible for mates to kill each other. My wolf recognised how much your parents love you and he took advantage of it."
I knew he was just being sincere and trying his hardest to clear everything but all I wanted to punch him in the face again.
"What about Gemma?" I ask, the image of her body flying across the room still engraved in my memory.
Alpha Stone is speechless, he knows that nothing he could possibly say could make it alright but he tries and his words just send me over the edge.
"We are just possessive beings Eve. My wolf saw her as a threat. He thought that she was trying to keep you away from him and he just reacted."
"Urggh!" I groan jumping up to my feet. I had enough and wanted to leave, i didn't want to listen to anything more.
Alpha Stone moved faster than I did and he pulled me back down, practically onto his lap. I quickly shuffled away.
"Eve you have no idea how i feel. You simply cannot feel the bond the same way I do." Alpha Stone tried to explain but I just looked at him annoyed.
"My whole body feels like it's burning when I'm not with you. From the moment I saw you in the forest you have been on my mind every second. The moment I marked you my whole life is now revolved around you- protecting you, keeping you safe."
I sit dumbfounded by what he said.
"You say you are sure that we are not mates. You have no idea how much it hurts me to hear you say that, especially because you have no idea of how I feel."
This is the first and only time I had ever seen Alpha Stone speak so much or with such emotion. His face contorted with anger, sadness, worry and fear but more prominently frustration. He was beyond frustrated that I simply couldn't feel the same way he could.
What was I supposed to say? What could I possibly say to that?
Thankfully don't have to say anything because Jayden walks in completely oblivious to the tense situation and explains that Alpha Stone was needed somewhere else.
It's clear when Alpha Stone hesitates to move that he still has things to say to me but he doesn't and instead stands up and follows Jayden out not even bothering to look back, leaving me alone with a pair of sweaty boxing gloves and a million questions but no answers.
There is one thing however which was very clear, this has no doubt been the worst date ever!
What do you think?
Don't worry things will start to get better between them soon.