10. Ten
Ten
Jude
“ A ny plans for the week?”
Tae rubs my leg under the table, and I do my best not to jump. Now isn’t the time to be worrying about my body’s reactions to Tae. I should be focusing on the question my mom just asked. After everything that happened while we were camping, it’s hard to keep my focus on anything that isn’t Tae. “I don’t know,” I answer. “Probably just going to take it easy. I don’t have any plans for the next few days.”
Tae caresses my leg again, but the vibration of my phone nearly makes both of us jump. It’s probably just another friend sending me a happy birthday message, but the text notification reminds me of Tae’s conversation with Austin. I know he said he’d rather hang out with me than go dancing with Austin, but I still feel like I’m holding him back from something. I glance his way, and Tae meets my eyes with a smirk as he moves his hand to his own lap. Even without his hands on me for the rest of dinner, I’m having a hard time keeping my thoughts PG.
I know Tae said he wants to date me and be my boyfriend, but I’m out of my depth here. I know he wouldn’t push me when it comes to sex, but I’ve never done it with a guy. Everything we’ve done so far has been great, and I have no reason to think that sex will be any different, but that doesn’t stop me from being nervous.
I use my fork to move the last bits of my food around on my plate. I’ve lost my appetite. Besides, the waiter has just dropped off the check, so the meal is basically over. Probably a good thing since it means I won’t have to make small talk with my parents for much longer. Unfortunately, it also means that Tae will be leaving soon. We’ve put off the inevitable by having him join us for dinner, but we spent the last few days together. It’s going to seem odd if Tae doesn’t go home tonight. It doesn’t mean I’m looking forward to it.
We finish up in the restaurant before piling into the car. Tae is next to me, and, despite how he’s been touching me during dinner, he keeps his hands to himself in the car. Dad is talking about baseball, and Tae easily answers his questions, but he keeps his eyes on me. It feels like he’s undressing me in his mind. To distract myself, I pull out my phone to check the message I got at the restaurant. As I expected, it’s another message about my birthday. This time from my cousin.
Morgan
Happy Birthday.
I send back a thanks and turn my phone back in my pocket.
The car pulls to a stop in front of the house, but I’m still reeling, trying my best not to launch forward and kiss Tae. A slight smile graces his lips as he opens the door, and I follow him out. “Well, it was great seeing you, Tae,” my dad says, pulling Tae in for a hug. “I’m sure we’ll be seeing more of you over the summer. Did you need a ride home?”
“Jude can drive me.” Tae volunteers me with a slap on my back.
I force a smile, wondering how long we can keep this up. “Yeah. Tae still has stuff in my car from the camping trip, anyway.”
“Right, but first I should probably grab my things from your room.” Tae grabs my wrist, pulling me into the house and down the hall. The moment the door closes behind us, he pushes me to the wall and claims my lips with a kiss. “I gotta go home tonight, but I didn’t want to leave without another kiss. I’ll see you this weekend?”
“You should go out with Austin,” I blurt out. Tae looks at me while slowly, raising one eyebrow in question. “I mean dancing. If you want to go, you should.”
“Only if you go with us.” Tae takes my hand in his. “I meant it, Jude. I’d rather spend time with you than go dance in a club with Austin. But if you insist I go, I’m only going if you go too.” He steps back, giving me space as he grabs his bag off my bed. “I know it’s not your thing, but it could be fun. Think about it. Let me know. In the meantime, we should get going before I drag you to bed.”
Tae’s playful threat hits me with a spark of lust. Part of me wants to take him up on the offer, but it’s probably best we don’t. From the smirk on Tae’s face, he knows that, too. “Come on,” I tell him. He chuckles under his breath, but Tae follows me out to my car. It’s a short drive to his house, but Tae hesitates when I park the car.
He undoes his seat belt and turns to me. Tae moves his hand to my face, stroking his thumb over my cheek. “It doesn’t have to be dancing at the club, but I wanna see you again soon. Text me.” He leans in but doesn’t kiss me, keeping his lips right in front of mine.
I close the distance with a quick peck. “I’ll think about going.” I want to kiss Tae longer, but I also don’t want his mom to catch us. We say our goodbyes, and he disappears into his house, leaving me to drive back to my parents’ place. I toss myself onto the bed in my room and let out a long sigh. It’s been a long few days, yet it’s almost hard to believe it’s only been a few days. So much has changed, yet it feels the same as always. Tae has always been my best friend, and this feels almost normal for us. Just another factor of our friendship.
I should be exhausted right now, but my dick is half-hard thinking of everything that happened with Tae. I meant it when I told him I’m not attracted to other guys. I’ve never thought much about it, but I’m not huge on sex in general. Sure, I’ve had girlfriends, but I’ve never been the one to push for sex. I can take it or leave it. Which doesn’t add up when it comes to Tae. I want more. Maybe part of it is because I already know him as well as I do. This doesn’t feel entirely new.
My hole clenches as I think about what he did in the tent. Okay, maybe some parts are new. Before Tae, I never thought something going in my ass would turn me on. I move my hand down and undo my jeans, kicking them off so I’m lying on my back in just my boxers and button-down shirt. Thinking about Tae’s tongue inside me has only made my erection harder. Guess I’ll have to take care of this.
I grab a bottle of lube from the bedside drawer, slicking up my hand before I pull out my cock. A few strokes are enough to work myself up to full hardness, but it doesn’t stop me from thinking about something else. I kick my boxers off and think about it for a moment before I bend my knees to get better access. It’s an odd feeling having my fingers at my own hole, but it doesn’t feel too bad as I slide the first one in. Not quite as hot as feeling Tae’s finger in me, but it doesn’t hurt, and the lube helps. It takes a few thrusts for the motion to feel good. I know I have it right when I hit that spot Tae did. My balls draw up as I finger fuck myself. Grabbing my dick with my other hand, it only takes a few strokes to get off.
I might be new to this, but after that mind blowing orgasm, I can definitely say I’m looking forward to more with Tae.