Chapter 1
Chapter 1
Tucker
“ Y ou’ve got it bad, man.”
I narrowed my eyes and cut a withering glare at Felix. “Don’t know what you’re talking about.” I went back to measuring out the length of wood I was about to cut, but my gaze kept snapping back up to her .
“Bullshit,” Felix said with amusement in his voice. “If he sees you eye-fucking her, he’ll tackle you to the ground and make you submit.”
I growled but didn’t answer.
“You think the Alpha is gonna like you checking out his only daughter?”
I clenched my teeth and grappled with my control. No, the Alpha of our pack wouldn’t like me checking out his barely legal daughter, but then again, the Alpha also didn’t know she was my mate.
“You think Aidan would like his Beta sniffing around his little girl?—”
“Mia is a grown fucking female,” I snarled.
Felix chuckled but held his hands up in surrender. “No disrespect, Tucker. And I'm not trying to start a fight with you. But you know what I mean. She’s what? Nineteen? And just turned that? Just came of age and maturity. You’re old enough to be her father. Not to mention the Alpha will have your balls cut off before you can even get close enough to see if she’s interested in you.”
Yeah, Aiden probably would try to have my balls cut off if he knew the things I thought about where Mia was concerned. But even if Aidan was the Alpha, I was younger and stronger, and I had something helping me become more powerful that he didn’t.
A mate.
And as much as I felt guilt for thinking that, since the only reason he didn’t have a mate was because she died giving birth to Mia, it was a fact that having your fated female by your side meant you were stronger than those who were alone.
It was just our nature.
I tried like hell to focus on my work, but knowing my mate was so close, the incessant drive to take her away and mate her—further making our fated connection permanent—rode me so hard my hands shook.
I forced myself to work on the slab of wood, measuring it out, getting the exact dimensions before I cut it. I tried thinking about the task at hand, how the pack was currently building a longhouse for our little shifter community.
The Black Wolf Pack had currently acquired another hundred acres of thickly forested land in the Black Hill Mountains of Colorado. Our pack may’ve been small compared to other shifter groups in the country, but we were known for our strength, were territorial as hell, and were content to live our lives hidden deep in the woods and away from prying eyes.
But because of that seclusion, it made finding our fated mates all the harder. When you’re only surrounded by your own people, the chances of finding your female was cut down drastically. I knew some males in the pack had never found their mates, and because they couldn’t have offspring with anyone other than their fated females, they now lived isolated and lonely lives. I could see that dark loneliness in their gazes while they lived as if they weren’t missing the most integral part of what made them up.
Although we could never produce children with anyone but our mates, I heard of some of the older males taking a companion, someone who they could still share their lives with in a purely platonic way. These companions had also never found their mates, so they were strictly friends. The best of friends who they could talk to, connect with on some level.
I hated that fucking idea.
I’d much rather wither and die alone than share my life with anyone who wasn’t my female.
And I’d come to the conclusion that my life would probably end up like that. I assumed I’d never find my female, not unless I traveled outside the pack. But being the Beta meant I stayed where the Alpha did, and Aidan was content in Black Wolf territory.
So this was where I stayed as well.
But then Mia came of age, and I felt our connection. And I'd never been happier that I stayed, because the reason I even existed was here.
I glanced across the center of the village at the cabin we used to discuss and plan new structures for the community. I couldn’t see Mia, but I knew she was in there with Aidan. I’d seen them head in there just a few minutes before, and since then, I’d been unable to focus. Who the fuck was I kidding? I hadn’t been able to focus from the moment I found out she was my mate, since I felt that electric pull, that awakening that she was mine.
“How many tables are we making again?” Felix asked, and I forced myself to look away.
“Six,” I said automatically. “This is the last one.” I hefted the large slab of wood and took it over to the saw. After it was cut, I handed it off to Felix. He’d engrave the wolf depictions of our kind and ancestors before handing it off to Sean and Stein, who’d smooth and gloss everything out. Then after that, it would be passed to Milo, who’d take it to the assembly line, where they’d make it the actual table in the longhouse.
We’d finally decided to create a general gathering place big enough to house all of the pack once the winter season had broken and spring was upon us. We’d been working all year on this project and were nearly done just as summer was starting to shift to fall.
The Black Wolf community was made up of hundreds of acres of wooded land with cabins scattered through the property. We had a main “village center” where we would have the longhouse for gatherings, matings, celebrations, and anything else where the pack could congregate together. We also had trading stalls where pack members created things to trade, sell, and barter with others in the pack. Tapestries, wooden figurines, garden-grown fruits and vegetables, and hand-carved furniture.
We were a self-sustaining community for the most part, and I'd also been content with that—until I wasn’t. Until I yearned for my mate and thought the only way I'd ever find her was to leave.
“Hey, Felix,” I said once it was just the two of us in the woodworking shed.
He glanced over his shoulder before turning and facing me, a rag in his hands as he cleaned them off.
“Have you ever thought about leaving?”
His dark brows pulled low. “What do you mean? Like for a trip?”
I shook my head. “Like to find your mate.”
His body tensed. I saw the muscles contract at my question. He glanced down, staring at his hands as he ran the red rag over them. “This is my home. The pack is my life.” He glanced up at me. “The pack is our home, Tucker.”
I nodded. It was now, but it hadn't felt that way before Mia had become my mate. I didn't tell him that, but the look in his eyes told me Felix already knew. Why wouldn't he? We didn’t become interested in the opposite sex for the hell of it. And me watching Mia as intently as I had been for a while now was obvious as hell.
We were silent for a long moment, Felix watching me intently.
“When did you find out?” he asked slowly.
Now it was my turn to look away. I ran a hand over my jaw, the scruff underneath scratching along my palm. I stared out the large window at the cabin, needing to see Mia again like I needed to breathe.
“The moment she turned nineteen.”
Felix was so silent that I glanced at him again. I stared at the male I’d known my whole life. We’d been close as hell as pups, more like brothers than friends. Despite Felix—and every other male in the pack for that matter—being a big fucker, he had an easygoing personality. He let shit roll off his back, never took anything seriously, and was always smiling. But how did he not feel that bone-deep need to find his female?
Or did he, but he just hid it better than most?
I ran a hand over the back of my neck and shrugged. “It doesn't matter how he’ll react. He can’t change the truth. She’s mine.” I said those last two words with a growl in my voice. My wolf was very pleased by this fact, knowing Mia was ours.
“Yeah, I know. And he’ll know, but he won’t make it easy.”
No, I didn't suspect he would.
“He’s protective of Mia,” Felix said seriously, softly. “Ever since she was born and Fawn passed away.”
A long moment of silence passed as that memory consumed the space between us. When Aidan found his mate in a fellow Black Wolf pack member, it had been a huge celebration. As Aidan was the son of the Alpha, his future had already been carved out. He couldn’t have left to find his mate even if he wanted, not with the obligations and responsibilities he’d inherit. So it was pure luck, maybe fate, that he found his female within the same pack.
They’d been so happy together. Inseparable.
And then she’d gotten pregnant, and there had been more celebrating.
But when Fawn died after giving birth, and for a very long time, Aidan had been broken. The only reason he hadn’t followed his mate in death was because he had a little girl who needed him. So to say he was protective of Mia was a big fucking understatement.
But there was no one who would protect Mia, who would put her above all else, like I would. Her mate. I was born to worship her, to keep her safe and make sure she was happy. And I’d ensure Aidan knew that.
I may have a big fight on my hands where he was concerned, but he couldn’t deny or keep me from her. A fated mate was sacred and held above all others.
“If he wants a war, I’ll deliver.” I stared at Felix. “I won’t give her up, not even if it means going against the Alpha.”