26. Hope
26
HOPE
B eing completely bare to Levi should make me feel incredibly vulnerable, but with the way he’s looking at me, I couldn’t feel sexier. The lust in his eyes makes me squirm on the bed, needing him to touch me, be with me. “You’re a little overdressed for this party.” I grin at him.
He shakes his head as if he’s coming out of a stupor and grins back at me. “Sorry, I got distracted.”
I laugh, happy the intensity from a moment ago has lightened again. It feels like we’re back to our normal selves instead of trying to navigate the bomb of my confession. I didn’t want to tell him about my awful experiences with sex, but I knew it wouldn’t be fair to him if I wasn’t honest. There’s a chance I could end up having a panic attack, so I wanted him to know why in case it happens.
I sit up to help him get rid of his clothes, grabbing the hem of his black T-shirt. He grabs it from the back of his neck and slides it over his head.
When he settles his arms back down at his sides, all I can do is blink at him. He has muscles on top of muscles. I didn’t even know guys could look like this in real life.
With a mind of its own, my hand reaches out to touch his abs. He flinches at my touch but stays still, letting me explore. He’s as hard as a statue and just as sculpted as one. “Seriously? This is what you look like?” My question comes out almost incredulously.
Levi laughs, then starts to undo his pants.
I bite my lip as he slides his jeans down, revealing gray briefs that are molded to his thick thighs, highlighting his impressively hard package. “Jesus,” I whisper, swallowing hard.
“Lay back, I’m not done exploring you yet.”
I comply with his demand, needing his body against mine with every fiber of my being. He follows me back, pressing his bare chest against mine. His hard muscles against my soft body are almost my undoing. He kisses me, starting his explorations over again while his hands slide over my skin. The rough calluses on his palm bring goose bumps to the surface.
The slow, sensual movements of our bodies together have my senses going into a frenzy. I’ve only ever experienced fast and aggressive. To have someone who genuinely cares about me taking the time to explore every facet of my body, learning what makes me burn… It’s indescribable.
“Levi, I need more,” I finally squeak out. He’s setting every nerve ending on fire with his hands and mouth. They’re everywhere on my body except the one place I’m desperate for. I think I might explode if he doesn’t move to the spot he hasn’t touched yet.
“I’m still learning your body, but I’m willing to move a little quicker.” He slides further down my body, using his shoulders to widen my legs. His lips press against my inner thigh, right above my knee, then slowly glide their way to my center.
The closer he gets, the more I moan in both pleasure and frustration. My hips undulate, trying to relieve the ache spreading into my stomach. Levi’s tongue slides up my sex, and I levitate off the bed. He has to grab my hips so I stay still enough for him to continue. Never in my life have I ever felt something as decadent as Levi’s tongue.
My hands fist into his hair to help keep me anchored. I feel like I’m floating off the bed in ecstasy while something major is building in my core. Something I’m afraid to let go of because I’m pretty sure the fall is going to kill me in the end.
Two of Levi’s fingers slide inside me, sending me into a desperate frenzy. I call out to him, not quite sure what I need. It’s all too much and not enough.
“Let go, sweetheart. I’ll always be here to catch you.”
With those whispered words of safety, I detonate.
My entire body tenses at the onslaught of feelings taking me so far from here, I don’t know how I’ll find my way back.
When I finally begin to come down, I realize it’s with the help of Levi, gently bringing me back to him with slow licks and smooth slides of his fingers like he promised. He wipes his mouth on my inner thigh, a beaming smile shining at me.
“That was fucking amazing to watch.”
If I wasn’t already flushed with arousal, my entire body would be blushing at his words. He leans up on his knees, sliding his boxers down his thighs to reveal his gigantic shaft.
“Holy shit.” I continue staring at him as he wraps his fist around his impressive and overwhelming girth. “You’re not real. No one is supposed to look like you.”
Levi guffaws at my words. “I am real and so fucking in awe of you, Hope.” He grabs a condom from his pants on the floor, slides it on, then settles himself back between my legs. Kissing from my neck up to my jaw, he nips at my ear. My hips lift at the sensation, connecting my center with his hard length. We both groan at the feeling of him sliding through my wetness.
I didn’t think I could be aroused so quickly after the first orgasm, but with one move, Levi has me on edge again. He leans onto one elbow while his other hand starts to play with my breast. Pinching, pulling, sending bolts of pleasure straight to my clit. It’s sensory overload with his lips and teeth nipping at the skin on my neck and collarbone.
“Levi, please,” I moan out. I can feel his smile against my skin.
“Just making sure you’re ready for me.”
“I’m past ready for you.” My words are desperate, wanton, so far from how I normally sound it’s hard to remember the small, timid girl I used to be. He takes pity on me, adjusting his hips so he’s lined up with my entrance. I can feel the pressure there already, and I tense up, nerves shooting through me faster than lightning.
“Sweetheart, look at me,” Levi whispers. I didn’t even realize my eyes had closed until he said something. When I meet his gaze, the look on his face makes my eyes well. The genuine affection there is almost too much to handle. “It’s just you and me in this room,” he says, running his thumb down my face. “God, I’m falling so hard for you.”
“I’m falling just as hard, Levi.”
Gently, he leans down to kiss me while simultaneously pushing through my tight muscles. The pressure is still there, but with his lips on mine, it feels like a decadent slide. He starts to pull back out, only to push back in, moving farther into me than before.
The sensation has me gasping, which allows him to push all the way to the hilt. We both moan at the tight fit. It’s like nothing I’ve ever felt before. I never knew sex could feel like this.
“I need you to move, Levi. Please. ”
He gives in to my plea, pulling out, then gently pressing back in, hitting a spot so deep inside me, I’ll feel it tomorrow. My fingers dig into his back, desperate for him to get as close as possible. His hips start to move faster, building us both up higher than we went before .
He straightens, continuing to pulse in and out as he grabs the back of my thighs, pushing them towards my chest. This is the most vulnerable position I’ve ever been in, but he’s hitting so deep inside me, I don’t have the capacity to notice. With his muscles straining, he looks so powerful over me, heightening the entire experience.
Before I’m even aware it’s happening, my orgasm hits me like a freight train. It barrels through my entire body, from my toes to my head. I clamp down hard around Levi, every muscle tightening as my body explodes. His hips start moving fast, slamming into me, prolonging my orgasm, while his dick jerks and spasms as he comes. It’s a heady sight to watch this man succumb to his needs.
Levi drops my legs, falling down on top of me as our chests heave, trying to get more air into our lungs. His weight feels incredible as if he’s holding me to the ground after I was soaring too high from him.
“I know I should be a gentleman and stop crushing you, but you feel so good under me.”
I breathe out a laugh, running my fingers through his sweaty hair. “I like the way you feel on top of me. I’m not ready for you to move yet.”
Levi nuzzles my neck, pressing his lips against my skin. He lifts his head to look me in the eyes. “That was incredible. Fucking fantastic.”
I beam at him, returning his happy smile. “Yeah, it was. Nothing has ever felt as good as that.” Levi’s smile grows cockier, which makes me laugh. “Okay, muscle man, get off me before I run out of air.”
He jumps off the bed and saunters into the bathroom, comfortable in his nakedness. He’s magnificent in so many ways, but tonight, he’s shown me how a man is supposed to treat a woman. He’s proven there are truly good men in the world. No matter what happens in the end, I’ll be forever grateful to him for giving me that.