Chapter 13
Palmer
That expression...
He had a fascinating need to be the best and I was going to have to make sure there were limits on that one.
I’d never met a sub like Ferris but his need to do things well was something I was going to have to keep an eye on.
Thankfully, he got a stubborn gleam in his eyes every time we’d run into it, so it hadn’t been hard to spot yet.
But as we drove back to my place with him following me carefully, I couldn’t decide if I needed to address anything before we had the rest of our date. I wasn’t sure there was any way I was going to be able to explain it was fine if he was only a halfway decent little cocksucker.
“I get to have the most fascinating conversations with you.” Smiling into the rearview mirror, I watched Ferris sitting straight in his car, hands probably on ten and two as he kept me in sight. “And have the most interesting mental debates.”
Having a sub who kept me on my toes had never been something I thought of when looking for a partner, but I’d clearly missed out on how important that aspect was.
“Okay.” Taking a breath, I shifted my focus forward as the light changed.
“I know he’s got kissing my penis on the top of his to-do list. I know nothing about that seems to scare him and he’s done enough research to be comfortable with the idea.
He’s also done enough research to question my feelings on gagging. ”
He was new to exploring cocks but my boy seemed like he was aiming to be a Grade A cocksucker.
“There is no reason to try to talk him out of enjoying my erection unless it gets to an unhealthy level.” It’d probably be a good reward in the long run if I was reading the situation right. “I should be able to tell if we move from special interest to something unhealthy.”
By the time we pulled into my driveway, I had everything planned out and felt like I was in the right headspace.
My boy on the other hand bounded out of his car like he was escaping zombies and I could almost see the excitement racing through him.
“Is there anything I need to know about being in your house? People always say no and then expect you to read their minds about the customs they grew up with.”
He wasn’t wrong about that but I hadn’t looked at it that way.
“Does taking your shoes off make you feel uncomfortable in any way? Half-dressed or do you end up noticing your feet too much and it’s distracting? Anything like that.” I thought I’d covered the bases but I wasn’t sure.
Ferris frowned and looked down at his feet. “I don’t really think of them like that.”
Well, it was good that he wasn’t hyperaware of them, but it made me wonder if he was ever aware of his body.
“I don’t like feeling other people’s floors with my bare feet.” Still studying them, he had the cutest look of concentration as he did his best to answer my question. “I don’t think walking around barefoot on your bedroom carpet will be an issue this time, though.”
That wasn’t going to be difficult to deal with.
“Then we’ll pick out slippers for you for next time you come over and I’ll show you where I keep my socks so you can pick out those as necessary.
” I waited to see if somehow that was too personal, but he simply nodded as he shifted his focus back to me.
“I generally don’t wear shoes in the house but that’s because I don’t like the way they feel.
To me, relaxing means no shoes but I do end up wearing socks most of the time. ”
I was going to have to think about why.
“Thank you for explaining that to me.” Ferris straightened and a quick frown flashed across his face before he glanced around. “I was going to kiss your cheek but I don’t know how you feel about that.”
I felt that I was big enough anyone with an opinion could kiss my ass.
“I don’t mind public displays of affection like that.” My response got a smile from him and the cheek kiss he’d dangled in front of me. “Thank you.”
I wanted more, though, so I took his hand and led him to the front door. “I want you to let me know if you think of anything else you’d like to have over here to make you comfortable.”
Ferris didn’t seem to be the comfort object type, but he was the type to have specific things that made him relaxed. I wasn’t sure if it was going to be drinks or foods or scents, but I wanted to make sure he had whatever it was he needed to feel like this was home.
“I’ll think about that.” He was back to looking adorably serious as I let us in the house and locked it behind us, but I wasn’t getting worry-vibes from him. “I haven’t spent an extended amount of time at anyone else’s house, so I’m not sure what might fit in that category.”
That did not surprise me.
“We’ll address them as they come up, then.” Kissing his head, I toed off my shoes and watched him bend over to carefully take off his shoes. It gave me a peek into his personality and a nice look at his ass, which I wasn’t subtle about appreciating.
It took him a few seconds to notice, though, but he smiled when he turned his head and saw where my gaze was focused. “You like this position.”
“I do.” And since we seemed to be moving in a more intimate direction for our date, I didn’t downplay it. “How would you feel if I ran my hands over it?”
“Fine.” Ferris wasn’t frowning but he didn’t seem to understand the draw of his ass. “I know it’s a part of my body that you enjoy.”
“I really do.” Having permission and his attention so I didn’t startle him, I slowly reached out and ran my hand over the fullest part of his ass. “It’s a beautiful part of your body.”
And one I really hoped he’d enjoy me kissing and giving more attention.
Slowly caressing him had a shiver racing through him, but he didn’t seem to notice it. Ferris didn’t seem to notice the way his body reacted to most things, but he was learning to based on the way he frowned and wiggled. “I think I like that.”
“I’m glad.” I was also glad when he finally straightened and stepped closer to me. “I’ve been looking forward to having you naked on my lap so I can run my hands over you.”
“We would both enjoy that.” We both knew we’d enjoy it in different ways, but he didn’t seem to mind that. “You avoided rubbing my ass last time. Are you comfortable doing it this time?”
“Yes.” Did that need more of an explanation?
“I wanted to give you more time to think about how being touched felt before I explored that part of your body too much. Your first thought about my touching it was neutral which was helpful to know, but sometimes it takes a while for other thoughts to surface.”
Going still, he slowly nodded. “The first time I tried sushi I thought it fell under the neutral bordering on negative side of things, but the next time I tried it I decided it was just negative.”
Perfect.
“If anything turns out to be like sushi, we re-evaluate.” Nothing was saying he’d changed his mind, though. “But for the time being we’re going with the plan of you being neutral to positive in some way about being touched there.”
“And you’re going to be positive to aroused by touching it.” His tone made it sound like he was completely fine with me finding his elbows attractive. “I find cuddling with you to be a pleasant experience, though, so I don’t think that is going to change.”
“But you’ll let me know if it does.” Giving him a quick peck, I took his hand. “Let’s go spread out on the bed so you’ve got room to enjoy kissing my cock.”
Standing straighter as we started to walk through the house, I could see that spark come back to his eyes. “There are a few ways I can position myself...stretching out between your legs...kneeling...options like that. Do you have a preference?”
“A preference in position? No. But I would like to have you naked so I can enjoy looking at your body and touching you while you play with me as long as that doesn’t frustrate you.
” When he blinked curiously, I knew I had to explain.
“Some people need to focus on one task at a time to stay in a positive headspace. I wasn’t sure if my say.
..running my hands over your ass if you were kneeling beside me would be distracting. ”
“Oh.” His brows pulled together as he thought about the question had me wanting to kiss him again, but I kept my lips to myself as he thought and we headed upstairs.
The house was a nice size with three bedrooms upstairs and one I used as an office downstairs, but Ferris didn’t seem to notice it as I took him into the master bedroom.
I thought it was more about him thoroughly considering the question rather than just not caring about the house, but we’d come back to that later.
“I don’t know.” Something about the way he glanced over at me and quickly looked away said he was leaving out important details.
That wasn’t going to work, so I detoured us right over to a large chair in the corner and sat down, pulling him onto my lap. “This is going to be our conversation chair. It’s neutral. It’s not a punishment or a reward. It’s simply a space used just for us to communicate clearly about a topic.”
His sigh and dejected slump were adorable but I managed to keep a straight face. “I wasn’t rude.”
“You’re right.” Kissing his head, I did my best to show him a neutral expression so he wouldn’t get confused about how I felt. “You were polite.”
Because...
“Because you didn’t want to bring up the past since I might find that inappropriate.” I knew I was right when he went still. “I can understand why people you’ve dated in the past would’ve made that a limit, but it’s not one of mine.”
Slowly relaxing into me, I could almost hear his brain whirling as he processed the information. “As my Dom, you need to understand the details others might not want to hear.”
Just nodding had him letting out a deep breath. “Learning a new set of rules is difficult.”
Understandable.