Chapter 5 Finn
FINN
Jim’s hands were so strong and powerful. The way he took me in his arms and held me as his tongue slid into my mouth made my knees weak.
The way he held me by the back of the head when I gave him a blow job. The way he grasped me when he fucked me made my head spin. It made me feel like flying. I made me feel like I was jumping out of a plane without a parachute.
He was so manly, and he was mine.
How did an aging twink dancer like me get so lucky to meet a man like Jim James? Still a name that made me giggle. But he was so much more than a name. He was everything.
I gave my first performance, and he took me home, and by the end, I wanted to give him a standing ovation. He did the same thing on Friday and Saturday night. It was like he was in a hurry to get home and rip my clothes off.
I reveled in it. I could never get enough of him. He filled me as he fulfilled me over and over again.
I would like to say that I got better with every show.
I guess I did, but the truth was I couldn’t wait for the show to end and for Jim to grab me and kiss me before racing me to the car.
I couldn’t wait before he carried me up to the house and threw me down on the bed.
I couldn‘t wait until he took off his clothes and I could stare at the beauty of his hard body before my hands roamed all over it.
“What are you thinking?” Jim sat down beside me and put his arm around me. I put my head on his shoulder.
“I’m thinking that I can’t wait for the show to be over. I’m really liking the pattern you started.”
“You’re just sexy as hell. I think watching people applaud for you really turns me on. Honestly, everything about you turns me on. I’m not sure that I can stay in this work environment. Having a hard-on so often cannot be good for me physically.”
“I actually think you might have a new kink. I’m gonna have to start dressing as an old man more often.”
“It’s that nightgown. It really gets me going,” he purred. He reached up and stroked my hair. “I just want this show to be over.”
“Me too. Same reasons?”
“My dick, your mouth, your ass… Oh, I’ve been horny since the moment we walked into the theatre.”
“Jesus… Let’s start the show before the audience or the rest of the cast gets here.” I laughed happily.
I was happy.
How did this happen?
“I want to fuck you so hard that you…”
“And the kids are here!” Buffy yelled loudly.
I blushed. “Did they…”
“No. I shut the door. But the vibes are very, very strong. Tone it down just a bit, please.”
Jim laughed loudly as he slowly pulled his arm away from me. “I guess that’s my cue. Places in an hour. I’ll see you after the show.”
“I’ll be waiting. I could skip the I enjoyed it line if you want?”
“And disappoint your fans. I’d never let you do that. Besides, good things come to good boys who wait.”
“God, you’re going to be the death of me.”
He grinned, and my heart skipped a beat.
“See you in about three hours. I’m gonna hide away in my booth and try not to get too excited.”
“If I could get wet… I’d be dripping.”
“Wow!” He smirked. “Maybe too far. Good things come to those who wait.” He turned and disappeared into his booth. The lights were out, so I couldn’t see him through the glass.
I got up and went into the dressing rooms to start getting ready. It took a little time to age myself with way too much makeup.
We all got ready, and the kids were excited that this was the last show. As usual, when it was over, they’d be sad and crying as we all said goodbye. This was a tight-knit community, and they knew they’d be back on stage sometime soon.
We got ready. Jim gave his speech, and the curtain opened.
I think it was the best performance that any of us had given so far. The audience applauded and laughed and gasped in all the right places. We had finally found our stride at the very last performance, like most community shows.
We bowed, and the audience roared. Finally, the curtain closed, and I had to console poor Tiny Tim before we all went out to greet the audience.
I couldn’t wait for the last of the crowd to disperse, so I could get out of costume.
Buffy would take care of the rest of the cast, deal with their costumes, and say goodbye.
I had something I couldn’t wait any longer for.
I walked out of the dressing room to find Jim standing in the middle of the stage.
“Are you ready? I hurried as fast as I could.”
“I think you have to wait just a little bit longer, if you don’t mind.” He smirked, and my knees shook.
“What’s going on?”
“I finally think that I figured out what I wanted to give you for Christmas.” He smiled and stepped towards me. “I mean, you’ll still have some gifts under the tree, but… This is your main gift. I can’t wait.”
He held out a small box, and I gasped. I mean… shit. Was he about to… No! I knew him better than that, and I also knew that we were heading in that direction, but Jim didn’t move this fast. But the box was… It was definitely the right size.
Was I ready? I wanted to be, but… I wasn’t ready right now. Not for a ring.
He stepped forward and handed it to me.
“I’m not getting down on my knees. I see the…
uh… size of the box and… the look on your face.
It’s not quite horror, but… It’s definitely not a look of…
It’s not time for that yet. We both know it.
But we also know that's where we’ll be. I want my life to be with you, Finn. We’ll say I do soon enough.”
“I want mine to be with you, too.”
“Open the box.”
I took it from his hand and slowly opened it. A key with a small red ribbon tied around it sat within it.
“You already have a key, I know. But this key is a permanent key if you get my drift. Will you move in with me, Finn? I want to wake up every morning beside you and go to bed with you in my arms every night. I mean, we practically do, but my closet misses the rest of your clothes, and my drawers need you to fill them. I think my walls want some of your art.”
“Are you sure?” I could feel the tears starting to fall.
“I’ve never been so sure of anything in my life. My house has room to become your house, too. My life has plenty of space, and you’re the only person who can fill it.”
“Yes,” I whispered. I stood there unable to say anything else. If I tried to speak, I would burst into tears.
He took me in his arms, and I sighed against his chest. “Buffy was wrong. You give the best gifts in the world.”
“I think our life just began.”
“It did the moment I met you.”
When Jim kisses me, I lose myself.
I lost myself for the rest of the day.
THE END