Chapter 12
TWELVE
Nicky
He left. He actually fucking left.
I was tempted to stay put and not go after him because I knew that once Noah got something in his head, he would refuse to change his mind.
But he had to. He had to change his mind about us.
I thought what we were doing was fun and that it was all he wanted, but clearly I was wrong.
I was so fucking stupid. Of course he wanted more.
He wanted something that I wasn’t sure if I could ever give him, but I had to try.
I needed him in my life. There was no way I could go on where we were just friends or where he fell in love with someone else.
Fuck. He was in love with me. It made sense.
I was stupid. Stupid, stupid, stupid.
My feet suddenly took me forward. It was like I was having an out-of-body experience as I rushed to the door and threw it open.
Noah was walking down the hall toward the elevators.
“Noah,” I yelled.
He stiffened, stopping in his tracks. “Let me go, Nicky. You clearly don’t want more out of this, so just…let me go.”
Fuck that. I rushed down the hall stopping a foot away from him. My body was vibrating, my hands tingling with the need to touch him.
“I don’t know what I’m doing,” I blurted. “I’ve never been in a relationship before. With my job and traveling, I don’t have time for it. It’s why I call you whenever I’m in town. I need you. I need you to need me as well. I can’t handle the thought of you being with someone else.”
“You let me think you were still fucking other people.” He lifted his hand when I went to speak.
“Yes, I know that in the beginning we agreed that we could fuck whoever we want. But you still should have told me that you stopped. You should have told me that it’s just been me for however long you stopped fucking others. ”
“I’ve never fucked anyone while you and I have been fucking,” I confessed.
His eyes widened. “What the fuck, Nicky?” He stomped toward me, closing that final space between us and shoved me. “Why the hell wouldn’t you tell me that from the beginning? Why would you let me believe that you’ve been with others at the same time you were with me? Tell me, dammit.”
“Because I wanted you jealous,” I blurted, wincing at my fuck up.
Before I knew what was happening, his fist landed against my jaw.
I stumbled back a step, not expecting him to hit me. Rubbing my jaw, I moved it back and forth, making sure nothing was broken. A slight twinge of pain erupted through the bone, but nothing was out of place. I was impressed though. Noah packed quite the punch.
“Hit me again, Noah,” I told him, my voice coming out rough. “I fucking dare you.”
His cheeks turned red, his jaw clenching. When he pulled his arm back, ready to swing at me again, I charged for him.
His eyes widened, momentarily surprised.
Grabbing the collar of his shirt, I slammed him up against the wall and forced my mouth on his.
He jumped, his teeth nipping at my bottom lip.
Gripping the back of his head, I deepened the kiss, trying to show him with a mere kiss how much he fucking meant to me. I didn’t want this to end but I didn’t know how to tell him that because I wasn’t sure if I was ready for more than just sex.
Noah growled, shoved his fingers through the hair at the back of my head, and pulled.
My scalp burned from the rough pull, but it only made my dick twitch and lengthen even more.
I needed to get him back in bed.
With our hands roaming, we stumbled back down the hall toward my hotel room. I fumbled for the key card and unlocked the door. Once I had it open, I broke the kiss and shoved Noah into the room.
He grinned, running his fingers over his swollen mouth.
Leaning my head from side to side, I shivered at the crack that rippled down my spine. I gave myself a final shake, looking him square in the eye. “Run. Now.”
Noah’s nostrils flared, his tongue peeking out to lick along his bottom lip. He took a breath, spun on his heel, and ran to the bedroom.
I rushed after him, catching up to him in a matter of seconds.
No words slid between us as I had him back in my arms.
Much to my own surprise, he spun us around and shoved me face first onto the mattress. My eyes widened, my body burning at the strength that had come from him.
Noah knelt between my legs, towering over me. His hot breath fanned my ear while his hands roamed down my sides. “I’m going to fuck you, Nicky.”
My cock leaked at the thought. Before I could even begin to process what he was about to do, he had my jeans undone and down my ass. The fabric sat just below my rear.
Noah knelt on either side of my legs, making it so I couldn’t spread them.
He licked up the shell of my ear, the sound of a zipper lowering a second later making me groan.
He chuckled, the sound dark and sinister. “We’ve never done this but I’m going to have so much fun making you squeal.”
“Geezus,” I said, nearly breathless.
With his weight on top of me, Noah used his thumbs to spread my ass cheeks apart. “Look at me when I take you.”
Glancing at him over my shoulder, I watched as he spat into the area that had never been fucked before. Sure, I had some fingers there and even a mouth or two but never a cock. Even though he prepped me, it was going to hurt, and I couldn’t fucking wait.
Noah pushed the tip of his dick between the cheeks of my ass. His eyes met mine. They were dark and wild, promising me hours of pleasure. “Take a deep breath.”
I took a deep inhale, bracing myself.
He cupped the back of my neck, pushed my face against the mattress, and shoved all of his inches into me in one full thrust.
I shouted out, the onslaught of burning pain damn near making my dick shrivel up inside of me.
Noah groaned, pumping into me in rough, hard moves.
The pain quickly turned to pleasure. It was unexpected and nothing like I had ever experienced.
I felt full, completely and utterly consumed by this man who was my undoing.
I knew one thing was for sure. He could ruin me.
He could break my heart and that was why I never truly let him in.
But those words always failed on my tongue no matter how much I wanted to tell him how I really felt.
Noah grunted, my name leaving his mouth repeatedly. He rested his full weight on top of me, grinding his hips into the seat of my ass.
I whimpered, trying to spread my legs but it was no use. From this position, he was too heavy for me to do anything.
“Do you like my cock deep in your ass, Nicky?” he whispered, licking along the shell of my ear. “I’m the only man who has ever been in it. I hope you remember that for the rest of your life.”
I would. I would never forget the things we had done. How could I? He was my brother’s best friend, and I would always see him. Even if nothing came of this, he would always be there. No matter how much I tried to get rid of him, I wouldn’t be able to.
Noah lifted off of me, grabbed my hips, and pulled me to all fours. From this angle, he was able to go deeper. His grunts and groans filled my ears. His hips slamming against my ass. He was savage and brutal in the way he fucked me and took everything he wanted.
From me.
There was no way I would ever forget this moment between us, and I had a feeling that was what he wanted.