Chapter 18
EIGHTEEN
ASHER
Today had been twelve kinds of shit, and the sudden turnaround had me wondering if I was awake or dreaming. It wasn’t a surprise that Jax and Blue showed up at my door. But this was.
Blue followed Jax and me into my room where Jax tossed me onto my unmade bed like I weighed nothing. Fuck, that was hot. Reaching down, I practically tore my pants open.
“There’s no rush,” Blue said as he knelt on the bed next to me. His hands were warm and soft as they stilled mine and guided them away. “Take a breath.”
Of course I did what Blue said. I’d do anything he told me to do.
The rush of air into my lungs made me feel about a thousand percent more calm.
Blue’s thumbs sweeping across the pulse points on my wrists might have also helped.
But to prove that I wasn’t the only impatient one in the room, Jax grabbed my pants and tugged them down to my knees.
I scissored my legs, trying to kick my pants down the rest of the way so they didn’t sit like shackles.
Jax laughed as he tugged them all the way off. “What are we going to do with him?” he asked Blue like my opinion didn’t matter.
Maybe it didn’t. And holy fuck, the way my cock twitched, I don’t think it cared that Jax wasn’t asking for my input. In fact, I think it preferred to be left out of the decision-making process. My dick was probably tired of me making bad ones. Hell, the rest of me sure was.
Blue dragged his hands down my arms, which remained above my head where he put them. “We have so many options. Do you want his mouth?”
Blue skated a thumb across my lips and I chased it with my tongue. I wanted someone to have my mouth. My head had been full of so many things like the shame of what I’d said to Sawyer and how I treated him, all the things I learned about in Lukas’s book, and all the ways I missed having Leo around.
God, I was fucking tired of my own head and all the bullshit I couldn’t get away from.
It was as easy as breathing to hand myself over to Jax and Blue.
Two people who’d never hurt me. Two people I had no business getting between, but I was addicted to the way they looked at me and each other.
It was clear that Jax and Blue had feelings for each other.
Any idiot with eyes could see that. But, for whatever reason, they’d never made a move, and if they needed someone in the middle until they got their shit sorted out… well, I’d happily oblige.
Would the fallout be nuclear-level messy for me?
Oh, most definitely, but it was hard to care about that when you had someone as hot as Jax lean forward and lick your cock.
His mouth no sooner made contact when Blue decided to join in, and suddenly there was a mouth on my cock and a mouth on my chest, a slippery tongue laving my nipple.
Teeth scraped across flesh and I fucking moaned.
Jesus Christ, I couldn’t fucking move or reciprocate in any way.
They’d rendered me incapable of doing anything but lying there and taking it.
Jax spread my legs apart and settled in between them.
He explored my body with his mouth, licking and sucking and kissing me all over.
His hands were magic too, turning my body into mush and my cock into stone.
Blue, not to be outdone, kissed and sucked my nipples until they were two aching peaks.
Every touch made me whimper, or moan, or whine.
Blue dragged sounds out of me that I didn’t know I could make, and if it weren’t for the hand that Jax had wrapped around the base of my cock and his uncanny ability to know when I was getting close, I’d have come just from Blue playing with my tits.
That was new.
And I didn’t want him to stop, but then his mouth trailed lower.
Down my chest. Down my stomach. A series of kisses met my belly button, then went lower.
I finally put my arms down so I could prop myself up on my elbows and watch the action.
Jax took me in his mouth as Blue mouthed the base of my cock.
Licking and tasting, he dragged his mouth upward until he met Jax’s.
It was easy for him to coax Jax to release my cock and kiss him instead, and I watched, mesmerized as their tongues tangled together.
Just when I didn’t think things could get any sexier, they included my dick in their kiss, wrapping their tongues around it, licking at the head as they kissed, my cock trapped in between.
Trapped wasn’t the right word because it implied that I didn’t want it to be there, but with the two brain cells they’d left me with, it was the best I could do.
“You’re going to make me come,” I warned, my voice kind of squeaky and not sounding entirely like my own.
Jax glanced up at me, and I’d never seen him look more devious than he did in that moment with his sharp smile and his predatory eyes.
“You’re young. If you come, you come. But we’re not stopping until we’re done with you.”
With a groan, I collapsed and let my arms splay out to my sides.
With my legs spread wide to accommodate Jax, I felt a bit like a very sexed-up starfish.
Maybe I had just one brain cell left to keep me breathing because I could find no fault with Jax’s plan.
Sure, it kind of made me feel like a passenger princess.
Someone who was happy to let someone else do all the work, but when you had two men as hot as Jax and Blue, it wasn’t hard to let them have their wicked way with you.
With a strength that shouldn’t have surprised me by now, Jax flipped me over like a fucking pancake.
My indignant yelp was ignored, and Jax pulled my hips up so my ass was sticking up in the air.
He shoved my knees apart and kneaded my ass cheeks with his hands.
God, that felt good in a way I couldn’t describe.
He could tear me apart if he wanted to. He was stronger.
Stronger than he looked, and I could really get used to the way he manhandled me.
A hand swept up my back and then into my hair. Fingers grazed against my scalp. “Up you get, Ashy,” Blue said as his gentle grip on my hair encouraged me to get on all fours. “There we go, that’s a good boy.”
Blue’s words made me shiver, and something deep inside me fucking lit up at the way his praise felt when it burrowed under my skin.
He dragged the head of his cock against my lips, and I opened for him, taking note of the fact that he’d ditched his pants somewhere between the living room and this moment. I was almost sad that we weren’t recording anymore because I wanted to relive these moments over and over again.
His cock was thick, like I remembered, and salty with precum, and I tried to do my best to work my tongue over the head and to keep the right amount of suction and to make sure I didn’t drag my teeth on him.
It was so fucking hard, especially when Jax’s hot breath on my hole turned into his tongue.
His fingers bit into the cheeks of my ass as he kept them spread… and I hoped they bruised.
Blue brushed the hair off my face. “Look at me, Ashy.”
My eyelids were like ten-pound sandbags, but I pried them open and looked up at him. I could feel the way my brow furrowed as our gazes met. If I’d not had a mouthful of cock, I would have asked him what he wanted. I should have known he’d tell me anyway.
“Relax, Ashy. Let me have your mouth. You don’t have to do anything, just let me have you.”
Any other day I might have taken his words to mean that my oral skills sucked and he’d rather fuck my skull instead of putting up with them, but he looked at me kind of the way he looked at Jax all the time. His gaze was warm and soft, and it made me feel safe to just give myself to him like that.
I closed my eyes and let him have me. Let him cradle my face with both hands and slowly thrust into my mouth only to drag himself out again just as slow.
He praised me the whole time, but it was hard to catch all his words over the rush of blood in my ears and the hammering of my heart or the gasping breaths I took as Jax’s tongue speared into my body.
My cock was leaking a steady stream of precum, and my balls throbbed with the need to come. Jax’s mouth on my hole felt wrong in the best way. His mouth was fucking talented and before long he had me whining and moaning around Blue’s cock so much that he had to pull out.
“Your tongue in his ass is going to make me come,” Blue huffed a laugh then flopped over on his back next to me but with his head pointed in the other direction. “Get over here, Ashy. I want to taste you.”
Jax’s tongue leaving my ass made me whine, but then he brought his hand down hard on the cheek. The sting that erupted made my cock leak and I whimpered in frustration.
“I need to come like… fucking yesterday,” I said as I carefully shifted a leg over Blue, straddling his face.
He wasted no time taking my cock into his mouth.
He must have taken my warning seriously, though, because he had an iron grip on the base as he licked and sucked at the head and took the shaft deeper into his mouth.
The only thing preventing me from coming right then was that grip. I cursed it as much as I loved it.
“Suck him, Ash. Take his cock in your mouth,” Jax said.
Dribbling lube down the crack of my ass, he spread it around my hole and slid a finger inside. My limbs shook, and I wondered if I’d be able to do anything but shake.
Suck Blue.
Don’t come.
Stay on your hands and knees.
Relax for Jax.
There were so many things going on at once that my brain just kind of shut down, and I tipped over the edge into an abyss of pleasure.
Jax’s fingers speared in and out of my ass, stretching me as Blue sucked me down deep, and all I managed to do was press my face in against Blue’s groin and breathe in his scent.
“Please,” I heard myself beg as strong hands smoothed up my back and down again. Jax parted my cheeks and eased his fingers inside again. Two this time. Then none.
“Please, please,” I begged again, desperation making my voice crack until Jax spoke again.
“Shhhh, baby. It’s okay. We got you.” He lined up with my hole. One hand wrapped around his cock to guide him inside. It dug into the cheek of my ass as he entered me, then it disappeared and he clutched my hips instead, pulling me back onto his cock instead of pressing forward into me.
“We got you,” he said again, and I let go. I gave myself over to them and let them have me.