transition

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Life is a series of crossroads. Most of them we don’t even notice and have no quantifiable effect on our lives. What we eat for a meal. What clothes we wear on any given day. If we answer a call from an unknown number or not.

Other crossroads are more obvious—they’re the big life decisions. We fret over all the possible repercussions or rewards that await us depending on which direction we take.

But whether a crossroads is obvious or not, it still matters. Little ones can become life-altering. Decisions that seem momentous in the moment can shrink in importance as time passes and our perspective shifts.

Our choices, big and small, define us. Shape us and heal us.

They break us, too.

In the brief month Wilder and I were together, I faced hundreds of crossroads. Most of them only obvious in hindsight.

When I said yes to us that first night. When I swore to never regret him. When I promised to love him forever. Each kiss. Touch. Smile. The choice to trust and hope.

Every time I believed his lies… and the lies I spoke believing they were truth.

I once thought falling in love with Wilder would destroy me. I was right and also wrong. In a strange way, I’m grateful for what happened.

By embracing darkness, I lost my fear of it. I’m finally safe.

Nothing can touch me now.

- Journal of Eva Sullivan

Lyrics of “End Times” by Theory

Album: Fatalism

Bells were ringing at the end of time

The sky was on fire but you were mine

Ashes on our tongues, in our lungs

But you were mine

This story’s ending already told

Stamped, sealed, sold

Beautiful by design

You were mine

Mine at the end of time

Close your eyes now, baby

and remember the color of mine

the first and last time

you told me you loved me

Beautiful by design

(Beautiful by design)

You were mine at the end of time

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Thank you so much for reading! Evangeline and Wilder’s story concludes in A Perfect Song Duet: Last Chorus , coming June 27th.

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