7. Chapter Seven
Oh. My. God! If someone had told me this morning that Xander would be chilling in my house, I would’ve thought they were crazy. But having his dick in my mouth is right off the charts. This is no ordinary person here, people. It’s Xander fucking Williams. The guy I’ve been crushing on forever. No way I was saying no to sucking his cock. But the thing is, what I didn’t tell him is that I’m totally clueless about what I am doing. How am I supposed to know how to give head when I haven”t even experienced my first kiss yet?
Okay. Stay focused. Just act confident and roll with it. Even if you’re winging it, you’ve still gotta nail this. Just follow his cues and listen to his sounds.
With each inch I take him deeper into my mouth, I can feel his body trembling with pleasure, and I glimpse his hand tightening on the couch beside his leg. Shit. Maybe I’m doing it right after all. This time, I go deeper. Taking him in until he brushes the back of my throat. I pay attention to the sounds he makes, listening for cues about his desires and preferences.
“Fuck me!” He hisses, and I can feel the pressure of his hand tightening around my hair.
If Xander’s dick wasn’t in my mouth, I’d be high-fiving myself for nailing it.
While I push my mouth back down his shaft and hold him there, I relish the flavor of him and tease the sensitive underside with my tongue.
He moans, his voice echoing through the room, as he tightens his grip on my hair. Wow… He’s really getting into this.
As he thrusts his hips forward, my breathing becomes labored, struggling to take in enough air with his cock in my throat. Yet, I suck harder, paying close attention to the erotic noises escaping his lips so I can give him what he craves.
He thrusts into my mouth with a sense of urgency that leaves me breathless.
“Fuck! You”re gonna make me come, Princess,” he grunts, his voice filled with desire as he thrusts into my mouth.
What the hell do I do? My mind is blank, on what steps to take next. Do I remove his cock from my mouth or leave it there? But when his grip tightens on my hair and he lets out a groan, I allow his release to run down the back of my throat. His face contorts with pleasure as he rides out the wave of his orgasm. Watching him come is the fucking hottest thing I’ve ever seen.
His breathing slows, and his moans subside before I release him from my mouth with a loud pop.
Xander just sits there, his watchful eyes never leaving me. The intensity in his piercing brown eyes makes me feel vulnerable as if he can peer into the depths of my soul. Did I screw it up? Was I terrible at it? No because if I was bad at it, he wouldn”t have come like that or made those sexy sounds.
Unsure of my next move, I lingered between his legs. His chest rises and falls with each breath before he leans forward and, with a gentle touch, he tucks my long blonde hair in behind my ear.
”You sure you”ve never done that before, Princess?” he says with a smirk.
“No,” I whisper, my voice barely audible as I shake my head in disbelief.
With a feather-light touch, he runs his thumb over my bottom lip, sending a pleasurable shiver coursing through my body.
“If you weren”t a virgin, I”d bend you over that table and fuck you senseless.”
His filthy words make me feel so vulnerable like I”m completely under his power. Despite knowing that I would be just another notch on Xander’s belt, I still hoped he’d do what he said.
“You can still do it,” I add, dying for him to touch me.
“Nah… Virgins aren’t my thing,” he says, shifting back on the couch and tucking his cock back into his jeans.
I stand up and plop down on the couch, the heaviness of rejection sinking into my bones. I can”t believe I didn”t pick up on the obvious signs of his true intentions. I’ve spent endless hours observing him, studying his behavior. I know that Jade, Savannah, and the other girls he disappears with are just tools for him to satisfy his sexual urges.
Now I’m mad at myself for falling for his charms. I was just a means for him to get off. I”m no different from Jade and those easy girls he hooks up with. I was just a means to satisfy his sexual needs. How the fuck did I fall for that knowing everything that I do from watching him? I know why. Because it was Xander Williams. But that won”t be happening again. I couldn”t care less about the attention that jerk gives me next time. He will never fool me again.
As he gets up, I can sense him looming over me, his dark brown eyes never breaking contact with mine.
“Well, I”ll catch you later, I guess,” he says as he heads towards the front door.
That’s it. That’s all this asshole is going to say to me after I sucked his dick. I refuse to let this jerk treat me like crap when I deserve better. I’m so angry that it feels like every cell in my body is vibrating with rage. Getting up from the couch, I hear the faint creak of the floorboards beneath my feet.
“Seriously, what”s your problem, asshole?” I spit out.
He turns to the sound of my voice, a cocky grin on his lips. “What did you expect? You sucked my dick. No biggie. Sorry, but I’m not the marrying kind, Princess.”
“You can’t help yourself, can you? Just use people for your own pleasure and then treat them like they”re worthless.”
“Princess, look at this place. You’ve got it all, but you don”t fucking know what it”s like to be treated like you”re nothing.”
“Well, newsflash dickhead, you just did. So get over yourself. I certainly fucking have.” I yank the front door open and hold it for him to get the fuck out.
His eyes linger on me briefly before he takes a step forward and walks out through the door.
With a loud thud, I forcefully close the door behind me.
The next day at school, Xander walks right by me, not even acknowledging my presence. I thought at least the sexual favor would earn me more than being ignored. Really I didn’t know what to expect. Maybe a nod of his head whenever we crossed paths in the hallway. But in his familiar pattern, he snubbed me yet again, as he has done in the past.
The more I watch him at school, the more I understand that Xander Williams is someone who would never pay attention to someone like me. I knew I would never be special. I’d always be just a face in the crowd. A face that would always fade into the background, never catching anyone”s attention. Everyone except Jade and her bitches.
Over the next few days, I keep a watchful eye on Xander’s every move. Despite how he treated me the other night, I can’t resist the allure of studying him.
Whether it was during lunchtime or while moving through the school grounds, I’m always scanning the area looking for him. You could say I”m a creature of habit, always doing the same thing for so many years. But lately, every time I spot him, I have to quickly look away because he’s already staring at me.
Like how he is right now as I sit reading. Despite my attempts to focus on my e-reader, I can feel his gaze piercing into me, leaving me feeling exposed.
While I swipe the screen on my e-reader, I sneak a glance in his direction. Jade is practically grinding on him, in front of the entire school. But it’s me he’s watching, not her.
Does Jade honestly believe he cares about her in the slightest? Or is she doing it because he’s Xander Williams? Just like I did.
Perhaps she does it to gain more admiration from others. She”s the type who craves approval from others. I notice it when she taunts me and looks around for reactions.
But that’s not me. I don”t care what people think and I won”t make that mistake with Xander again.
All I can say is that Jade is totally clueless if she thinks she”s got some special spot in Xander’s heart because of what she does. Xander doesn’t care about anyone but himself. Can’t she see that he’s just using her to get what he wants, just like he did with me? One blowjob with him was enough for me to learn my lesson. And I will not make the same mistake twice. She’s either as dumb as she looks or she just doesn’t give a damn. Xander may shine like the sun, but his selfishness casts a shadow darker than the night.
As Ace walks over to Xander, I lift my head to watch them, taking in the sight of their easy camaraderie. Before taking a seat beside him, Ace gives him a reassuring pat on the shoulder. With a sudden motion, Ace pulls Jade onto his lap, prompting her to emit a joyful squeal. Despite Jade grinding on Ace”s lap, Xander”s gaze remains focused on me.
Ace leans over and says something to Xander, then shoots a quick glance in my direction.
Wait, did Xander spill the beans about what I did to him? Is that their deal? That they share stories about their sexual conquests?
My throat gets tight and my heart starts racing as nerves flood through me. That fucking dickbag did. He straight up told him. Because why the hell would Ace be staring at me when he doesn’t even know I exist? I stash my e-reader into my bag and get ready to leave. Who else did he tell?
In an instant, I”m on my feet, ready to flee and hide from the watchful eyes around me.
Each guy I pass deepens my anxiety, fueling my belief that they’re aware of what I did to Xander.
I bolt out of school, feeling so relieved when I finally get in my car. I have to get the hell out of here.