Chapter Eight #3
Now he paced, from the window where she’d hung faceted crystals to the brass urn filled with dried flowers, from bookcase to bureau. Nerves humming, he picked up an ornate cobalt bottle to sniff. And smelled her. He set it down hastily when the door opened.
She looked... incredible. Her hair windblown, her face flushed. She wore some sheer drapey dress that swirled around her legs in bleeding colors. Long multicolored columns of beads danced at her ears. She lifted a brow and closed the door.
“Well,” she said. “Make yourself at home.”
“Where the hell have you been?” The demand shot out, edged with frustration and worry.
“Did I miss curfew, Daddy?” She tossed a beaded bag onto the bureau. She’d lifted a hand to remove an earring when he whirled her around.
“Don’t get cute with me. I’ve been worried sick. You’ve been out for hours. No one knew where you were.” Or who you were with, he thought, but managed to bite that one back.
She jerked her arm free. He saw the temper flash hot into her eyes, but her voice was cool and slow and unmoved. “It may surprise you, Professor, but I’ve been going out on my own for a long time.”
“It’s different now.”
“Oh?” Deliberately she turned back to the bureau. Taking her time, she unfastened an earring. “Why?”
“Because we...” Because we’re lovers. “Because we don’t know where Caufield is,” he said with more control. “Or how dangerous he might be.”
“I’ve also been looking out for myself for a long time.” Deceptively sleepy, her eyes met his in the mirror. “Is the lecture over?”
“It’s not a lecture, Lilah, I was worried. I have a right to know your plans.”
Still watching him, she slid bracelets from her arms. “Just how do you figure that?”
“We’re—friends.”
The smile didn’t reach her eyes. “Are we?”
He jammed impotent hands into his pockets. “I care about you. And after what happened last night, I thought we... I thought we meant something to each other. Now, twenty-four hours later you’re out with someone else. Looking like that.”
She stepped out of her shoes. “We went to bed last night, and enjoyed it.” She nearly choked over the bitterness lodged in her throat.
“As I recall we agreed there’d be no complications.
” Tilting her head, she studied him. Her easy shrug masked the fact that her hands were balled tight.
“Since you’re here, I suppose we could arrange a repeat performance.
” Her voice a purr, she stepped closer to run a finger down the front of his shirt.
“That’s what you want from me, isn’t it, Max? ”
Furious, he pushed her hand aside. “I don’t care to be the second act of the evening.”
The flush vanished, leaving her cheeks pale before she turned away. “Congratulations,” she whispered. “Direct hit.”
“What do you want me to say? That you can come and go as you please, with whomever you please, and I’ll sit up and beg for the scraps from the table?”
“I don’t want you to say anything. I just want you to leave me alone.”
“I’m not going anywhere until we’ve straightened this out.”
“Fine.” The cuckoo chirped out again as she unzipped her dress. “Stay as long as you like. I’m getting ready for bed.”
She stepped out of the dress, tossed it aside, then walked over to her vanity in a lacy, beribboned chemise. Sitting, she picked up her brush to drag it through her hair.
“What are you so angry about?”
“Angry.” She set her teeth as she slapped the bristles against her scalp.
“What makes you think I’m angry? Just because you’re waiting for me in my room, incensed that I had the nerve to make plans of my own when you didn’t have the time or inclination to spend an hour with me. Unless it was in the sack.”
“What are you talking about?” He took her arm, then yelped when she rapped the brush hard on his knuckles.
“I’ll let you know when I want to be touched.”
He swore, grabbed the brush and tossed it across the room. Too enraged to see the surprise in her eyes, he hauled her to her feet. “I asked you a question.”
She cocked her chin. “If you’ve finished your temper tantrum—” He nearly lifted her off her feet.
“Don’t push,” he said between his teeth.
“You hurt me.” The words exploded out of her. “Last night, even this morning, I was worth a little of your time and attention. As long as there was sex. Then this afternoon, you couldn’t even look at me. You couldn’t wait to dump me off here and get away from me.”
“That’s crazy.”
“That’s just what happened. Damn you, you made up lame excuses and practically patted me on the head. And tonight, you’ve got an itch and you’re annoyed that I wasn’t here to scratch it.”
He was as pale as she now. “Is that what you think of me?”
She sighed then, and the anger dropped out of her voice. “It’s what you think of me, Max. Now let me go.”
His grip loosened so that she slipped away. “I had something on my mind this afternoon. It wasn’t that I didn’t want to spend time with you.”
“I don’t want excuses.” She went to the terrace doors to fling them open. Maybe the wind would blow the tears away. “You’ve made it clear how you feel.”
“Obviously I haven’t. The last thing I wanted to do was hurt you, Lilah.” But he’d lied to her, he thought. That had been his first mistake. “Just before I came to pick you up, I saw Caufield in the village.”
She spun around. “What? You saw him? Where?”
“I was waiting at a light, and I saw him on the sidewalk. He’s dyed his hair and grown a beard. By the time I’d realized, I was caught up in traffic and had to double back. He was gone.”
“Why didn’t you tell me you’d seen him?”
“I didn’t want to worry you, and I wasn’t going to have you getting some lamebrained idea about hunting him up yourself. You have a habit of acting on impulse, and I—”
“You jerk.” The flush was back in her cheeks when she stepped forward to give him a shove. “That man is determined to take something from my family, and you don’t have the sense to tell me you’ve seen him a few miles from here. If I’d known I might have been able to find him.”
“Exactly my point. I’m not having you involved any more than necessary. That’s why I thought it might be best if I went back to New York. They know I’m here now, and I’m not having you caught in the middle.”
“You’re not having?” She would have shoved him again, but he caught both her hands.
“That’s right. You’re going to stay out of it.”
“Don’t tell me—”
“I am telling you,” he interrupted, pleased when she gaped at him. “What’s more, you’re not going to go wandering off at night until he’s in custody. After I thought it over, I decided it was best if I stayed close and watched out for you. I’m going to take care of you whether you like it or not.”
“I don’t like it, and I don’t need to be taken care of.”
“Nonetheless.” And he considered the argument closed.
It was her turn to stutter. “Why, you arrogant, self-important—”
“That’s enough,” he said in his best professor’s voice and had her blinking. “There’s no use arguing when the most intelligent decision’s been made. Now, I think it’s best if I take you to work every day. Whenever you make other plans, you’ll let me know.”
Her anger turned to simple shock. “I will not.”
“Yes,” he said mildly, “you will.” He moved her hands behind her back to bring her closer. “About tonight,” he began when their bodies brushed. “Clearly, you’re laboring under a misconception concerning my motives, and my feelings.”
She arched back, more surprised than annoyed when he didn’t release her. “I don’t want to talk about it.”
“No, you prefer yelling about it, but that’s unconstructive, and not my style.” Both his hands and his voice were very firm. “To be precise, I didn’t come here because I had an itch, though I certainly have every intention of making love with you.”
Baffled, she stared at him. “What the devil’s gotten into you?”
“I’ve suddenly realized that the best way to handle you is the way I handle difficult students. It takes more than patience. It requires a firm hand and a clear-cut outline of intentions and goals.”
“A difficult—” She took a deep breath to hold on to her temper. “Max, I think you’d better go take some aspirin and lie down.”
“As I was saying.” He whispered a kiss over her cheek. “It isn’t just a matter of sex, despite the fact that that aspect is incredibly satisfying. It’s more of a matter of my being completely bewitched by you.”
“Don’t,” she said weakly when he leaned close to nip at her ear.
“Maybe I’ve made the mistake of indicating that it’s only the way you look, the way you feel under my hands, the way you taste that attracts me.
” He drew her bottom lip into his mouth, sucking gently until her eyes unfocused.
“But it’s more than that. I just don’t know how to tell you.
” Her pulse beat fast and hard against his hands as he walked her backward.
“There’s never been anyone like you in my life. I intend to keep you there, Lilah.”
“What are you doing?”
“I’m taking you to bed.”
She struggled to clear her head as his lips skimmed down her throat. “No, you’re not.” She was angry with him about something. But the reason floated just out of reach as his mouth seduced her.
“I need to show you how I feel about you.” Still toying with her lips, he lowered her to the mattress.
Her hands were free now and slipped under his shirt to run along the warm flesh beneath. She didn’t want to think. There were so many feelings to be absorbed, and she drew him closer, eager.
“I was jealous,” he murmured as he slid one lacy strap from her shoulder and replaced it with his mouth. “I don’t want another man touching you.”
“No.” He was touching her now, long, lingering strokes up and down her trembling body. “Just you.”
He sank into a kiss, spinning it out, wallowing in the flavor, the texture, until he was drunk on it. Then, like an addict, he went back for more.
This was comfort and care and romance, she thought hazily. To float together like this, with a sweet breeze blowing over heated bodies, soft murmurs muffled against clinging lips. Desire so perfectly balanced with affection. Nothing mattered so much as this—holding on to the hope of love.
She lifted his shirt over his head and let her hands roam.
He was strong. It was more than the subtle ridge of muscles over his back and shoulders.
It was the strength inside that aroused her.
The integrity, the dedication to do what was right.
He would be strong enough to be loyal and honest and gentle with those he loved.
He shifted her so that she was cocooned by pillows.
Kneeling beside her, he began to untie each tiny ribbon down the center of the ivory silk.
The contrast of patient fingers and hungry eyes left her breathless.
He parted the material, caressing the newly exposed flesh with his lips.
It amazed and humbled him that her skin should be as soft as the silk.
As patiently as he, she undressed him. Though the need to hurry was clawing at both of them, they held back, the understanding spoken.
She rose, wrapping her arms around his neck until they were torso to torso, thigh to thigh. With the bright light showering around them, they explored each other. A shudder then a sigh, a request and an answer. Questing lips sought out new secrets. Eager hands discovered new pleasures.
When she locked herself around him, he filled her.
Glorying in the sensation, she arched back, taking him deeper, gasping out his name as the first shock waves struck.
He could see her, her willowy body bowed, her skin glowing in the light while her bright hair rained down her back.
As she shuddered, the stunned pleasure rushed into her face.
Then his vision grayed, his own body trembled. His hands slid down to grip her hips. She was wrapped tight around him when they shot over the peak together.