Chapter Five #2
“I cannot know her motives, my lord,” she said. “But I do know I am of age now, yet she does not recall me home. I assume she wants me to become a nun. It is her right to do with me as she wishes, given she is my guardian.”
Oh, but he could sense such sorrow in her words.
In the months or even years past, Maxton would have never given thought to such a tone, nor would have he even indulged in such a conversation but, at this moment, he was doing both.
He was starting to feel things again, that newly awakened compassion wreaking havoc with his thought processes.
He simply wasn’t any good at gauging it or controlling it.
He didn’t like what he was hearing.
It didn’t seem right, this woman who had clearly had her inheritance stolen by a greedy aunt.
At least, that was her story. As a seasoned knight, perhaps he should have been more suspicious of her than he was.
The truth was that his background with women was spotty; those who weren’t liars usually had some other issue – selfishness, perhaps greed.
He’d never met one he fully trusted and, as a rule, he stayed clear of them.
But this pale, slender woman had him believing her story.
All signs pointed to it being the truth.
He hoped he wasn’t being made a fool of.
“Finish your meal,” he said after a moment, scratching at his neck and looking around the room, wondering if this wasn’t the first time she’d coerced a meal out of someone with her sad story.
“If this inheritance is rightly yours, why do you not stand up for yourself? Why starve away at St. Blitha?”
He seemed dubious and the least bit irritated.
Andressa could sense a sudden change in his mood.
He’d been very interested in speaking with her at first but, suddenly, he seemed oddly distracted.
Perhaps, he was even nervous. She was coming to think that he was sorry he’d bought her a meal if he knew now that her aunt wouldn’t pay for it.
That seemed to be when things changed with him.
With that in mind, she daintily wiped her mouth with the cloth that had come with the food.
“I fear I have taken too much of your time and money already, my lord,” she said, quickly standing up.
“God bless you for what you have done for me. I shall not forget it. If you do not wish for me to work off the meal, then I shall pray for you every morning for the rest of my life. God appreciates those who are generous and compassionate, and you have been both.”
He looked at her, sharply. Compassionate.
There was that word again. How could she know he’d brought her here hoping that the good deed of feeding the woman might take some of the sting out of his life of sin?
It was his own fault for feeling sorry for her, for wanting to show God he wasn’t just a murder. A killer.
An assassin.
It wasn’t her fault that he’d forced her here.
“Sit down,” he said, reaching out and pulling her back into her chair. “Finish your food.”
His manner still seemed edgy. “Truly… it is not necessary,” she said. “I have eaten enough. I should return to St. Blitha soon.”
He shook his head at her firmly. “Eat,” he said. “If you leave now, then you will have wasted my money, and that will displease me. Do you wish to displease me?”
She shook her head quickly. “Nay, my lord.”
He gestured to her plate and she complied, plowing into the boiled beef.
From the way she was pushing it into her mouth, he knew she was still very hungry.
He was coming to think that his momentary suspicion of her had been misplaced.
It was the natural doubt he carried with him, always, knowing that all men were not what they seemed.
It was doubt that had kept him alive for many years, instincts that were better than most. As Andressa ate, he waved over one of the wenches who was working the common room, serving the tables.
“Something more, m’lord?” she asked.
It was a clearly suggestive question, but Maxton ignored it. “What more do you have in the kitchens to eat?”
The girl, round and pale with curly dark hair and rouged cheeks, was disappointed he didn’t respond to her leering smile and purring question. Still, she dutifully answered him.
“The beef and peas,” she said, gesturing to Andressa’s half-empty plate. “Bread and cheese, which I already brought you. But I think there is barley pudding, too.”
Maxton was interested. “What is in it?”
“Barley, eggs, milk, and honey. I think there are currants also.”
“Bring it,” he commanded quietly. “And listen closely; I want you to find a sack and stuff it full of all of the bread and cheese you can find. I wish to take it with me. Is that clear?”
“It is, m’lord.”
“Off with you, now.”
The girl scampered away to do his bidding and by the time he returned his attention to the table, he could see that Andressa was looking at him with some curiosity.
“If the barley pudding is for me, truly, I do not need such extravagance,” she said hesitantly. “I am very satisfied with what I have. It is more than enough, my lord.”
He knew that. He also knew she probably would have been happy with a simple crust of bread. But there was some satisfaction in giving the woman more food than she could eat.
“I know,” he said. “But you may as well try it since we are here. You mentioned your love of bread sweetened with honey, so sample their pudding. It could be very delicious.”
She nodded, a bit unsteadily, and returned to the beef, now pulling the remaining bits from the bone. Maxton’s gaze lingered on her.
“What great lady did you wish to become?” he asked.
Andressa stopped sucking the beef from her fingers. “My lord?” she asked, confused.
“You said that all young girls wish to grow up to be great ladies. What did you wish to become?”
She put her hand down, wiping it off on the cloth at her fingertips. It seemed to be a question she didn’t want to answer but, out of courtesy, she did.
“My family has raised beeves for generations,” she said.
“Cattle with red and white hides. I had an older brother when I was born, but he died at a very young age, so my father used to take me with him as he went about managing his lands. I learned about the cattle and I learned how to take them to market and to sell them for a fair price. I always believed I would retire to Chalford Hill and administer my family’s legacy as I’d been taught.
I hoped I would marry well and pass the empire to my children. ”
Maxton nodded as he thought on red and white cattle, and the gentle hills of Gloucestershire. “You still can,” he said. “Send a missive to the king. Tell him that your aunt has stolen your lands. Ask for his good justice.”
She lifted her eyebrows. “It is not such a simple thing,” she said.
“There is no way for me to send a missive. There is nothing to write with at St. Blitha; I do not have access to quill or parchment. I would have to see the king personally in order to deliver any message and I am quite certain he would not see me. I am no one of consequence. In fact, I would probably be in for a good deal of trouble if I did so. It would make me look ungrateful not only to St. Blitha, but also to my aunt. And do not forget that Essex is a confidante of the king. How would it make him look if a charge from St. Blitha told the king a tale of woe, of a Mother Abbess who sells our food to set her own fine table?”
He could see her point, but he wasn’t one to surrender so easily. “Then I shall tell him,” he said with firm quietness. “I have business with him, anyway. I will tell him your story and ask that he look into your aunt’s dealings. What is her name?”
“Hildeth du Bose,” she said hesitantly. “But…”
He cut her off. “Then it is settled,” he said. “I shall speak to the king of this… this travesty and insist he investigate Hildeth du Bose and the entire Culverhay situation.”
Andressa was shaking her head even as he spoke.
“But you cannot,” she insisted softly. “My lord, it is very chivalrous for you to want to help me but, if you do this, the king will know that I have told you everything. That information will make it back to the Mother Abbess, and I do not wish to cross the woman. She can be quite… brutal.”
He cocked an eyebrow. “Brutal? Explain.”
Andressa sighed heavily, clearly reluctant to say anything more but knowing he probably wouldn’t let the subject rest. She could just tell; he had that aggressive manner about him.
“I will explain, but only on the condition that you not speak to the king,” she said with surprising firmness.
“I must have your oath, my lord, or I will not tell you. I should not speak of such things. I could risk my own life in doing so.”
Now, he scowled. “Risk your own life? What in the hell goes on at St. Blitha that you should fear for your life if you speak the truth?”
She was starting to tremble; he could see it in her hands. “I will not tell you unless I have your oath not to repeat it.”
“You have it. Tell me.”
Andressa sat back in her chair, hanging her head. “I should not have said what I did,” she whispered tightly. “I should not have…”
“But you did,” he said, cutting her off. Sitting forward so he could hear her better, he could see how frightened she was. He was genuinely, and deeply, curious. “My lady, please tell me.”
She swallowed hard; he could see it. “When I first came to St. Blitha, I was warned by another pledge about the Mother Abbess,” she murmured, blinking away tears of pure fright. “I was told not to cross her. I was told that she could make women in her charge… disappear.”
Maxton was listening very carefully. “Disappear how?” he asked. “Send them away?”