Chapter 37
Appreciation
Sara
Finn draws his fingers out of me and holds them to my lips. Meeting his steady gaze, I open for him and he slides them inside, letting me taste myself and all of them. I suck on them as our eyes lock. When he pulls his fingers out, he leans in to kiss me.
His tongue caresses mine, sharing the taste of us. I could get used to this so easily. A ripple of pleasure chases through me.
“She needs energy and hydration to play, Finn.” Dante’s voice penetrates the haze of lust forming around us.
Finn smirks. My pussy throbs for more. Will I ever get enough of these guys?
“So many orgasms,” he promises, rubbing his thumb over my lower lip.
I shiver as he helps me stand and guides me over to where the food is laid out. My stomach growls and Drew chuckles.
“Worked up an appetite?” He draws me down onto his lap. His jeans are rough beneath my bare legs, but his chest is warm through the thin robe separating us. He grabs a container of pasta and hands me a fork. “Don’t worry about the carbs, princess. We’ll work them off.”
My cheeks heat as my gaze lifts to Dante, Wyatt, and Finn. Working it off won’t be a problem with these guys. I push the pasta around with my fork, trying to figure out how to ask them how the rest of today will go. But in the back of my mind, I can’t help but wonder how long this can last.
We haven’t set an end date. Sure, it’s just beginning. But no one’s talked long-term, except Drew.
Drew isn’t even friends with the others. Tom will eventually come back. Will that mean everything ends? Will I know what it feels like to have these guys just to lose them again?
Watch them fall in love with other women. Be invited to their weddings. Smile at their beautiful brides. Play with their children. Grow old and resentful that I had them once upon a time.
“What’s on your mind, pip?”
My gaze lifts to Dante’s soft blue eyes. I want to curl up in his arms and let him take care of me. Make everything okay. Lie to me that everything will work out for the best.
Instead, I smile and shake off the blues. The future is a long way off. Today, I’m taking charge of my sexuality and doing all the things I should’ve done for years. If all I get with these guys is a few stolen moments, then I’m making the most of the time I have.
I can cry when they’re finished with me.
“I’m just wondering how the rest of today will go.” I stab a few penne noodles and bring them to my mouth. The rich cream sauce almost makes me moan.
“Do you want to know exactly how we’ll fuck you, flower?” Finn’s voice sends shivers down my spine. I definitely can’t wait until my night alone with him. If I get a night alone with him, we haven’t set up guidelines.
Just today.
“Can we do more things together?” I ask tentatively. I want to feel overwhelmed by them again. Like with the blindfold and when Dante and Finn played with me in the dining room.
Wyatt’s nostrils flare and a muscle ticks in his jaw. Dante’s eyes soften. Finn smirks and leans back in his chair. Drew slides his hand between my thighs and rests it right below my pussy, clutching the inside of my thigh.
“Anything you want, princess,” Drew offers.
My breath catches and I lean back against him. “Anything?”
Dante chuckles. “Careful. She’s got that needy look that only means one thing.”
“Trouble,” Wyatt says softly. His dark eyes capture mine as I take another bite of pasta. Awareness scatters across my skin. I can still feel him deep inside me. My heart flips over.
I have history with these three that Drew and I don’t. But Drew has something none of them do. Newness. There’s no preconceived notions of how I’ll react to something. He didn’t wipe away tears when I fell. Or threaten to kick my boyfriend’s ass if they screwed me over.
He’s not best friends with Tom.
He wants to date me. Something none of the others have mentioned.
Yes, we all want to fuck each other, but there’s more to it, if I’m being honest with myself.
This is fun, but my heart is already bruised from Wyatt’s lack of attention for years.
These guys have hurt me before. Who’s to say they won’t hurt me again?
“What do you want to experiment with first, princess?” Drew’s fingers lightly caress my pussy beneath the table.
My pulse quickens. I bite my lip, trying to think of what I want to do first with these four guys. I take a few bites of pasta, aware that nothing will happen until I finish my lunch, unless Drew stops teasing me with light caresses and really touches me.
“I’m willing to direct if you need me to, pip.”
Dante’s smile makes my toes curl, remembering how he controlled me while I fucked myself. His dark words in my ears as he took me over the edge. I could get behind that again.
I wet my lips and take a drink. They watch me expectantly, letting me lead if I want. I could be the one in charge, commanding these men to pleasure me. Right now, I don’t want to be in control. I don’t want to think at all.
“I’d like that.” Heat fills my belly at Dante’s smirk.
“Good girl.” Oof, that makes me want to do more than curl up on his lap. He was hard when I sat on him earlier. His smile relaxed as we talked quietly.
I love how he checked in with me. Asking the questions that I’m not sure the others would. How I’m feeling about this? If I want to stop? If I need a break or some time to myself to examine what’s happening?
He takes care of me, knowing when I need him close and acknowledging when I need space. My heart squeezes a little as his eyes collide with mine.
“Any word on Tom?” Drew’s hand settles back on my thigh.
“Nothing.” Wyatt leans back in his chair. “Whatever he’s hiding from, he’s doing a damned good job of it.”
“What about the client he was working with?” I rest my head on Drew’s shoulder. “Someone else in the office has to have done some work on it. Tom doesn’t usually do everything himself.”
“Beth’s been on a cruise this whole week and impossible to reach. She’s Tom’s senior accountant.” Dante taps his fork on his container. “She should be back Monday.”
I make a mental note to seek out this Beth in the office. “There just aren’t a lot of clues.”
“No, there aren’t.” Finn shakes his head. “I’ve gone through all his digital files, but nothing. Whatever he has on these clients he must have taken with him.”
I set my fork down and lean forward with my elbows on the table. Tom left of his own free will, but something drove him to it. My stomach churns and my hands feel clammy. “Do you think he’s really in trouble this time?”
“It’s possible.” Wyatt leans in. “But Tom’s smart. If he’s off the grid, there’s a reason for it and he won’t come home until it’s safe.”
“If he truly thought you were in danger, pip, he would have taken you with him.” Dante stands to clean up our lunch.
Maybe. Maybe what Tom’s hiding from isn’t major. Maybe the person who broke into our townhouse just wanted to frighten me into contacting Tom. Maybe the guy I thought was watching me was just a figment of my overactive imagination.
“He’ll be okay, flower.” Finn’s hand touches mine. His green eyes are soothing. “He wouldn’t want you to worry.”
I nod, feeling bad about enjoying today when I have no idea what is going on with my brother.
Drew helps me to my feet. “If you want, there are toothbrushes in the bathroom, princess.”
I force a smile to my lips and leave behind the men who are changing my life to hide in the bathroom and worry about my brother for a few minutes.
Tom will be fine. He always is. Does he get tangled up in strange stuff occasionally? Yes.
But he always finds his way out. Usually with the help of his friends. I breathe out a sigh. He’s not leaning on them this time and I’m not sure why. Why would he push me into their space when he’s done everything he could to keep me away from them?
I straighten the tie around my waist and try to fix my hair a little. We won’t find anything new out about Tom’s situation this weekend, so I’m going to enjoy what I have here.
When I walk out, the conversation stops. Four sets of eyes turn to me and my insides sizzle to life. Today is mine.
Dante
“How do we want to play this?” Drew looks at the bathroom door where Sara is. After cleaning up, we moved to the couch and chairs next to the bed to wait for her.
“It depends on her.” I rub my hands together. “But we should start slow and ramp things up. Start with her taking two of us.”
Finn smirks. “Are we going to try DP or hold off until she’s a little more experienced with anal?”
It’s a valid question. She doesn’t seem to be sore from anything, but if we take it too far, she might need some recovery time. Or decide she doesn’t like something.
“How is this going to work after today?” Wyatt rubs the back of his neck. “We’re going to be working and living with her and you’re—” He gestures to Drew. “Going to date her?”
Drew spreads his arms along the back of his chair and grins. “More than happy to take my princess out to wine and dine her. Afterward, we can see where the night takes us.”
Wyatt’s jaw ticks. He could never have her to himself in his mind. In any of ours really. After all, how could I sit back and watch Wyatt take her without my insides being torn to pieces? Yes, I want her happy, but that doesn’t mean I’d enjoy her being happy without me.
“It’s not like we can all date her.” I clasp my hands between my knees. “It’d get back to her mother fairly quick. Sara may not care about her reputation, but I do.”
They all nod their understanding. Sara’s always been a wildcard, but she plays well in society and doesn’t make waves. If this arrangement were to get out, her reputation would be in shambles.
If Tom doesn’t kill us all for fucking her, he would for that. His family’s reputation has always come first with Tom, which is why he didn’t want Wyatt with Sara. Besides the kink, Wyatt could make waves that would drown her.
“Then we’ll figure out a way to keep this all under wraps.”