Chapter 30
Oh my God. What was Haley doing here? I couldn’t do this. Not in front of her. What if Leia said no? I had to abort this plan now! This was a bad idea.
But then I saw Leia striding toward me with a purposeful look on her face, and my excitement kicked into high gear. When we locked eyes, nothing was more right. This was where I was supposed to be and what I wanted to do.
“Hey,” she whispered in that husky voice of hers that made my insides liquefy.
“Hey, yourself. I see you solved the puzzle?”
“I did, but I wasn’t sure if this was going to be a good ending or not. I owe you an apology.” She smiled sadly, and I hated that she was holding on to those emotions.
“An apology for what? You didn’t do anything wrong. This was sort of my way of showing you I was sorry.”
She shook her head. “What did you do wrong? I didn’t let you in on what I was going through, and that was why I had been so quiet.”
“Because you were upset about the wedding stuff?” I probed, but she appeared confused.
“What wedding stuff?” Her response gave me pause.
“What were you talking about?”
“We can talk about my stuff later. Did you at least get my flowers?”
I was lost: “Her stuff,” “flowers.” None of that made sense to me.
“No. I was planning this, so I have been running around. But sit with me?” I laced my fingers with hers, and she brought my hand to her lips, kissing the back of it.
As we sat down, the comfort inside of me soared. Being with her in this place was like a never-ending dream, a perfect forever.
“You are so breathtaking,” she exhaled as she rested her forehead on mine. “I can’t believe how lucky I am to have found you.”
“Technically, I found you,” I teased, but I understood what she meant.
“This was the sweetest thing anyone has ever done for me. Since you didn’t get my gift, you wouldn’t realize I was planning on making you a nice dinner to make up for missing out yesterday.”
“You don’t need to make anything up to me. But I’m not going to say no to dinner if that’s still on the table. But I do have something I want to talk about first. If you don’t mind.”
She smiled at me and nodded. “You can talk to me about anything, Blake. I want us always to be open and honest.”
I stared directly into her gray eyes that had stolen my heart lifetimes over. “Lay, there is nothing I wouldn’t do for you.” I started and thought about getting down on one knee, but this dress was for seducing, not proposing, so I’d have to improvise. “Do you mind standing up for this?”
She cocked her head to the side before agreeing and getting to her feet. I kept hold of her hand, even though mine was now shaking. I stared up at her as she questioningly gazed down at me.
“So…” My heart was like a woodpecker beating at my chest. I counted to ten backward, trying to slow my pulse. “Lay, we’ve lived lifetimes together in our dreams. And, at the time, it made me jealous. I saw how happy we were in those visions, and I wanted that in this life, but I’d never felt that before—ever.” I exhaled those negative thoughts.
“But that changed when I met you. Not only was I happy, but I was whole. It wasn’t that you completed me. It was that you helped me to be better. I love the person I am when I’m with you. And that was something I struggled with my entire life.” This was getting too deep, and I needed to bring the focus back to us.
“My parents made me believe marriage was a farce—something of a chore. And I never wanted that because I didn’t want anyone beholden to me out of obligation. But what I realized is we aren’t my parents. If we stand up in front of our friends and family to tell them we’re spending the rest of our lives together, it’s because we want to, not because we need to.”
“Blake?” Leia stared at me expectantly, and I was getting ahead of myself.
“I’m saying I want to wear a gorgeous dress and have you in a sleek tux and tell the entire world that you’re mine and I’m yours, and we are spending eternity together. So, Leia Rain Carlson, would you stand up in front of our family and friends and make them so jealous of what we have together?”
I reached in between my breasts, and I saw Leia’s eyes go wide as they followed my hand. I smirked as I pulled out the ring I had tucked inside my bra and held it up to her finger.
“What do you say? Would you be up for this ride with me in this life?” My hand was shaking as she locked eyes on the ring.
She didn’t move or speak, and I was thinking I over shot. What if it was too soon? Maybe I should have waited longer than one day after saying I love you. But nothing about this relationship went by average timelines.
Finally, she sat back down but still didn’t take the ring from me. As defeat coursed through my body, she grabbed my face and pressed her hungry lips to mine. She kissed me so fervently that I almost dropped the ring, but I didn’t care. I wanted to take it all in—to take her all in.
After what seemed like hours of making out, she eventually pulled away, catching her breath.
“Blake, I can’t for one second tell you how much you mean to me.” She kissed me again, but she didn’t let me get lost in it this time. “I’m sorry I was absent yesterday and ducked after lunch. I should have told you I was dealing with some disappointing news at work, but I kept it to myself. And then Haley needed me, and I was wrapped up in her drama. All I wanted the entire time was to be with you because you are the calm in my storm. And I want to be your co-pilot on this journey. I trust you to take the wheel, and I’ll follow your lead.” She glanced at the ring again and smiled.
“So, that’s a ‘yes’?” I moved the ring closer to her finger.
“It’s without a shadow of a doubt, yes. I want you for as long as I can have you.”
I slid the ring onto her finger. “Forever. You can have me forever.” I leaned in and kissed her soft and slow before pulling back. “I don’t want to be presumptuous, but would you like to celebrate this special event at my place? Possibly in my bedroom?”
She jumped off the bench, taking me with her. “My house is closer. Let’s go.”
We barely made it to Leia’s room before her mouth was on my neck, and her fingers were unzipping my dress.
“God, I’ve wanted you for so long, Blake.”
She moved her lips to my collarbone as she slipped the strap down my shoulder. My eyes rolled skyward, and my body went weak in her arms, but she held me tightly against her so I wouldn’t fall. Her fingers trailed down my back, which caused a ripple of goosebumps in their wake.
“I’m going to take your bra off. Are you okay with that?” She tipped her head down to make eye contact with me. All I could do was nod, but she kept staring. “Blake, I want to make sure this is what you want. Please say the words.”
“Take me,” were the only words that came out, and that was the green light she needed because, within seconds, I was standing there in my panties. My dress and bra were lying in the chair beside her bed, and she appeared ready to pounce.
Her lips were back on my neck and moving down to my chest before I noticed she was still clothed.
“Babe, why aren’t you naked?”
She stopped devouring me and ripped her shirt over her head. After she unsnapped her bra, she let them both fall to the floor. My eyes widened as I stared at her small but scrumptious breasts. This grabbed my attention, and my mouth couldn’t stay away.
She let out a slight moan, and my hands made their way to the button of her pants. I moved my mouth down to her stomach as I dropped to my knees and slid her jeans down to her ankles. I gazed up, and her breathing was irregular while she stepped out of her pants, kicking them to the side.
I gently traced my fingers up her legs until I was tickling the inside of her thigh. She was still in her boy shorts, and I ran my tongue lightly over the middle of her wetness, making her knees shake a little. The expression on her face was one I wanted to burn into my mind forever. Her eyes were closed, and her mouth was slightly open as she stuttered something I couldn’t make out.
“What was that?” I licked harder this time, and she ran her fingers through the back of my hair, holding my head in place.
“I said more,” she exhaled between ragged breaths.
“Oh, babe. I’ll give you anything you want.” I hooked my fingers in the waistband of her underwear and pulled them down while my thumbs brushed against her center. She shuddered, then discarded them with the rest of her clothes. “Will you lie down?” I asked.
She scooted until her legs hit the edge of the bed and pushed herself onto her back but stayed reclined on her elbows, watching my every move.
“Flip over?” I said it as a question, but it was more of a demand.
She did so without complaint, and I trailed my tongue from her calf up to her ass and gave it a playful bite. She squirmed a little, but I had a feeling she liked it. As I continued moving up her body, I lightly dug my nails into her back, dragging them all the way to her hair. She moaned as I tugged her head to the side to make room for me to nibble on her neck.
Then, I took this opportunity to claim her mouth with mine. My tongue danced with hers as I tightened my grip on her hair. Finally, I released my hold, and she flipped onto her back. I was now astride her front, and I would take full advantage. With my soaked panties, I was grinding against her wetness.
“Blake, I’m ready. Can you take off your thong?” She had lust in her eyes, and I was ready, too.
I did as she asked and then lowered myself onto her. Having her body against mine without a barrier between us was better than anything I could have imagined. I wanted all of her at once, but I also wanted to savor this moment because this would be the only first time we would get.
I slowly spread her legs and glided one finger inside as I continued rubbing against her. When I was getting ready to add another finger, she moved underneath me.
“I love you. And I love that you’re taking your time, but I need you—now!”
She swiftly removed my hand before flipping me on my back. She had tugged me to the edge of the bed with my legs hanging off before I realized what was happening. When I looked down and saw her between my legs, my pulse took off at a rapid speed. When she brought her mouth to my center, I thought I might pass out.
My God, her tongue was like magic. She was inside me before licking between my folds, then darting back and forth across my clit. My brain couldn’t register the pleasure fast enough before she was on to the next spot. When she reached over to her nightstand, pulled out a small pink vibrator, and turned it on, I tensed in anticipation. I wasn’t sure my body would handle much more stimulation.
But she started with my inner thighs, gently teasing a ticklish spot while continuing to work me with her tongue. Then she moved it to my opening and barely put it in. I bucked my hips, urging her to go deeper, but she tsked me like I was an insolent child.
What the fuck happened to now? But I let her stay in control.
“Do you want me to fuck you, Blake?”
My eyes popped open. I liked where this was going.
“Yes.”
“Yes, what? I need you to say it.”
“I want you to fuck me, Leia. I want you to fuck me until I don’t remember my own name.”
“I can arrange that.” She was off, pushing the vibrator deep inside me as she continued sucking my clit. Her free hand held my hips down as if she could tell I would float away if she didn’t. As she moved the toy in and out harder and faster, my lids fluttered shut. “Open your eyes. I want you to look at me when you come.”
Bossy—I liked it. I willed my eyes open as spots danced around, but I focused on her as she played my body like a violin, using her tongue as the bow. I reached behind her head and tugged her hair a little. She smirked as she continued pleasing me.
When she went even faster, I couldn’t hold off any longer—pleasure ripped through me like waves, and I was screaming her name. I forced my gaze to stay locked on her, and I said, “I love you,” as I was coming down from the best orgasm I’d ever had in my life.
She removed the vibrator but continued to indulge me with her mouth until my breathing leveled out. Then she started kissing my stomach, up my rib cage, until she reached my nipple, where she swirled her tongue around. Finally, taking it into her mouth, she lightly bit and sucked until my body was involuntarily responding with a throbbing between my legs again.
She continued her journey and was now fully on top of me with my lower lip between her teeth.
“Do you know how good you taste? I’m going to need to do that again in the very near future.” Before I could respond, her tongue was on mine, and I was lost in the thought of having this woman for the rest of my life.
I had no idea what I did to deserve this level of happiness, but I was looking forward to many more lifetimes together.