Chapter 14
CHAPTER 14
VIREN
S he took me by surprise.
One moment, we were glaring at each other, and the next minute, Sunaina pressed her soft lips against mine. I knew I should draw back, but for the life of me, I couldn’t.
I stood still for a few seconds to give her time to change her mind if she wanted to, and when she deepened the kiss instead of pulling away, I threw caution to the wind and kissed her back. I teased the seam of her lips, and when they parted in invitation, I sent my tongue in to play with hers. Sunaina started at the first stroke of my tongue against hers, making me wonder if she had never been kissed before. I gently sucked on her tongue, and she moaned in reply.
The little sound sent the blood roaring to my dick, and I kissed her harder until we were both breathless. She pulled away to catch a breath, and I stared down at her. Her hair was all over the place. Her eyes were shut, her skin flushed, and her lips plump and swollen. Sunaina had never looked more beautiful.
I reached out and stroked her lower lip with my thumb, and she opened her eyes slowly. She read the regret in mine and drew back hastily. I caught her by the elbow before she fell off the bed, but she shook my hand off.
“I’m…I’m sorry,” she whispered, going pale. “I thought…”
She broke off and looked away, her face suffused with shame.
“You thought right,” I said hoarsely. “I do want you. More than you’ll ever know, wifey.”
She licked her lips nervously and still wouldn’t meet my eyes.
“Then why...?” she began and broke off without finishing her question, as she allowed her hair to fall over her face, obscuring her from my view.
“Why did I stop?”
She nodded slightly.
“Because I might be many things, but I’m not the sort of man who takes advantage of a woman,” I replied. “I cannot make love to you, knowing there’s no future in this. I refuse to lead you on and raise expectations I can’t fulfil, Sunaina.”
She nodded stiffly in reply, and I got out of bed. There was no way I could sleep next to her in this state. I needed a long, cold shower if I had to make it through the night.
I was almost in the bathroom when she spoke.
“I’ve never done this before,” she said softly, and I froze with my hand on the door.
“Done what?” I asked carefully, without turning around.
“Made love to a man,” she replied, and I groaned under my breath, my hand clenching around the handle. “Or even kissed one.”
Fuck me, she was a virgin! It shouldn’t have mattered, but it did. Sunaina didn’t know what she was doing to me. The fact that I was her first kiss made me feel about twelve feet tall and gutted me at the same time. I knew the significance of what she was offering. But it made it all the more important that I didn’t lead her on.
“I have nothing to offer you,” I said harshly. “Except sex.”
I heard her get off the bed and walk towards me, and I turned around to face her.
“Do you want me?” she asked bluntly.
“What do you think?” I replied sarcastically.
“Let’s leave the power games out of this, Viren. As you can see, I have absolutely no experience with these games. I’ve never played them. I’m asking you to be honest with me if you’re not attracted to me because when it comes to sex, I’m not good at reading between the lines. And it’s absolutely fine if you say you don’t want me,” she said, her head held high.
But I could read the vulnerability coming off loud and clear. It was evident in the way she held herself, with her arms crossed over her chest defensively. She was bracing herself for a rejection. God! This woman was going to be the death of me, I thought, running a hand over my face wearily.
“I don’t want your pity,” she added sharply.
I let out a bitter laugh.
“Trust me, wifey. Pity is the last thing on my mind right now. I’m trying to remember why I decided to be a gentleman while my body is raging at me for being a fucking fool.”
She shrugged lightly, and her t-shirt slid off her shoulder, revealing the smooth skin underneath.
“You’ve never behaved like a gentleman with me before, so why start now?” she quipped. “But it’s fine. You don’t need an excuse for not wanting me. I’m going to bed now.”
She turned away from me stiffly, and something inside me exploded.
“Are you fucking blind?” I roared, furious with her for refusing to see how much I wanted her. It was all very well for me to be noble about not taking advantage of her, but I couldn’t understand why she kept telling herself I didn’t want her. How could I not want her when she was sheer perfection?
She whirled around in anger.
“Don’t yell at me, Viren Chaudhry!”
“Then stop talking utter nonsense, Sunaina Chaudhry,” I retorted. “I’m not saying no because I don’t want you. I’m trying to do the right thing!”
“Fuck doing the right thing,” she yelled. “I’m sick and tired of always doing the right thing! I’m sick of always being good.”
“All right, then,” I whispered, grabbing her hand and pulling her into my arms. “Let’s be bad. Let’s be very, very bad.”