25. Ryker #2
“You’re not the only one with secrets, Ryker.” She looked up at me with clear eyes and a smile on her face. “You might realize one day that you can’t underestimate me. Anywho, you found out about Operation Condor. I found out about the code.”
“You might realize one day that I never did underestimate you,” I said, and she looked away then, something in her eyes changing, making me think that she had something to hide.
“So, do I get a closet?” She changed the subject, and as much as I wanted to stop her and tell her I would like to go back to how she knew the combination, I didn’t.
“A closet?” I grinned at her. “You want a whole closet?”
“Well, I guess a drawer could do.” She rolled her eyes at me. “And I’ll just live out of my suitcases for the next four weeks.”
“What did you bring with you?” I asked, wondering what on earth she had thought to pack for four weeks.
“Clothes, toiletries, books, my laptop, makeup, bubble bath?—”
“Bubble bath?” I interrupted her, surprised. “You know I have bubble bath, right? Or that I can buy more if I run out.”
“I like the bubble bath I buy. It’s a cantaloupe melon scent, and it leaves the skin really soft.”
“Okay, so that’s definitely for you, then.” I laughed. “I don’t want to smell of melon.”
“It’s amazing.” She pouted. “Don’t knock it until you try it.”
“That’s fine. I’ll smell you.”
“That sounds so creepy.” She giggled, pulled two throw pillows from one of her bags, and placed them on the bed. “They match the sheets.” She grinned impishly at me as she saw me looking at the pillows.
“Uh-huh,” I said and then teased her. “No teddy bears as well?”
“Nah. Maybe I’ll move them in next week, once I see how everything works out.”
“Uh-huh.” I shook my head and laughed. “I’m hungry. Wanna grab a bite?”
“Yes.” She nodded eagerly. “What’re you making?”
“Oh.” I paused. “I thought you would make something, now that you’re here.”
“What am I? A housewife?” She looked at me with wide eyes. “Here to cook your meals and service you?”
“I wouldn’t say no.” I winked at her, and her jaw dropped. “But no, that’s not why you’re here.” I shook my head. “And I was joking about the food. I actually have stuff.”
“Oh?”
“I bought some tomato soup at the deli last night, and I have stuff for grilled cheese sandwiches. I remember you always loved soup and grilled cheese.”
“Good memory.” She smiled happily. “Sounds yummy. Let’s go make ’em. I can help.”
“Oh?”
“I’ll heat the soup.” She laughed as we walked to the kitchen. “You can impress me with your grilled-cheese-making skills.”
“Well, you know I have so many skills. I don’t want to be showing off all of them.”
“I think it’s okay.” She patted me on the arm. “I think you won’t get a big head.”
“I’m not going to say what I was going to say because you’re a lady.” I winked at her, and she punched me in the arm.
“You’re a pervert.”
“And you love that about me.”
“Maybe, maybe not,” she said, a look of warmth in her eyes as she looked at me.
I laughed, my eyes taking in every detail of her face.
The curve of her lips, so luscious and pink, the twinkle in her eye as she gazed at me in something akin to delight.
Her skin was glowing, and I could see how happy she was.
In fact, my whole body could feel it, because I felt the same way.
We were so at ease with one another. Our spirits flowed together.
It felt natural being with Mila. She was the only person I ever truly felt comfortable with.
She made me feel like I could just be myself.
All of me, in every way. There was no facade.
There was no trying. I could tell my goofy jokes.
I could be rude, fun, silly, sad, quiet, whatever, and she always got me.
I’d never really thought about that before.
I’d never really thought about just how easy it was with her.
“What do you want to do later?”
“I don’t know.” She shrugged. “Maybe talk about the business stuff?” She made a face.
“Exactly what I’m doing as your four-week fiancée?
” she asked me and looked into my eyes so earnestly.
It always came back to this. While I sometimes forgot exactly what we were doing, I knew I could never really forget.
Not when the truth of the matter was so very dark and deep.
My heart sank, and my energy sapped as I realized that this comfortable feeling with Mila might soon be something of the past.
“Eh, do we really want to talk about business?” I asked her in a casual tone, my heart sinking.
“I guess not.” She shrugged. “What about Parker and Barbie? Do you know what’s going on with them?”
“What do you mean, what’s going on?” I opened the fridge door to take out the bread, butter, and an assortment of cheeses.
“Are they still seeing each other?” she asked curiously.
“I didn’t know they were seeing each other,” I said carefully, studying the cheese packets closely.
“Well, they had sex.” Mila sounded disgusted. “So I’m curious if that’s still going on? I wanted to have Parker and Lara over for dinner, but not if he’s going to bring that ho.”
“Are you trying to match-make them?” I looked at Mila questioningly. “Are you sure that’s a good idea? I mean, Parker seems to be all over the place right now.”
“Lara is too good for Parker.” Mila nodded. “He’s my brother, and I love him, but when he had sex with Barbie, I could have killed him. She’s such a skanky bitch.”
“Mila.” I shook my head at her.
“What?” She glared at me. “It’s true. And I blame you for bringing her that weekend.”
“It’s not my fault that Parker slept with her.
” I didn’t want to talk about this. The more we talked about Barbie, the worse I felt.
Mila didn’t know how I really knew Barbie and, at this point, even if I wanted to tell her, I couldn’t.
There had been too many lies. Too much deceit.
I knew that Mila wouldn’t understand, especially seeing as I couldn’t tell her everything that was going on.
But I also knew that she would find out eventually.
Eventually the truth would come out, and everything around me would come crashing down.
My stomach churned as I thought about how Mila would react when she learned the truth.
I could already see the pain and hurt in her eyes, maybe even anger and hatred.
She’d never forgive me, that I knew for sure.
And I didn’t know if I’d ever forgive myself either.
But I’d come so far. Too far. I was in it now.
I was a man of my word. I had to follow through.
I wondered then if I could go back in time, if I would still have agreed to the plan.
At the time, it had seemed quite harmless.
I hadn’t thought that it was anything more than a business transaction, but then I hadn’t been thinking with anything other than my head.
Things had changed now. There was a part of me that couldn’t stop thinking about how much I was hurting Mila, and she didn’t even know.
I was ashamed of myself. I was a predator, taking what I wanted without any regard to my prey.
I was the top of the food chain. I was king.
And I didn’t like who I was with all that power. I was a despot—a despicable person.