Chapter Fourteen
Vee
It was brutal not to let myself come when Nate choked so beautifully on my dick. But like every orgasm I’d ever had, this was a conscious choice. My body screamed to give in to the mind-blowing pleasure he wrung out of me.
“Oh fuck, I need to come,” I groaned.
Our eyes met. Nate’s were dark with arousal, half-hidden behind wet lashes, and mine blurred with pounding need. I cupped his face, thumbs brushing his cheekbones as I lost myself in the heat of his gaze.
Don’t let me disappear into this. Not again. Not after losing him. Give me something to hold on to, Frat Boy... Keep me here.
His tiny nod of encouragement and his mouth sucking me to the back of his throat made me lose control. I threw a hand out to steady myself.
I can’t hurt him.
“Oh Gott, Frat Boy, that was…Fuck, so gut.“ I stumbled over the language sections in my brain, tearing down all barriers.
He took one more swallow around my cock buried deep in his throat and I let go. I came so hard I flooded his mouth with my cum.
Nate took it all. He drank it down, then sucked on my slit to draw out every drop I had to give. Then he licked me all over.
Fuck.
No one had ever done that before, and I was…glad about it. We experienced this for the first time together.
“I love your taste, Vee,” he sighed, gazing dreamily at my half-hard cock before running his nose down the length to nuzzle the feathers at my base. “And your scent.” He cursed. You smell so fucking good.”
The more I came to my senses, the more my conscience kicked in.
Holy shit, what have I done?
“Get up, Nate, please.” I grabbed him under his arms and helped him stand, and groaned when he plastered his slick body to mine.
I wanted to drag him into my arms and conquer his mouth again.
But fuck, why the hell did I think it was okay to let him blow me?
Shame flooded my insides like my cum had moments ago—
Don’t even fucking go there.
Then, unbidden, another’s face swam before my eyes.
He’s not coming back and Nate is here and…
He was entirely at my mercy and I? I made him go down on me.
Gods, I had to be the shittiest person on the planet.
I groaned and covered my face with my hands.
“Vee?” Nate’s fingers ran up my forearms. His fingers wrapped around my wrists. I could have resisted—his strength was no match for mine—but I let him pry my hands away.
Every moment I didn’t look at him was wasted. I wanted to stay here in my shower and just look at this man.
What, by the trees, is happening to me?
Nate’s eyes searched my face.
“Are you… Shit, you didn’t want me to do that, did you?” He let go of me and stepped back, hitting the glass door with his back. The panic in his eyes reminded me of a caged animal. “I’m—” His hands dropped to his sides. “I’m so sorry.”
I followed him, caging him even more. Against everything I knew was right, I pulled him into a hug. His cheek pressed into the wet feathers over my pecs as he let me hold him there.
“Don’t apologise,” I whispered. “It’s me who should apologise. I shouldn’t have used you like that.”
“What?” Nate’s eyes flew open and he leaned back. I hated every inch of space he brought between us. It felt wrong to be apart from him.
Unease curled in the pit of my stomach. I’d never taken the lore around my people seriously.
People talked, and over the decades and centuries it was more like a game of whisper down the lane than anything.
It couldn’t be true. We didn’t—. Nate might have trapped me but that did not make us mates. I refused to accept it.
“Use me? Fuck, Vee, that was the hottest blowjob of my life, and it wasn’t even my own dick getting sucked!” He scooted closer, back under the warm water, and wrapped his arms around my waist. “I don’t know what’s happening between us, but I loved it.”
“Me too,” I muttered into his wet hair. No, we didn’t. This was nothing more than instant, scorching want between, judging by the way he clung to me, two touch-starved men.
“Want to take me to your bed, Vee?” Nate looked up at me. A sweet smile sat on his soft lips.
“For what?” I asked. Because I needed to hear him say it.
His smile turned into a dirty smirk and he had the audacity to bite his lip. “Oh, I’m sure we’ll think of something.”