15. Mateo
CHAPTER 15
MATEO
I don’t know what made me do it. Okay, that was a lie. Thoughts of Zach had just consumed me lately, and here he was, in all his beauty, hard and ready to spill. It was like my fingers flipped a switch inside of me last night.
Technically, I had these feelings for a while. Maybe my whole life? But it was just now that I was finally acknowledging them. When Zach grabbed my hair – his hard cock erupting inside my mouth – it was a weird feeling, but still really good.
Holy bucket loads!
Zach came so much, and I tried to swallow what I could–wanting to impress him–but I was perhaps a little too eager in my decision-making process. A lot of it spilled out of my mouth and dripped down my chin.
I could tell the moment Zach’s orgasm let his brain take back over.
“Oh my God, oh my God. What is happening?”
And not gonna lie, I started to wonder the same thing, but before he totally lost it, I said, “It’s okay, Zach. I knew what I was doing. ”
We made eye contact, but his gaze dropped to my chin and I watched his eyes move back and forth a little.
“What is it?” I asked.
“You, uh…have some of my cum dangling.”
I smiled and wiped it off. I thought it might kill him if I licked it off, so I just smeared it on my fingers. “Thanks.”
“So…”
I couldn’t help but glance down at his softening erection. At its largest, it was way bigger than mine, maybe twice the size. It seemed his lecture about growers and showers earlier in the semester was personal. I wanted to say good things do come in small packages, but I didn’t want this to be any more awkward than it already was, so instead I asked if he wanted to shower.
Zach nodded, then immediately turned and bent over to unplug the tub. I took a long look at his bare ass since I had only ever seen it for a second or two before, then walked over to turn the water on for us.
I pulled off my shirt and dropped my pants, so it was just a thong I was wearing when Zach realized I was taking my clothes off.
“To-together?”
“Yup.” How else was I getting the cum off of me?
“Jake, are you forcing him to do this?”
“I’m doing this by choice, Zach.” I rolled my eyes, took the thong off and walked over to grab his hand. “Come on.”
He shivered, wet from the tub, which made me happy I had already warmed the water up. I was rewarded with a sigh once the water hit his back, and then his brain kicked in again. “And you’re enjoying this?”
At the head across from him, I thought it was obvious, but it seemed not. I pointed to my hard dick as evidence. I had never seen Zach turn that color, but it was adorable. I also noticed his dick wasn’t getting smaller anymore either.
“Does this mean you’re…you know? ”
“Gay?” I finished for him. I shrugged. “I don’t know what I am, but I do know that I think your body is smoking hot, that I liked it when you came down my throat, and we’ve been best friends since forever. I’d hope that’d be enough to get you to take this seriously. I don’t know what I’m doing really, but I know I really like it.”
Fuck it.
I crossed the few feet that separated us and wrapped my arms around him, our lips were inches apart. “I’d like to kiss you, Zach. Will you let me?”
Zach’s eyes were wide. I didn’t mean to sword fight but that’s what our dicks were doing. I watched as he licked his lips and met my stare, waiting for him to say something, but he couldn’t find the words. He nodded and that was all I needed.
Now, I had a few kisses in my past, but none of them compared to this. His muscular arms circling my waist to keep our balance, the stubble on his freshly-shaven chin scraping mine, the whole thing was different. Charged. Powerful. Like, if gravity was just a little less forceful our tongues would’ve propelled us out of the room and into space. The neediness of it.
And then when I dropped one hand down and found his hard dick nestled against mine and grabbed hold of it, he moaned, and it made me want to give him everything he ever wanted. He had been there for me whenever I needed him and all I could think of was how to make him feel as special.
I broke the kiss first. “I want to take you out tonight. On a date.”
“Really?”
“Of course. Can you try to be excited about this?”
“I am excited. It just kind of…came out of nowhere, I guess.”
I ignored the obvious joke about coming out of nowhere, and said, “Well, you yourself said we’d been seeing each other naked more now than ever. That was like subliminal messaging.”
“So seeing me naked all the time turned you on to me? ”
“No. That sounds seedy. Seeing you naked all the time and having a ghost get me all horny just gave me the wake-up call I needed.”
“Wait. How was Jake getting you horny?”
Shit. I can’t believe I said that. “For instance, last night-”
“When you fingered yourself?”
“You saw that?!” Now it was my turn to be hesitant.
“Don’t get bashful now, Teo, you’ve already swallowed my cum.” He held my chin in place with his thumb and finger.
“Speaking of, what’s your refractory period?” I adjusted my grip, taking his balls in my hand to massage them.
“Hey now! How about this date first? What kind of boy do you think I am?”
“A nice boy with a big dick.”
Zach shrugged, laughed, and let me fondle him some more until we were both completely clean and hard as fuck.
I took Zach to Thai and Mighty, the fanciest restaurant in town that wasn’t suit-and-tie fancy. Despite the traditional Thai cuisine, the atmosphere was modern, complete with a gas-powered fireplace in the center of the dining room. I knew it was one of Zach’s favorite places.
“I’m glad I paid attention to what you were wearing.”
“So you were watching me?” I asked.
“Honestly? I haven’t taken my eyes off of you since, you know. I’m still a little-”
“Flattered?”
Zach smiled. “Surprised.” He continued, “I didn’t think you were attracted to guys.” He glanced around to make sure no one had heard.
“I don’t mind other people knowing. I’m not hiding this.” I reached across the table to grab his fingers, stroking them gently. “ And to be honest with you, I don’t think I’m attracted to guys . I’m attracted to you.”
“You’re not attracted to guys? I don’t understand.”
“Well, I’m not gonna go around and get naked with everyone to see if I am. I know I’m attracted to you. Isn’t that enough?”
The server brought our drinks and took our food order.
Zach took a sip of his ginger beer, then asked, “But what about the porn? Weren’t you attracted to those guys?”
“I was imagining we were doing that.”
“Oh.”
“Have you accepted the defense of my gay dissertation yet?” I said with a smile.
Zach met my gaze. “It’s just…I’ve liked you for so long, this doesn’t seem real.”
“Just liked me, or liked me liked me?” I was thankful that my teasing brought a smile to his face, so I continued, “We’ve known each other our whole lives, Zach. There’s no one I’m closer with or have shared more secrets with. Now we just share something else.”
“It’s just that simple?”
“It is for me.”
“And you’re sure Jake didn’t somehow make you feel this way?”
“I thought about that on the drive over here, and I think this was what he was trying to do all along. He talked about you quite a bit. I think he was trying to get me to notice what a good couple we would make. But I don’t really know for sure, so we can ask him if you want?”
“Okay.”
“But it’s not going to change anything. I want to be with you.”
“Like a boyfriend?”
“Yes! Of course, like a boyfriend!”
“Well, you hadn’t said that yet and we kind of started with a blowjob-”
“It was like five seconds, Zach. I‘m not professionally gay, but I don’t think that really counts as a blowjob, and what do you mean we started with a blowjob, we started nineteen years ago!”
The server arrived with our food and I hoped to God she hadn’t heard the part about blowjobs. Once the server left, Zach continued, “So you are gay?”
I shrugged, sticking my fork into a plump rangoon. “It’s the easiest label for now. I know I’m attracted to you and that’s what matters to me in this moment.”
“You’re right, you know. I’ve always been attracted to you. I knew in the sixth grade that my feelings for you were more than friendship.”
I didn’t know why I hadn’t seen it sooner. “But you never told me.”
“What was I gonna do, Teo? Say, ‘Hey, we’ve been best friends forever. By the way, I have a huge crush on you. Let’s make out.’?” He took another sip and continued, “When should I have said that? The homework sessions? The vacations? The sleepovers?”
“I don’t know, Zach. I’m just upset that it took this long for us to get here.”
“You’re telling me!”
“So…” He was avoiding eye contact and pushing his rice around with his fork. “Where do we go from here?”
I thought about that for a minute.
“I don’t think we need to rush anything. I certainly wouldn’t put our hormones in charge, but maybe we can pull back the throttle a little and have some sexy snuggle time tonight?”
Sexy snuggle time tonight? Where the fuck did I pull that from?
Zach laughed. “I think I’m gonna like this side of you, Teo.”