Scout
When I thought things couldn’t get worse
he walked through the door
If you would’ve stayed
I could’ve survived
But here he is
proving that all I am, all I ever will be
is a broken shell of the girl
you left behind
That night
you took a part of me with you
And I haven't seen her since
I’ll never see her again
He’s here and you’re not
and I hate him for it
I hate myself
All I want is to hear your voice
smell your perfume on your clothes, not from the bottle
But you’re never coming back
and I’m in some strange town with trees instead of buildings
and dirt roads instead of alleys
and all I want is to be in that little apartment,
pretending like we had all the time in the world
all the money in the world
But now I do
He does
The money, the power, the time
and you’re not here for any of it
He’s here
You’re not
I’m lost, Mom
I don’t know what to do
The anger inside me is festering
I feel like it’s about to explode
but all I can do
is sit on my new bed, in my new room, in my new house
and think of you