THIRTY-EIGHT
CHAPTER
Two days after the opening. Two mornings of Jonah sleeping late, waking only to take his meds, then going back to bed.
Two days of him hanging around, skimming Facebook on his phone, hardly saying a word to me, or watching mindless noise on TV.
Two days of increasing tension between us that had no source, but that scared me to my bones.
On the third day, Jonah and I had breakfast at Baby Stacks café, a pancake house off the Strip.
It had been my habit to order the same types of food Jonah ate, partially out of solidarity, but also because I ultimately felt healthier.
Everything I had done since moving to Vegas had been better for my health, mental and physical.
The waitress came to take our order.
“I’ll have an egg-white omelet…” I began.
“Jesus, Kace, get pancakes if you want them,” Jonah said. “Order whatever you want.” His smile came a little too late. “They have killer pancakes.”
I stared as he turned to the waitress. “I’ll have a short stack, decaf, and a side of house fries.”
“House fries are too greasy,” I said.
He handed his menu to the waitress, not looking at me. “One order can’t hurt.”
I ordered the egg-white omelet with a side of fruit and coffee. The waitress took our menus and left. Jonah’s eyes were on the table, brows furrowed as he rolled his spoon between his palms, like a mini blowpipe.
“Hey,” I said softly.
It took me three tries of saying his name before he looked up.
“Sorry, Kace, what’s up?”
“You tell me. You’ve been running hot and cold lately.”
“Have I?”
“Yeah, you have. I feel dizzy trying to keep up.”
He wilted a little and reached across the table to take my hand. “I’m sorry. I’m a little distracted lately. I’m not used to so much time off. I don’t know what to do with myself. I guess it’s making me a little irritable.”
Yes, okay. That makes sense .
I squeezed his hand. “Why not go to the hot shop anyway? Make something just for you?”
He shrugged and muttered something that sounded like, “Maybe,” and took his hand back.
Silence.
“Tania told me three different galleries want your installation,” I finally said. “London, Paris and New York. That’s the trifecta of the art world, isn’t it?”
“Why, because Vegas isn’t good enough?” He waved a hand. “It’s glass. How they think they can move it across the ocean is beyond me, but they can try.”
I sat back in my chair, feeling as if I were having breakfast with a stranger. Or worse, my father.
Ten more minutes of silence squeezed by before our food arrived.
I picked at my omelet; my appetite had disappeared.
Jonah stared at his plate of food and finally forked one wedge of potato.
I watched from under my eyelashes as he chewed it slowly, as if it were a lump of gray clay.
He swallowed hard and washed it down with sip of water. Then he pushed his entire plate away.
“Guess I’m not that hungry.”
After what I would forever call the Worst Breakfast Ever, we headed to Vegas Ink. I wanted a new tattoo and had set up time to visit Theo’s studio and see his work.
Jonah said almost nothing on the drive over. But just when the silence was beginning to be oppressive, he suddenly found his smile, took my hand and pressed it to his lips.
Vegas Ink was located at a mini mall just off the Strip.
Its walls were fire engine red and covered in framed examples of the tattoo artists’ work there.
The chairs were overstuffed faux leather, also in red, and three artists were bent over their clients, Theo among them.
The buzz of the needles was almost drowned out by heavy metal blasting over the sound system.
A receptionist with a shaved head told us she’d let Theo know we were here.
We took a seat in the waiting area, which was really nothing more than an upholstered bench near the front door, facing a wall of photographs.
Past clients revealed fresh tattoos, their skin still raised red.
Jonah sank heavily onto the bench and picked up an issue of Inked magazine.
“Any idea what you’re going to get?” he asked. It was the first time he’d voluntarily spoken all morning.
“None,” I said. “But I’m eager to see your brother’s work.”
“He’s talented as hell,” Jonah said. “My father gives him too much shit for it. You’ll see when you check out his portfolio.”
I nodded and waited until Theo rounded the short corner, calling, “Hey, guys.”
The mere fact he sounded upbeat and animated filled me with relief and I all but jumped to my feet. “Hey. Thanks for making the time for me.”
Theo jerked his chin at Jonah. “You coming?”
“You guys go ahead,” Jonah said. “I need to give Eme a call. See what’s happening with the sale pieces.”
“You’re not going to help me pick something?” I asked, incredulous. I forced my smile to go wider. “Or where on my body it should go?”
Behind me, Theo coughed.
“Surprise me,” Jonah said. He pulled out his cell phone, conversation over.
My cheeks burning, I followed Theo to his chair, passing the other artists.
One was a huge, burly guy with a bald, tattooed head, who was putting a feminine spray of violet flowers on a woman’s arm.
The other artist was a young woman in black clothes and heavy makeup.
She had large pale green eyes, almost cartoonish in her petite face.
She looked like a gothic fairy. She gave me a nod as she drew the blood dripping from a fang of a hissing cobra on the back of young man’s calf.
I plunked myself in Theo’s chair and swiped a tissue from the box he used to wipe the blood away.
I dabbed my eyes, but I had no tears. My emotions were too tangled for my body to know what to do, so I sat, anxious and jumpy.
In front of me, Theo leaned against the small, mirrored armoire upon which sat his ink gun, needles, and ink.
“Did you guys have a fight?” he asked in a low voice.
“No,” I said. “Or yes. I mean, maybe I’ve done something to piss him off, but I don’t know. He’s been acting so strange lately. Since the gallery opening.”
Theo’s stony expression hardened but his eyes went the other direction, filling with concern and something that looked close to fear. I realized I was going to scare the crap out of Theo for no good reason and waved my hand quickly.
“You know what? He did say this morning he feels distracted. Without having to be at the hot shop all day, he’s not sure what to do with himself. I think he’s just decompressing. ”
Theo nodded slowly. “Makes sense.”
“Can I see your work now?”
Theo handed me a thick, three-ringed binder, filled with photos and samples of his art. Jonah was right: Theo’s talent was incredible. I’d seen my fair share of tattoos. Each one of my tattoos came from someone different, each was all beautiful and perfect to me.
Theo blew them all away. His book had everything: basic black outline renderings, lettering in any font or script you could want.
Biker tats—roses, skulls and snakes. Lifelike portraits, abstract and complex shapes, dreamscapes, fantastical beasts, pop culture icons.
Page after page of visions. Had I been in a better frame of mind, I could’ve spent hours poring over his work, certain I couldn’t possibly narrow an idea or a concept down.
“You’re amazing, Teddy,” I said. “This is the best I’ve ever seen. I want something no one else has, but you make it hard to narrow it down.”
I want Jonah to smile again.
I shut the binder and handed it back to him. “Let me think about it, okay? I’ll call or text you if I have an idea.”
“Sure,” he said, tossing the binder in the top armoire drawer and shutting it.
“Sorry if I took up your time,” I said, slipping off the chair.
“You didn’t, Kacey,” he said. It was the first time he’d ever said my name.
We headed back to the waiting area. Jonah sat slouched over, swiping his thumb absently over his phone. He looked up when we approached.
“Find something?” he asked.
I plunked down beside him and kissed his cheek. “Not yet. Your brother is so incredibly talented, I have to come up with something worthy of him.”
Theo shook his head, thick arms crossed over his black T-shirt .
“You name it, he can do it,” Jonah said, finally tucking his phone away.
The brothers exchanged glances, Theo’s gaze scrutinizing. “Tonight’s hang out with Dena and Oscar,” he said. “You still down?”
Jonah smirked sourly, an expression so unlike him, I had to blink twice. “No need to keep to any routine now,” he said. “What’s the point? I’ll shoot you a text and let you know.”
Theo’s arms dropped to his sides. “Oscar and Dena are expecting to hang out…”
“I didn’t say no, I said I’d let you know .”
The brothers faced each other down and then Jonah gave himself a shake and a dirty laugh. He got up and walked out the door without so much as a glance for me.
I smiled weakly at Theo. “I’ll talk to you soon.”
He grabbed my arm hard, then loosened his grip but didn’t let go. “If you need me… If he needs me, you call immediately. Okay?”
I started to protest and instead found myself nodding. “Okay,” I said in a small voice.
I left Vegas Ink and climbed into Jonah’s truck, which he had idling in the parking space.
He didn’t look at me when I shut the door, and finally I couldn’t take it anymore.
“What the hell is going on?” I demanded. “You just walk out and leave me there?”
“It’s fucking hot out,” Jonah said. “I came to start the AC.”
“It’s October,” I snapped. “It’s maybe seventy degrees.”
“So, you’ve been here three months and suddenly you’re an expert?”
My eyes widened. He’d never spoken to me like that. Not once. “What happened to you?” I asked. “You’ve been different since the gallery opening. Did something happen? Did Dale Chihuly say something to upset you?”
Jonah shook his head. “No,” he said, his voice softening. “No, nothing like that. He said amazing things about my work… I can’t even remember the words, but I can still feel them, if that makes sense.”