144. Can’t Do It
144
Can’t Do It
B raveheart
I pause a moment as I wrestle with myself. For the first time in my life, I’m a free male. I’ll either die tomorrow and be free, or I’ll win soon and that comes with our freedom. I push out of my head all the lies the guards and medics told us my whole life. I’m a male with a working cock and I deserve to feel the joy of coupling with the female I love.
With all those prohibitions behind me, I step close and envelop Willow in my embrace. I’ll remove her clothes in a minute, just as she requested, but now I’ll kiss her. On my terms.
I know one thing, TGN won’t interrupt what’s going to happen in this tent tonight. It’s bringing in too much revenue. I have all the time I want, and I’m going to make this last.
Lifting her until she straddles me, I pull her tight, our heads at the same level. I tease her lips with mine, diving into the feeling of her.
I want to look at you, you’re so beautiful, but my eyes drift closed when I kiss you.
She says nothing, just opens her mouth to invite me in. When I invade, her taste explodes on my tongue. I memorize every moment—the hard scrape of her teeth, the softest rasp of her tastebuds, the warmth of her welcoming cavern. My cock kicks as I think about her cavern down below.
I haven’t gotten a good night’s sleep since I met you. All I could think about was this.
This? She pulls back and lifts a mocking eyebrow . I imagine you were thinking about more than a few kisses.
She wiggles against me. Her legs are open as she straddles my waist. My cock is hard, pulsing. She’s rubbing her slit against me.
You’re right, I was thinking about many other things, Willow. So many things we could live forever and never get to the end of the list.
But we could try, she says as she slides to place her feet on the floor. Take off these horrible coveralls. I want to see you naked again. I didn’t get a good enough look in the shower earlier.
I love her teasing tone. She wants to make this easy for all of us.
As I press my autozip and remove my clothes, I watch as she does the same. Maybe I was stalling before, feeling clumsy, knowing she’d already been with Valor. Now, something unleashes inside me when I see her standing naked in front of me.
Lifting her, I pick her up and put her on the bed. NOT in the middle. I don’t want to share. I want this female—my female—all to myself. I slide between her legs, my knees pressing upward, opening her as I move. Hunching down, I pull one pink nipple into my mouth and suck.
A lightning bolt of arousal zings to my cock. The feeling is too compelling. For a moment I think I might shoot right here. I only have to wait a moment before I gather enough composure to continue.
Cupping her breast in both palms, making certain my claws are retracted, I pull it toward me and suckle her nipple as I suck and lick, then flick the tender bud.
“Braveheart!” she says on a gasp, her eyes flaring open then slamming shut.
Her scent assaults my nose with its intensity. Just doing this to her little breast creates this effect? What other secrets will be revealed as I explore the treasure trove of her body?
I switch sides. Instead of holding this breast as if it will run away from me, I relax my grip and use one hand to keep strumming the nipple I just abandoned as I tease this one to rise to higher heights.
So good, she says, as if I needed reassurance.
I can smell what I do to you, Willow. I take an exaggerated sniff in through my nose. Your scent is all the aphrodisiac a male could need.
I love the sound of the laugh she rewards me with.
She flashes me a picture. It’s not like the vague pictures she showed Valor and me on our imaginary porch this afternoon. This is very specific. It shows my head with my long black hair between her open legs.
You’d allow me to do that? I ask. This time it’s my eyes that are wide in wonder.
Oh yeah, big guy, she says with a smile. And this.
She flashes the same picture with the addition of Valor doing to her breasts what I was doing a moment ago.
Maybe it’s me. Maybe it’s my animal DNA, but anger and jealousy blast through me. I want to roar “no” in my loudest voice. I picture leaping off Willow’s sexy, willing body and rushing at Valor. I’m not proud of the next picture that possesses my thoughts, that of tearing his jugular from his throat.
I pull myself off her body. My feet hit the dirt floor and I back to the tent flap that serves as a door. I don’t want to hurt Valor. I don’t want to disappoint Willow. I don’t want to mess this up for any of us.
I may have wild animal DNA, but I’m a humanoid. I’m capable of more than being a killing machine. I have self-control.
I look at Willow and force myself to calm. Taking deep breaths, I hold onto her gaze.
Struggling , is all I can communicate. Two syllables are almost more than I can manage.
My heart is pounding in my chest. It’s so loud, I feel it beating in my ears and my cock. As I settle down, I force myself to do the hardest thing perhaps I’ve ever done. I move my gaze to Valor.
He’s not my rival, I tell myself. He’s my friend. He’s saved my life more than once. He’s not just a friend. I said I loved him earlier. And I meant it.
I lift one foot and place it firmly on the ground, then do the same with the other. I didn’t move, it was just a mental trick to tell my mind I’m going to stay put, right here, as if my feet were glued down.
I have many faults, but I seldom lie to myself. A moment ago, I almost left Willow’s side and leaped at Valor. If I didn’t maintain my control, I would have killed him.
There’s only one way for me to tolerate sharing her. I have to stand here and watch him take her. I need to watch him fuck her first while I keep my inner beast at bay. If my essence fills her first, I’ll never let him have her. I’ll fight until one of us is dead, which is a death sentence for us all. I have to go second, once he’s already seeded her, or we’re all dead.
Go to her, Valor. Get on the bed, kiss her, caress her nipples… I’m not sure I can say the rest, so I wrestle with myself for a while. I need to get over this. I need to tell the beast inside me… no, maybe there’s more than one beast. I need to tell the beasts inside me that I’m in charge, not them. The three of us are a team. Valor, Willow, and I belong together. Not just on a race to the flagpole, but in this fucking bed.
We are going to work together. We are going to share pleasure. Valor is not my enemy or my rival.
Valor. I need to watch you take Willow. I will watch you have sex to completion. I want to be inside you, Willow, but this will never work until I truly know to the marrow of my bones that I can share you. I can’t wait to sheathe myself in you, but it will be after Valor plants his seed first.