Chapter 5
Kennedy
I left Nick’s penthouse, my steps quick and shaky. Each footfall echoed in my mind, a reminder that I was moving away from something raw and electric. If I looked back, I feared I’d collapse under the weight of what had just happened.
The elevator ride felt like a slow descent into a different kind of hell, the kind I knew too well. The doors opened, and the air shifted, cold and stifling as I stepped into the garage.
I considered calling a friend, but who could I call? No one would come. And I sure as hell wasn't calling Gary.
Instead, I ordered an Uber and waited. It was only a few minutes, but it felt like forever.
I climbed inside, the leather seats unforgiving against my skin.
I stared at my reflection in the window, barely recognizing the girl looking back at me.
Flushed cheeks and swollen lips told tales of passion that felt foreign and intoxicating.
But it was the hunger in my eyes that startled me most—a flicker of something wild and untamed that hadn’t been there before.
I clutched my phone tightly, every pulse in my hand urging me to delete every trace of Nick from existence. But still, my fingers froze above the screen, refusing to move.
“It didn’t mean anything,” I whispered into the silence surrounding me. The words tasted bitter on my tongue. Deep down, I didn’t believe them.
I blinked hard at my reflection again, searching for some semblance of the good girl who always followed the rules. She seemed lost now—buried beneath layers of confusion and need that thrummed just beneath my skin.
The car pulled away from the curb as if trying to escape what had happened between us, but it couldn’t outrun the truth settling in—the undeniable shift within me.
The car ride dragged on, the hum of the engine blending with my chaotic thoughts. I leaned against the window, watching the city blur by, wishing for an escape that belonged to me—just me. But I had nowhere to go. Not anymore.
As we pulled into the driveway of Gary’s estate, dread settled in my stomach like a stone. The grand entrance loomed ahead, its polished marble gleaming under the soft glow of streetlights. I took a deep breath before stepping out, forcing myself to appear composed.
The front door swung open before I could knock. Gary stood there, a smile plastered on his face as if nothing was amiss. He leaned down and pressed a quick kiss to my cheek, warmth that felt more like an icy reminder of how far apart we truly were.
“Hey there, sweetheart! Where’ve you been?” he asked, his voice light and cheerful.
I swallowed hard, resisting the urge to recoil from his touch. “Just… out,” I replied, trying to keep my tone neutral.
“Out? You know I’ve been trying to reach you.” His brow furrowed slightly as he gestured toward my phone resting in my pocket. “You didn’t answer.”
“I was busy,” I said, attempting to sound casual, even though every word felt heavy with untruths.
He tilted his head slightly, studying me as if he sensed something was off. “Busy doing what?”
I forced a smile that didn’t quite reach my eyes. “Just needed some air.”
I stepped inside, and the door clicked shut behind me, sealing in the tension that coiled tight in the air. Gary’s smile faded slightly as he studied me, a glimmer of something sharp lurking in his eyes.
“Where’ve you been?” His voice held an edge I recognized. Fury simmered just beneath the surface, and I could almost see him calculating his next move.
“I told you—I was out.” I tried to sound nonchalant, but my heart raced as he stepped closer.
He reached for my arm, fingers wrapping around my wrist. The moment he touched me, I flinched instinctively. His grip tightened before he caught himself, the flicker of surprise morphing into a hard stare that felt like ice water splashed across my skin.
“Careful,” he said, voice low and measured. “I'm sure after the scene you caused earlier would keep you from making me even angrier.” He reset his expression quickly, smoothing over the crack in his facade.
My stomach twisted at the threat veiled in his calm demeanor.
“We’ll announce the wedding date tomorrow,” he said, a satisfied grin returning to his lips as if he’d just revealed a prize.
I nodded automatically, but dread pooled in my gut like lead. It was supposed to be a celebration—a promise—but it felt like shackles tightening around my wrists.
“You’re mine,” he murmured against my ear, breath hot and heavy.
A wave of nausea washed over me at those words. Someone else had said that only an hour ago.
“Gary—” My voice trembled as I tried to pull away from him.
He didn’t let go. Instead, his thumb brushed along my jawline, making it hard to breathe through the sickening twist in my chest.
“Don’t fight this,” he warned softly, but I could hear the warning under his calm words—an unyielding reminder of who held power here.
I wished for freedom—the kind that didn’t feel like slipping into chains—but all I could do was nod again as darkness crept in around us.
I felt Gary's breath against my skin as he leaned in, lips inches from mine. My pulse quickened, a mix of panic and revulsion surging through me. I couldn’t let this happen. Not now, not ever again.
I pulled away sharply; the rejection hanging heavy in the air between us. “I need space,” I managed to say, forcing my voice to stay steady.
His smile faltered, confusion crossing his features before irritation set in. “What’s wrong with you?” he asked, frustration bubbling beneath the surface.
“Nothing. I just—” I hesitated, searching for the right words while my heart raced. I needed to escape this moment, this suffocating atmosphere that threatened to swallow me whole.
With a quick step back, I turned and rushed up the staircase, grateful that he didn’t follow. The soft carpet muffled my hurried steps as I reached my room and shut the door behind me, locking it with trembling hands.
Inside, I leaned against the cool wood for a moment, trying to catch my breath. The silence enveloped me like a shroud; it felt safe but also isolating. The world outside faded into nothingness as I took a few steps into the room.
I collapsed onto my bed and buried my face in the pillows. Tears came silently at first—just gentle streams that flowed without sound or sobs. It felt as if my body had finally decided to release everything I'd held back all night.
Every muscle ached from tension—my body sore from fighting against both Gary’s control and my own feelings for Nick Maddox.
His kiss still lingered on my lips like an electric shock that refused to fade away.
My thighs trembled at the memory of his touch; it was intoxicating and terrifying all at once.
I pressed my palms against my eyes as if trying to block out the reality of what had happened—the choice I had made and what it meant for me now. Each tear fell quietly into the fabric beneath me, soaking in all the confusion swirling inside me.
In that moment of solitude, everything became painfully clear: I was trapped between two worlds—one that expected perfection and another that offered something darker but real. And as much as I tried to hold onto control, it slipped through my fingers like sand on a windy day.
I buried my face deeper into the pillows, whispering to myself, “It was just a mistake.”
The words felt hollow, echoing back like a taunt. But my body ached for him, a strange yearning I couldn’t shake. Every breath I took sent waves of warmth rushing through me, pulling me back to that moment when Nick had leaned in and claimed me with those fierce words: “You’re mine.”
My heart raced at the memory, and I squeezed my eyes shut, trying to drown out the desire thrumming beneath my skin.
I fumbled for the bedside table, where I’d left the engagement ring Gary had given me.
My fingers grazed its cool surface, and I pulled it out with a mix of trepidation and dread.
The weight of it felt wrong in my hand—too heavy, too cold.
It represented everything I had been taught to want but now seemed like an anchor dragging me down.
With trembling hands, I slid it onto my finger, hoping it might bring some semblance of comfort or clarity. But as it settled in place, reality hit harder than before; it didn’t fit anymore. It hung loosely against my skin, almost mocking me.
I stared at the ring—gold glinting under the dim light—and felt a rush of anger bubbling up from somewhere deep inside. It represented a future I no longer wanted; every promise behind it felt like shackles tightening around my wrists. A prison of expectations and control.
“No,” I breathed out sharply as if saying it aloud could somehow break the spell that Gary’s ring cast over me. But even as I tried to convince myself of this truth, the memory of Nick’s intense gaze haunted me.
It was impossible to forget how he’d made me feel—alive and reckless in a way I hadn’t known existed until he challenged every part of who I thought I was. In stark contrast stood Gary’s predictable world—a life built on stability that now felt suffocating.
Tears welled up again as conflicting emotions churned within me. Was this really what love was supposed to feel like?
The door swung open without a knock, and Gary stormed in, his expression a mix of anger and something darker that sent a chill through me. I quickly wiped my eyes, but the damage was done—he noticed.
“Where were you?” he demanded a third time, his voice low and dangerous.
“Out,” I replied, trying to keep my tone steady. The way he stood there, hands on his hips, radiated a possessiveness that made my skin crawl.
“Don’t play games with me, Kennedy. I saw you with Nick Maddox,” he spat.
I swallowed hard, my heart racing. “He just talked to me.”
“Talked? Is that what you call it?” He stepped closer, invading my space. “You think I don’t know what he’s done? How many times he’s taken cheap shots at me and your brother on the ice? You think it’s just rivalry?”