Chapter 30 – June
CHAPTER THIRTY
JUNE
The doctor warned me about this, but did I listen?
No , of course not. I thought it would take way more time. But it’s only been three days and the chills and shakes have already begun. It was a humbling experience to have a gynecologist between my spread legs while I white-knuckle gripped Arin on one side and Seth on the other, fighting tears and a panic attack.
“I suggest you take a few weeks off, because based on the pattern of your first heat” — the doctor removed her gloves, looking up at me sympathetically — “this removal will likely usher in your second heat early as your body adjusts to its natural hormone patterns.”
I shuffle down the hallway, blankets in my arms as I move them from the laundry room to the nest. It doesn’t smell like any of my pack and that’s unacceptable.
“Hey, darling.” Bennett catches my eye as I walk through the kitchen again. “Can I help you with anything?”
“No,” I answer automatically, then pause. “Actually —” Walking over to him, I drop my forehead against his chest, wrapping my arms around him, breathing out the crawling feeling under my skin and in oranges, bright and comforting. “Hug me.”
He barely manages to muffle his laugh as he wraps his arms around me and kisses the top of my head. “You’re warm.”
“I wonder why,” I snark at him, then nudge his shirt with my face, hands creeping under it to touch his skin. So smooth . His body is so nice — so rude to wear clothes around me —
Bennett scratches his nails through my hair, making me preen as my brain focuses on pushing his shirt up so I can see his chest, mouth watering.
“You want to go lie down in the nest and I’ll get you food?”
I scrunch my nose and look up at him. “I’m not hungry.”
His lips twitch. “Tell me what you need, darling.”
Whining, I push his shirt up more, the uncomfortable feeling in my body making every nerve ending feel unsettled. “I was so stupid .” I work to get his shirt off, rewarded by the glorious sight of it falling to the floor and him standing bare chested in the kitchen like some kind of chef-god that I get to lick whenever I want.
Bennett has the audacity to laugh at me as he cups my face. “Why were you stupid?”
“Because” — I grab him, pulling him closer as my lashes flutter, feeling his lips on my cheeks, then my jaw, moving to the bond mark as we both sigh out — “I thought I had more time before this heat.” Bennett’s teeth graze the mark he made in my skin and I run my hands over his chest. Mine .
“Come to the nest with me, alpha, you’re not busy right now.”
“I am yours to use.” He whispers the words before he kisses me.
My mind goes hazy as we back down the hall to the nest. I tug him with me, moving him how I want, making him stay as I kiss down his chest, sinking to my knees. “What about the vasectomy?”
“All done.” He pulls my sweater off, looking down with dark eyes. “Done by an alpha doctor who made sure there were no more active sperm. I can find condoms if you —”
I hum, details blurring as I push my leggings down, shedding the rest of my clothes before focusing on him . My alpha rises above me, standing just where I left him, bare chest highlighted by the stained glass skylight above us, clad in only a pair of sweats that are strained across the front.
I can help .
Reaching forward, I pull him out, kissing the head of his cock sweetly when it appears. My eyes shut as he groans, a hand moving to my hair, gathering it as I wrap my lips around him. The taste of him bursts on my tongue — rich, bright, tinged with fudge and sweetness that makes me glide my tongue all over. I suck on him before I lean back, sitting on my heels.
“You can fuck me now.”
Bennett stares down at me, eyes wild. “I can?”
I nod. “I just wanted to taste first.”
He utters a low curse before he tackles me to the nest mattress, kissing me heatedly as he falls between my spread thighs. “You and Seth will be the fucking death of me.”
Grinning, I settle back into the pile of blankets and pillows I’ve been arranging for the past two days. Amongst them are Theo’s sheets, Arin’s dress shirts, Seth’s socks, and Bennett’s own pajama pants — but the smells are nothing compared to the real alpha on top of me as his hands traverse my body, fingers hooking in my underwear to rid me of them.
As his hand touches my foot, he laughs. “Do you want your fuzzy socks on or off while I fuck the life out of you, sweetheart?”
“Don’t care.” I breathe out the words, forcing him to kiss me again, my stomach cramping as I whine, “Just need you in me, alpha, now —”
He groans, then notches at my entrance, sinking into me without another word. I cry out, wrapping a leg around him as I grind up. The first heat made me feel like I was losing my mind — but this — the feelings of lust, love, want, need rise to an overwhelming clamor in my body. They tangle together, following the bond between our hearts. It’s like I’m in the moment but also watching it through his shared emotions, pleasure winding as he nips at my lips, thrusting slow.
Turning my head, I feel his kisses move to my bond mark again, sucking on it as I stare at the muscles in his arm. Braced above me, they keep bulging, holding his weight as he fucks me. I moan at the sight — hottest thing I’ve ever seen — wrapping my other leg around him as I grind against his knot.
“ Fuck .”
The softly muttered curse doesn’t come from myself or the man on top of me, and goosebumps rise on my skin as I turn to look at the open door. Seth’s eyes meet mine, then wander to Bennett’s body. Theo and Arin are a half-step behind him.
Sighing, I pull Bennett closer, my voice breathy with the movement of his hips. “We started without you.”
Bennett grabs a handful of my hair, jerking my head to the side so he can bite at the bond mark. “So fucking tempting.” He thrusts deeper, knot teasing me as I arch into him, and I feel his grin as he murmurs, “I told you I’d make them all watch me fuck you one day.” Slipping out of me, he flips me, forcing my head down to the nest as I kneel, punching his hips into mine from behind. “Let them all watch as I fill this pretty pink pussy with my cum and make you messy.”
I scream as I clench around him, crying out as he sets a brutal pace. It’s near punishing how fast he fucks me and my omega loves it. I have to chase my own orgasm, reaching under myself to play with my clit, his knot slipping in and then back out, stretching me perfectly.
Bennett groans, hand on my neck as he pushes against the bond mark, a physical representation of how much we love and know each other.
“Are you ready for them to watch you cover me, darling?”
His hips slam into mine and I shiver under him, screaming as slick gushes out around Bennett’s knot. He pushes in all the way, holding onto me as he comes with a roar and I feel myself fluttering around him, punch-drunk as he hums and kisses across my shoulders. His fingers move between us, and then he releases his knot from me early, a mixture of us dripping down the backs of my thighs as he leans away.
“What a pretty omega; flushed, fucked, and filled.”
I groan, heat flashing down my skin as I roll onto my side and look at the door, my hand wandering down my body as my two other alphas and my beta eye me. Bennett bends down, kissing my stomach, nuzzling my skin as I push the mix of our release back into myself.
Arin stares, eyes dark. “Can we help you with your heat, love?”
Bennett kisses down to my thighs, breathing out against the bond mark Arin’s own teeth left before he nips at it. I whine, arching up as his hands move over me, nodding my head.
“Come in.”
The ghost of Bennett’s touch leaves me just as Arin makes a beeline for the center of the nest. I’m barely upright before he grabs me, meeting me for a passionate kiss as his hands glide over my sated body. My prime . He lifts me partially and I feel the nest dip as there’s other movement.
Pulling away, I turn to see Theo already mostly naked, right beside us, cock in hand as I lean over and kiss his tip with a little hum.
He groans, pushing my hair back. “I should braid this — fuck —” He cuts himself off as I suck him into my mouth, swirling my tongue. The sound of a bottle cap popping open draws my eyes as Seth climbs into the nest, waving the bottle of lube at me.
“Hello, baby.” He gives me a sweet kiss on my cheek, ignoring Theo’s cock in my mouth. Seth winks. “I love you, be with you in a minute.” Then he tackles Bennett.
I laugh, pulling back as my head swivels, finding Arin again. He crooks a finger at me, sitting against one of the nest walls, naked and legs wide. His hair is ruffled and I crawl over to him, climbing on top before sinking down onto him with a little sigh.
His hands move over me, one finding my hair, holding my head as I rock up and down, but he forces me to turn. “Suck. This is punishment for starting without us.”
Theo stands to the side of us, just waiting and I open my lips again, diving forward with a smile as I rock on top of Arin. It’s not a punishment — clean rainwater coats my nostrils as I bob my head, letting one of Arin’s hands guide my hips. Pulling back with a moan, I kiss down Theo’s length, gasping as Arin’s knot kisses my swollen clit.
“I want you all.”
Theo groans, switching to holding my head, pulling me back onto him and using my mouth as Arin starts to thrust up faster. I whine, mouth full, eyes wide because each time I pull back I get glimpses of Bennett and Seth, twisting together, touching, gasping, hands fisting —
Arin slams up faster as I start to clench and my hands drop from Theo’s thighs, nails digging in Arin’s chest as I ride him harder, hips moving as fast as I can, chasing and writhing until he grunts under me, his knot slipping in as his cock kicks, filling me with a gasp of my name.
The omega in me preens as I pull off Theo, a strand of spit coming with me as I stare up at him. “How do you want me?”
He groans, then drops to his knees, kissing me heatedly as Arin takes a moment to gather himself. I feel him slide out, but then his hand cups me, pushing the mess back inside as he guides me into Theo’s lap. It barely takes a moment, and no effort from either of us — because Arin grabs Theo by the cock and then shoves him inside me, landing heated kisses on my back as I cry out.
The bonds sing my chest as I reach out blindly. “I want to feel you all. Please .”
Someone touches my hand, then Seth is there, kissing up my arm as he murmurs, “It’s okay, we’ve got you, baby. We’ve always got you.”
Theo starts to move under me as Arin rubs his hands over my back. Seth drags me into a kiss, Bennett’s hand on my hair, keeping us together as he kneels behind Seth and thrusts into him. Seth grunts, then kisses me even harder as my hand falls, fisting his cock, jerking my wrist.
Theo’s lips sear across my shoulder, all of us moving as Arin pushes into me from behind and I go still .
Mine. My pack. My loves .
It takes everything to keep upright as we all move together, lips and touches blurring. Bennett groans as I rock between Arin and Theo, my skin alight with pure pleasure.
“Come for us, June.”
I shudder, unsure who said it, uncaring as I climax again. Seth twitches in my hand and I feel the spill of wet over my fingers as Theo comes underneath me. Bennett jolts with a broken groan as Arin holds me up, buried deep inside me, teeth in my shoulder.
I need more .
“I can’t wait for her heats to kill me. God, what a way to go.” Arin laughs at Theo’s declaration, half-breathless behind me. I blindly pull Theo up into a kiss, biting at his lips, someone’s hand between my legs, rubbing and making me shiver again.
This is what safety feels like. This is love. Surrounded by all four of them, all my bonds resonating with adoration, chasing away the heat with everything in them.
How could anyone ever say this isn’t what life should be?
I turn my head, finding Bennett on instinct to kiss him.
“I love you.” The words escape, meant for them all, the emotion reverberating down to the marrow in my bones, to my very soul. My chest warms from four different directions as someone touches my hair. Arin pulls me into a kiss. Seth’s touch lingers on my chest over my heart.
“We love you too.”
“Prove it.”
“With pleasure, omega.”