25
TOBY
“I missed you.” I pushed Grizzly against his bedroom door, after kicking it shut, and kissed him. “Did you miss me, too?” I wasn’t sure why I asked him that. Lame .
I wasn’t the insecure type, but Grizzly made me feel vulnerable, something nobody before him had ever done.
“Of course, I missed you.” He kissed down my neck and my cock sprang to life. “I don’t want to talk. I just want you.” He grabbed my biceps and switched places with me.
With my back against the door, he quickly unfastened my pants. His hesitant gaze watched me as if waiting for me to object. I would never stop Grizzly from doing anything to me.
I cupped his face and kissed him frantically. Plunging my tongue into his mouth, I worked him up to show him how excited he made me and eager for more.
“I need to taste you,” he muttered into my mouth.
“Nobody is stopping you.” I let go of his face, placed my hands on the tops of his shoulders, then pushed him down to his knees. “And when you’re finished, I’ll return the gesture.”
He gave me no reply, just a faint nod as he tugged down my pants and boxers. My dick sprang toward his face, happy to see him. We’d only been apart a few days, but since we’d taken our relationship to a physical level, it was challenging to be away from him.
I wanted him all the time, which was a little frightening. Usually, I lost interest in a person after a few weeks. I wanted to believe it would be different with Grizzly, just as it had been with Libby. We’d been friends for a long time and I hoped intimacy wouldn’t ruin things.
Guess we’d have to wait and see.
His hands caressed my thighs and glided to my backside. He dotted kisses across my stomach, really getting into it, licking a path from my belly button down to my pubic line.
I fucking melted.
My knees weakened.
My heart raced.
The fullness in my core and sensations pulsing through my veins were like nothing I had ever experienced before.
“You’re driving me crazy, baby.” I lovingly touched his head. “Teasing me with anticipation.”
“I want more than sex from you.”
His words made me freeze. “More? Well, you greedy man,” I replied in a playful tone.
“I’m serious.” He stared up at me as he wrapped his hand around the base of my dick. “I want your heart, Toby. Your loyalty and friendship.”
“I thought you didn’t want to talk?” My right eye twitched. Backed into a corner, er a, backed against the door, I felt put on the spot.
“I don’t. You talk while I…” He cut-off his words and took me into his warm mouth.
Again, I melted.
My mind went blank while he rubbed the head of my dick against the roof of his mouth. How could he expect me to talk? Or form a coherent thought?
He sucked me into the back of his throat and he whimpered. The man’s whimpering undid me every goddamn time. It was a sound of pleasure and pain. A cry of agony for all his years of sacrificing who he was truly.
I couldn’t imagine what it had been like to be him. Utterly unbearable came to mind.
Luckily, he’d had Libby to comfort him and hide behind. And now he had me…
“That’s it, handsome. Take me all in. All the way back into your throat.” I caressed the side of his face. “You’re the only man I will ever adore, Grizz. No one will ever take your place.” My words seemed to drive his lust.
His hands gripped my ass cheeks and he pulled me toward his face. His sounds increased as he sucked. He flicked his eyes up at me, and my heart stopped at the emotion in his brown depths. The love and adoration.
The sight of him was spellbinding.
As our gazes locked, his suction increased. The intensity turned my mind to putty. It was like he wanted to overpower me. Show me who was in control.
He made me feel vulnerable. I loved and hated it all at the same time.
Suddenly, he released me.
“Is something wrong?” I asked, a bit of panic formed in my chest. Had he not believed my words? Had I done something to upset him?
“Nothing’s wrong.” He took my hand and guided me to the bed. “Get on your back.” His demanding tone sent a chill spearing down my spine.
I did as he said.
One by one, he took my shoes off. Socks. Pants. Boxers. His heated gaze roamed over every inch of me. I swore he was memorizing me.
He grabbed my ankles and propped them up. “Spread your legs.” His hands glided up my inner thighs, opening me up to him. “You’re so fucking beautiful, Toby.”
“Beautiful?”
“Yes. And hot.” He started removing his clothes. “So incredibly irresistible. I’ll never be with any other man.”
“Surely, you’d want to experience someone else.”
“No. All I need is you and Libby.”
A knock at the door stole our attention.
“Landon, it’s me.” Libby’s sweet voice came from the other side of the door and tickled my ears.
Grizzly and I smiled at each other and seemed to read the other’s mind.
Selfishly, I’d sought out him when I returned to the compound. After spending a few days in Canada with Ciro, Grizzly had been the first person I wanted to see. We were so new together, exciting and fresh, all I wanted was to deepen our relationship and bond.
But it wasn’t only about Grizzly and me. We weren’t a couple. Libby was part of the deal, and I wouldn’t have it any other way.
I watched Grizzly’s naked form lumber toward the door and open it. He tugged Libby by the hand and she giggled at the sight of us.
“You naughty boys, getting nasty without me. How about you finish so I can watch?”
“Are you sure?” Grizzly asked her, then sealed his mouth to hers. They made out in front of me, seemingly forgetting I was on the bed with a raging hardon.
The passion between them increased my need for a release. Grizzly kneaded her full breasts with one hand and the other went between her thighs. Libby moaned and I almost lost my fucking load.
“Don’t be so greedy over there. I’m lonely. I need your lips around my cock, pronto.” I snapped my fingers to get his attention. I could be needy and greedy, too.
“Go.” Libby pushed him away. “Go satisfy our man. Give me a good show.”
Grizzly dropped a kiss on her forehead. “I love you.”
“I know. Don’t worry about me. I’m enjoying this. It’s what I want, too.”
“Just making sure.” And with that, he turned around and pounced on me, diving head first between my legs.
“Oh, fuck!” I shouted as he devoured my cock.
“Fuck his mouth,” Libby said, moving toward the side of the bed. “Don’t give him all the power. You take just as he’s taking.”
I obeyed and fisted his hair, holding him place while I thrust my hips. A zing shot into my dick each time I hit the back of his throat.
“That’s it,” Libby cooed. “I’ve never seen anything hotter than the two of you fucking.”
Grizzly growled and gurgled. The sensations I felt sent me over the edge.
“I can’t hold back,” I said through gritted teeth.
“Then don’t,” Libby told me.
And so I let go and exploded like an angry volcano right into the back of his throat. I panted as I stared up at the ceiling.
Was this really happening? Was I really with the two people I adored most in this dark and evil world?
Hell, yes!
Grizzly continued to milk me for all he was worth.
I’d never had such a needy lover before, but then, most people were always in a rush.
They didn’t savor sex like Grizzly did. They only wanted fast and instant gratification.
I usually did, too. But with Grizzly, I could lie right here with him licking me clean for the rest of my life.
Okay, that wasn’t true.
Eventually, I’d get antsy and bored.
Not because him and Libby weren’t incredible, but because I couldn’t stay in one place. I didn’t want to put roots down. My wanderlust would pull me away from them sooner than later.
“I’ll never get tired of watching you both.” Libby bent over and kissed me. “Never.”
“Sooner or later, I’ll be gone, you know?” It was time we had that talk. “To Canada and then, I don’t know where from there.”
Grizzly released my limp dick. “Don’t be a buzzkill.”
“Come here.” I opened my arms to them. They each climbed onto the bed, one on either side of me. “I will be leaving at the end of the week. I estimate the job will take a few months.”
“But you’ll come back on the weekends, right?” Libby asked.
“Some weekends, yes.” I pressed my lips against Grizzly’s head, wondering if I should tell them what was on my mind. Share with them my vision for our relationship. “But probably not until September.”
“Why September?” Libby asked. “Surely, it’s easy to fly back and forth.”
“You’re right, it would be easy. But I worry about you both getting too attached to me.”
Grizzly exhaled a deep breath. I sensed he didn’t like what I was saying.
“After the funeral, I’ll leave.” I didn’t want to hurt them, but feared I might.
“And what do you want us to do while you’re gone? Just pretend like nothing ever happened between us?” Grizzly asked. “I can’t do that, Toby. I won’t do that.”
“No, baby.” I kissed the side of his face. “We’ll always be together when I’m here. I just want an open relationship.”
“And I want to get married.” Libby reached over across my chest and took Grizzly’s hand. “I want to marry you, Landon. And I want to be with Toby whenever he’s around. We’ll all be together.”
“That’s exactly what I want, too,” I replied. “What do you want, Grizz?”
“Honestly, I’m open to anything. I never thought I’d get to be with you, so I’m just grateful to have you when I can. I mean, the time we’ve had has been more than I could’ve ever asked for. You freed me from the shackles I’d placed on myself.”
Damn, there he was willing to take what he was given instead of demanding more from me.
On the one hand, I felt bad like I was stealing his dreams. On the other hand, I knew I couldn’t promise I’d be faithful.
My job kept me gone for months at a time.
I’d eventually break and betray Grizzly’s and Libby’s trust, which was why I wanted us to go into this relationship with our eyes wide open.
“Aww,” Libby said.
“Then you’re okay with me coming and going?”
“Yeah, but just be prepared for lots of sex.” Grizzly wiggled his eyebrows.
“I can do that.” This conversation was going better than I imagined. So much better, I felt myself falling harder for Grizzly and Libby. I’d feared they might try to trap me and talk me into putting roots down in Bastion Township. If they’d gone that route, I would have had to break their hearts.
I could give them my heart and soul, but I couldn’t commit to a life in one place. As deeply as I cared and loved them, I’d be miserable.
“And if I’m being totally truthful, I’m ready for a little traditional living.” Libby glanced up at me, then over at Grizzly. “I may not ever have a baby of my own, but I want a home to call my own and a husband to share my life with.”
“Hold that thought.” Grizzly jumped off the bed and went into his bathroom. When he came out he’d put on underwear and had a little black box in his hand. “I know this isn’t romantic. I’m not good at romance, but now seems like the best time to ask you.”
“Oh my gosh!” Libby sat up and covered her mouth with her hand.
“No better time than the present.” I rolled onto my side to watch the two people I cared about most get engaged.
Grizzly lowered to one knee. “Libby Larson, will you marry me?” No fluff or romantic sentiments with that man. Just straight to the point. He opened the box and revealed a simple, not huge by any means, diamond ring.
“Yes! Yes, I’ll marry you!” Libby burst into tears as he placed the ring on her finger.
“Why are you crying?” he asked her.
“Because I’m so happy, silly!” She looped her arms around his neck and hugged him tightly.
I smiled up at Grizzly and took his hand, lacing our fingers together. “I’m happy for both of you. Truly happy.”